{"id":39500,"date":"2021-08-01T14:22:26","date_gmt":"2021-08-01T13:22:26","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=39500"},"modified":"2021-08-01T14:22:26","modified_gmt":"2021-08-01T13:22:26","slug":"slutet-8","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=39500","title":{"rendered":"Slutet"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

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Slutet. Jag sitter h\u00e4r igen. L\u00e5tsaskontor. Ett \u00e5r till n\u00e4sta semester. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men OK. Faktiskt. Om jag bara f\u00e5r sitta h\u00e4r i lugn och ro ett tag och sakta inse faktum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Det finns 4366 ol\u00e4sta mail i inkorgen som ledigheten genererat alldeles av sig sj\u00e4lv utan att jag beh\u00f6vt r\u00f6ra ett finger. Det mesta \u00e4r skit. En del viktigt. Annat definitivt l\u00e4sbart. Det tar ett tag att ta sig igenom dock. Tid som kunde anv\u00e4ndas b\u00e4ttre. K\u00e4nns det som. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Har f\u00e5tt ett ryggskott i starta jobba present. S\u00e5klart. En mild variant. Kanske \u00e4r det Ischias. Kanske n\u00e5got annat. G\u00f6r ont. Men sj\u00e4lvf\u00f6rv\u00e5llat. Sitter man hela dagarna och inte kompenserar f\u00f6r det f\u00e5r man helt enkelt skylla sig sj\u00e4lv. M\u00e5ste bli \u00e4ndring d\u00e4r faktiskt. Tills dess tror jag faktiskt att jag \u00f6verlever. Eventuellt. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Mest n\u00f6jd \u00e4r jag nog med att ha tagit mig tid till att sitta n\u00e5gra timmar i studion<\/em>. Tre l\u00e5tar. Jod\u00e5. Tack f\u00f6r den leveransen du som l\u00e5ter mig teckna ned dem. Vem du<\/strong> nu \u00e4r. N\u00e5v\u00e4l, de \u00e4r f\u00f6dda. L\u00e5tarna. Jag f\u00f6rv\u00e4ntar mig ingen mer lyssning p\u00e5 dom nya \u00e4n de som redan finns utlagda. Men det kan \u00e4nd\u00e5 vara OK. Kvinnorna m\u00e5ste<\/em> kanske h\u00f6ja sina r\u00f6ster f\u00f6r att h\u00f6ras<\/em>. Gamla gubbar, speciellt ocoola, har inget f\u00f6r att ens g\u00f6ra sig det besv\u00e4ret. Nope. Inte ens om de orkat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men mycket<\/strong> n\u00f6jd med sommaren. Vila. Mycket. Bra. Men ett nytt v\u00e4xthus ocks\u00e5. En inmurad stos till kaminen. Besk\u00e5dat inspirerande konst och besett virkad sj\u00f6<\/a>. Doftat p\u00e5 havet. Pridevecka i Lo(o)s. \u00c5terv\u00e4nt till r\u00f6tterna. Om man nu har n\u00e5gra s\u00e5dana? \u00c4tit pizza i Furudal, platsen dit dit alla v\u00e4gar b\u00e4r. Nope, det \u00e4r Furudal allts\u00e5. Inte Rom. Har aldrig varit annat. Alla vet det. Prova n\u00e4rmaste v\u00e4g f\u00e5r du se. \u00c5k p\u00e5. Till sist Furudal. Stanna. Lika bra att ta en pizza om du n\u00e5r hela v\u00e4gen fram.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tror jag skall orka ett \u00e5r till. Men b\u00f6rjar med 92-dagar och tar resten av “arbets\u00e5ret” d\u00e4rifr\u00e5n. D\u00e4r borta n\u00e5gonstans (n\u00e4ra nu) slutar n\u00e4mligen l\u00e5tsas<\/em> definitivt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Slutet. Jag sitter h\u00e4r igen. L\u00e5tsaskontor. Ett \u00e5r till n\u00e4sta semester. Men OK. Faktiskt. Om jag bara f\u00e5r sitta h\u00e4r i lugn och ro ett tag och sakta inse faktum. Det finns 4366 ol\u00e4sta mail i inkorgen som ledigheten genererat alldeles av sig sj\u00e4lv utan att jag beh\u00f6vt r\u00f6ra ett finger. Det mesta \u00e4r skit. 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