{"id":39467,"date":"2021-07-22T11:42:11","date_gmt":"2021-07-22T10:42:11","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=39467"},"modified":"2021-07-22T11:42:11","modified_gmt":"2021-07-22T10:42:11","slug":"uppvarmd","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=39467","title":{"rendered":"Uppv\u00e4rmd"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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En australiensk “v\u00e4n” v\u00e4rmer upp l\u00f6spastan. Ingen semester d\u00e4r inte. Platsen han bor p\u00e5 har precis tagit sig igenom h\u00f6ststormarna som var extra j\u00e4vliga i \u00e5r och resulterat i evakueringar och andra on\u00f6diga bekymmer. Eller v\u00e5rstormar \u00e4r det s\u00e5klart. Vinter nu. S\u00e5 mycket vinter det nu blir d\u00e4r under. B\u00e4sta arbetsperioden p\u00e5 \u00e5ret \u00e4r nu om man \u00e4r d\u00e4r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag sitter h\u00e4r och blir lite sugen jag med. Men om en vecka \u00e4r jag d\u00e4r jag ocks\u00e5. Kan f\u00f6rresten inte klaga p\u00e5 tillvaron h\u00e4r nu heller. Har tagit mig l\u00e5ngt, l\u00e5ngt ner i det avslappnades tr\u00e4sk. S\u00e5 l\u00e5ngt att det \u00e4r fr\u00e5gan om en vecka r\u00e4cker f\u00f6r att kravla sig upp p\u00e5 n\u00e5gots\u00e5n\u00e4r tillfredsst\u00e4llande l\u00e5tsasarbetsniv\u00e5er igen. Men med det d\u00e4r \u00e4r det som det \u00e4r. N\u00e4r det \u00e4r dags b\u00f6rjar man vandra och sen vandrar man p\u00e5. R\u00e4tt vad det \u00e4r skall man vara ledig igen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men annat liv f\u00f6r\u00f6ver. H\u00f6stk\u00e4nningar har annars alltid get lite k\u00e4nslan av desperation i mitt inre. Allt det d\u00e4r som skall och m\u00e5ste ordnas, och vara p\u00e5 plats innan eldningss\u00e4songen b\u00f6rjar. Det man inte lyckas f\u00e5 till det har f\u00e5tt v\u00e4nta till n\u00e4sta \u00e5r. Man fick allts\u00e5 inte gl\u00f6mma n\u00e5got v\u00e4sentligt. I \u00e5r \u00e4r det allts\u00e5 inte s\u00e5 l\u00e4ngre. L\u00e5t vintern komma bara. N\u00e5ja, i fall “du” h\u00f6rde, s\u00e5 \u00e4r det alls ingen br\u00e5dska med det d\u00e4r “att komma”.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Musikabstinens \u00e4r bara f\u00f6rnamnet just nu. Jag lyssnar p\u00e5 musik n\u00e4stan alla vakna timmar annars. Men nu? Ingenting. Illa allts\u00e5. Jag tror att en stor del av suget att komma upp i sadeln igen kommer just d\u00e4rifr\u00e5n den l\u00e4ngtan. Men skall f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka f\u00e5 till n\u00e5gra timmar i “studion” ikv\u00e4ll om inte dagen tar den l\u00e4ngtan ur mig.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

V\u00e4xthuset beh\u00f6ver tak nu bara och s\u00e5 lite f\u00e4rg. Sen s\u00e5. Roligt projekt. V\u00e4xthus nummer tv\u00e5 tar vi n\u00e4sta \u00e5r. Tomater och gurkor har v\u00e4xt p\u00e5 bra \u00e4nd\u00e5 utan v\u00e4xthus i \u00e5r s\u00e5 f\u00f6rhoppningsvis hinner vi f\u00e5 lite sk\u00f6rd om n\u00e5gra veckor. Men n\u00e4sta \u00e5r allts\u00e5…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tv\u00e5 k\u00e4ndisar d\u00f6r. L\u00e4ser om dom i “tidningen” ig\u00e5r. B\u00e5da sjuttiotre. Man ser inte allt f\u00f6r s\u00e4llan att folk p\u00e5 dryga sjuttio d\u00f6r. Man n\u00e4rmar sig det d\u00e4r. S\u00e5 j\u00e4vla trist. Det \u00e4r sv\u00e5rt att f\u00f6rest\u00e4lla sig en v\u00e4rld som man inte finns i. “\u00c5ke Hedman, Du vet den d\u00e4r token i Los, lever han?<\/em>” och s\u00e5 svarar n\u00e5gon “nej det var l\u00e4nge sedan han dog<\/em>” och sj\u00e4lv vet man ingenting om det d\u00e4r f\u00f6r man \u00e4r inte l\u00e4ngre med. Finns inte. Det b\u00e4sta man kan hoppas p\u00e5 \u00e4r att man \u00e4r ett minne hos n\u00e5gon \u00e5tminstone.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast som d\u00f6d brukar v\u00e4l de d\u00e4r lovordarna kravla fram. Man blir liksom b\u00e4ttre \u00e4n man var. Skulle inte f\u00f6rv\u00e5na mig om till och med jag blir n\u00e4stan ok den dan. \u00c5tminstone lite. Men de som f\u00e4ller goda ord och bygger statyer \u00f6ver en efter ens d\u00f6d utan att st\u00f6tta medans man lever, och kanske har det sv\u00e5rt och jobbigt, dem skall jag spotta p\u00e5 i formen av ett fr\u00e5n hinsides s\u00e4nt iskallt sommarregn med inslag av hagel. Det \u00e4r liksom inget att ha det d\u00e4r. Inte f\u00f6r n\u00e5gon. Bara f\u00f6r de som uttalar och bygger. Sj\u00e4lvh\u00f6jarna. M\u00e5 de f\u00e5 ynkliga gravstenar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men man f\u00e5r v\u00e4l f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka h\u00e4nga med ett tag till. Jag har den \u00f6verenskommelsen med han\/hon\/det\/gud. Han\/hin\/det\/gud best\u00e4mmer n\u00e4r det \u00e4r dags. Inte jag. Tills den dan lever vi och f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker f\u00f6rverkliga det som k\u00e4nns starkt d\u00e4r inne. Det som man troligen sattes h\u00e4r p\u00e5 jorden f\u00f6r att slutf\u00f6ra.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Men nu forts\u00e4tter vi att njut av den nordliga sommaren. Ni vet , inte ens den \u00e4r s\u00e4rskilt Svensk…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

En australiensk “v\u00e4n” v\u00e4rmer upp l\u00f6spastan. Ingen semester d\u00e4r inte. Platsen han bor p\u00e5 har precis tagit sig igenom h\u00f6ststormarna som var extra j\u00e4vliga i \u00e5r och resulterat i evakueringar och andra on\u00f6diga bekymmer. Eller v\u00e5rstormar \u00e4r det s\u00e5klart. Vinter nu. S\u00e5 mycket vinter det nu blir d\u00e4r under. B\u00e4sta arbetsperioden p\u00e5 \u00e5ret \u00e4r nu […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-39467","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-swedish"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":22744,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=22744","url_meta":{"origin":39467,"position":0},"title":"Fetvadd","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2017-01-04","format":false,"excerpt":"Det dimper ner. 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