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Han ans\u00e5gs v\u00e4l lite besv\u00e4rlig s\u00e5d\u00e4r. G\u00f6sta. Eller G\u00f6sta Hedman<\/em>. Farsans bror. Min “besv\u00e4rlige” farbror. Ofta var han helt enkelt f\u00f6r mycket. Eller f\u00f6r litet. Manodepressiv. Med djupa dalar och h\u00f6ga toppar som n\u00e5dde hela v\u00e4gen upp till Mount Everest. Dalarna var bes\u00f6k ner till helvetets f\u00f6rg\u00e5rdar. Fast jag gillade honom. S\u00e5klart gjorde jag det.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tavlorna p\u00e5 v\u00e4ggen i v\u00e5rt sovrum \u00e4r hans verk. Den ena m\u00e5lade han i v\u00e5r l\u00e4genhet. Jag var med n\u00e4r han gjorde den. M\u00e5lade nog jag med p\u00e5 mitt eget blad. Motivet \u00e4r Voxnan som s\u00f6ker havet utanf\u00f6r v\u00e5r l\u00e4genhet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Den andra fanns kvar som l\u00f6sblad efter hans systrar. Eller “Lilly och Anna” som vi alltid sa. Som om de var en oskiljbar enhet. Ja i mycket var de v\u00e4l det ocks\u00e5 hela v\u00e4gen in i d\u00f6den. Men den d\u00e4r bilden fanns d\u00e4r n\u00e5gonstans. Hans hand k\u00e4nns igen s\u00e5 v\u00e4l. Vi ramade in den och h\u00e4ngde den bredvid den andra. Vi gillar dom d\u00e4r bilderna b\u00e5de K och jag.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u00f6sta var musiken ocks\u00e5. Vi delade den passionen. Tv\u00e5 dragspel som var hans ligger h\u00e4r i “studion” och v\u00e4ntar p\u00e5 att n\u00e5gon skall visa dem lite k\u00e4rlek. Vispr\u00e5men Storken. Sid Hansson. Jeja Sundstr\u00f6m. Cornelis, Finn, Evert. Och s\u00e5 G\u00f6sta d\u00e5 s\u00e5klart. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

En tid \u00e4gde han en karusell p\u00e5 Skansen. En annan tid en musikaff\u00e4r. En idiot och dumskalle gjorde sig av med hans r\u00f6da Italienska sportbil. Borde ha varit kvar. Det fanns mycket gl\u00e4dje i G\u00f6sta. Han kunde dyka upp. Alltid p\u00e5 topparna. I dalarna var livet inte s\u00e5 roligt s\u00e5klart. Utan syster Lilly, som tog ett st\u00f6rre ansvar f\u00f6r sina syskon \u00e4n man kan beg\u00e4ra av en m\u00e4nniska efter att deras mamma, min farmor, dog, hade det nog g\u00e5tt helt \u00e5t skogen. Kanske gjorde det det ibland ocks\u00e5. Jag k\u00e4nner s\u00e5 lite av historien. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Senare i livet f\u00f6rs\u00f6kte jag n\u00e4rma mig honom. Jag hade hittat farfar och hans liv. F\u00f6rstod att G\u00f6sta var den ende som haft n\u00e5gon slags kontakt med farfar. Men han svarade aldrig p\u00e5 mina n\u00e4rmanden. Morsan tyckte nog det d\u00e4r var “v\u00e4ck inte den bj\u00f6rn som sover<\/em>“. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men bilderna h\u00e4nger d\u00e4r s\u00e5klart. Inte v\u00e4rda en krona. Jo ramarna kanske. Men \u00e4lskade. Synnerligen sorglig \u00e4r den vars livsnjutningar m\u00e4ts i dollars.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Han ans\u00e5gs v\u00e4l lite besv\u00e4rlig s\u00e5d\u00e4r. G\u00f6sta. Eller G\u00f6sta Hedman. Farsans bror. Min “besv\u00e4rlige” farbror. Ofta var han helt enkelt f\u00f6r mycket. Eller f\u00f6r litet. Manodepressiv. Med djupa dalar och h\u00f6ga toppar som n\u00e5dde hela v\u00e4gen upp till Mount Everest. Dalarna var bes\u00f6k ner till helvetets f\u00f6rg\u00e5rdar. Fast jag gillade honom. S\u00e5klart gjorde jag det. 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