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M\u00f6rker som inte \u00e4r s\u00e5 mycket m\u00f6rker. Man blir lurad av lysr\u00f6ren p\u00e5 l\u00e5tsaskontoret. Tror att det \u00e4r m\u00f6rkt ute. Men sl\u00e4cker man dom s\u00e5 inser man att vi \u00e4r d\u00e4r nu. Natten lyckas aldrig riktigt ta \u00f6ver efter dagen. Ljuset dr\u00f6jer sig kvar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I b\u00f6rjan n\u00e4r vi bodde h\u00e4r var K och jag otroligt fascinerad av ljuset under den h\u00e4r tiden. Var ofta ut med bilen ut i skogen p\u00e5 n\u00e4tterna f\u00f6r att uppleva det p\u00e5 riktigt. F\u00f6r helst skall man s\u00e5klart \u00e5ka rakt in i en stor skog och d\u00e4r s\u00e4tta sig p\u00e5 en sten och uppleva midsommarnatten. Underligt nog \u00e4r det d\u00e4r inte alls samma sak i Edsbyn d\u00e4r jag v\u00e4xte upp. Fast Edsbyn bara ligger cirka sju mil h\u00e4rifr\u00e5n. Men det kan s\u00e5klart ha med ljusnedskr\u00e4pning att g\u00f6ra helt enkelt. Eller ocks\u00e5 \u00e4r det h\u00f6jden \u00f6ver havet h\u00e4r som skapar det d\u00e4r magiska ljuset.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nu har man bott h\u00e4r ett tag. Man tar saker f\u00f6r sj\u00e4lvklara. Luften, vattnet, bergen, midsommarljuset och inte att f\u00f6rgl\u00f6mma vinterns bl\u00e5ljus. Men jag f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker \u00e4nd\u00e5 minnas och uppskatta. F\u00f6r att inte bli en fattigare m\u00e4nniska. Som man blir i gl\u00f6mskan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men h\u00e4rlig tid. Suger in synen av midsommarblomster och andra blommor idag n\u00e4r jag h\u00e4mtar posten. Man blir verkligen bortsk\u00e4md den h\u00e4r tiden. Den gamla damen, k\u00f6rsb\u00e4rstr\u00e4det, som vintern gick s\u00e5 h\u00e5rt \u00e5t blommande f\u00f6r bara en vecka sedan. Nu \u00e4r det fullt av b\u00e4r\u00e4mnen. Hon t\u00e4nker tydligen sk\u00e4mma bort oss i \u00e5r ockd\u00e5 den goda damen. F\u00f6rtj\u00e4nar vi det ens? Men som vanligt \u00e4r det bara att tacka och ta emot. Njuta av de d\u00e4r r\u00f6da solvarma smakexplosionerna.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

En m\u00e5ne h\u00e4nger uppe p\u00e5 himlen h\u00e4r utanf\u00f6r. K\u00e4mpar med ljuset. En kamrat p\u00e5 f\u00e4rden genom universum. K\u00e4nns gott p\u00e5 n\u00e5got vis. Fullm\u00e5ne den 24’e. Extra magisk midsommarhelg allts\u00e5. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men dags att l\u00e4gga sig h\u00e4r. Bokslut avklarat ocks\u00e5 idag. Inte f\u00f6r att det \u00e4r m\u00e4rkv\u00e4rdigt p\u00e5 n\u00e5got s\u00e4tt. Men det skall g\u00f6ras och lite ansp\u00e4nning \u00e4r det \u00e4nd\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

“Klar” blev jag inte idag heller. Dokumentation stod det p\u00e5 en lapp. F\u00f6rs\u00f6kte f\u00f6lja den instruktionen och skrev ganska m\u00e5nga ord. F\u00e5r nog forts\u00e4tta efter den v\u00e4gen ocks\u00e5 imorgon.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Solit\u00e4rens liv p\u00e5 en kulle. En ocool tillvaro. Men jag klarar av det. Har ju valt sj\u00e4lv. Skall vandra hela v\u00e4gen och sen… ja fj\u00e4ril allts\u00e5.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

M\u00f6rker som inte \u00e4r s\u00e5 mycket m\u00f6rker. Man blir lurad av lysr\u00f6ren p\u00e5 l\u00e5tsaskontoret. Tror att det \u00e4r m\u00f6rkt ute. Men sl\u00e4cker man dom s\u00e5 inser man att vi \u00e4r d\u00e4r nu. Natten lyckas aldrig riktigt ta \u00f6ver efter dagen. Ljuset dr\u00f6jer sig kvar. I b\u00f6rjan n\u00e4r vi bodde h\u00e4r var K och jag otroligt […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-39178","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":13546,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=13546","url_meta":{"origin":39178,"position":0},"title":"Aung San Suu Kyi och livet","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2014-06-13","format":false,"excerpt":"Det \u00e4r inte natt l\u00e4ngre. 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