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Mer gr\u00e4s blir inte klippt. Det regnar n\u00e4mligen h\u00e4r uppe. V\u00e4lbeh\u00f6vligt skulle jag tro. “Det kan aldrig regna f\u00f6r mycket innan midsommar<\/em>” \u00e4r v\u00e4l b\u00f6nders \u00e5rliga mantra. \u00c4r man bond\u00e4ttling s\u00e5 h\u00e4nger det d\u00e4r s\u00e5klart med. Man gr\u00e5ter allts\u00e5 inte. G\u00f6r annat. Det finns alltid annat att g\u00f6ra. V\u00e5rbruk. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men nu l\u00e5tsaskontor. Den sista f\u00e4rden. N\u00e5ja. Knappast. Men en av de d\u00e4r slutliga. Man drar ig\u00e5ng en vecka p\u00e5 s\u00f6ndag och gillar det. Som alltid.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men sk\u00f6n helg. Mycket vila men ocks\u00e5 en hel del gjort. N\u00e4r helgliv \u00e4r som b\u00e4st. Jod\u00e5 lite gott att \u00e4ta och dricka p\u00e5 det. En bortsk\u00e4md m\u00e4nniskas bek\u00e4nnelse. Man f\u00e4rdas p\u00e5 den ena r\u00e4kmackan efter den andra genom ett liv. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Liksom<\/strong>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nationaldag idag. Folk st\u00e5r i givakt kring bl\u00e5gula fanor runt om i landet. Skiter i det d\u00e4r. Det \u00e4r bara dumt. S\u00e5 mycket ondska har skapats av precis det d\u00e4r. S\u00e5 m\u00e5nga d\u00f6da. Men jag gillar Sverige. V\u00e5r dans p\u00e5 knivseggen mellan socialism vs. kapitalism. Jag vill ha oss kvar p\u00e5 den knivseggen. Vet att det \u00e4r d\u00e4r som v\u00e5rt framtid finns och att det \u00e4r d\u00e4r vi tar de r\u00e4tta, skarpa besluten. J\u00e4mvikt. Anledningen till att vi befinner oss d\u00e4r vi g\u00f6r. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men d\u00e5 kr\u00e4vs allts\u00e5 en v\u00e4nster som \u00e4r mer \u00e4n Nationalen och r\u00f6da fanor. Grundv\u00e4rderingar m\u00e5ste h\u00e4mtas upp, men ocks\u00e5 modifieras. Sen g\u00e4rna samarbete \u00f6ver de s.k. blocken. Kompromisser \u00e4r en del av politiken.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men nationaldagar. \u00c4h.. strunt. Hylla flaggor. \u00c4nnu v\u00e4rre. I lumpen skulle vi b\u00e4ra ombord en pall kopieringspapper fr\u00e5n kajen av b\u00e5ten. N\u00e4r man g\u00e5r ombord p\u00e5 kustflottans fartyg m\u00e5ste man g\u00f6ra honn\u00f6r mot flaggan d\u00e4r back. Tro inte att flottans intelligenta bef\u00e4l till\u00e5ter n\u00e5gra undantag f\u00f6r de som har tunga buntar med kopieringspapper i h\u00e4nderna. Galenskaper. En galen v\u00e4rd. Lekstuga. L\u00e4gg ner. Skapa n\u00e5got annat. \u00c4r man Svensk b\u00f6r man sk\u00e4mmas f\u00f6r den d\u00e4r lekstugan i alla dess grenar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Gammal bister gubbe i keps ovan. Men inte vilken keps som helst En CC Systems keps. Pendling under n\u00e5gra \u00e5r. Nio mil dit. Nio mil hem. Sen n\u00e5gra \u00e5r som konsult p\u00e5 samma st\u00e4lle. Samma resa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sl\u00e4pper ut geting. Japp, de har annat att g\u00f6ra nu n\u00e4r sommaren har tagit fart. Skall inte vara h\u00e4r inne p\u00e5 l\u00e5tsaskontor och surra. Troligen blir det m\u00e5nga, m\u00e5nga fler i \u00e5r liksom alla andra \u00e5r. Humlor ocks\u00e5. Flugor. Ja andra insekter ocks\u00e5. En sj\u00e4lvklarhet att bry sig om. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Imorgon har Backa-Jan sin f\u00f6delsedag. Man f\u00e5r v\u00e4l sjunga en stump f\u00f6r gubben p\u00e5 morgonen \u00e4nd\u00e5 fast han g\u00e5tt ur tiden. Saknad hur som helst. Men det tror jag alla l\u00e4sare av den h\u00e4r bloggen fattat det redan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tro inte en sekund p\u00e5 dom d\u00e4r som p\u00e5st\u00e5r att livet m\u00e5ste vara eller \u00e5tminstone m\u00e5ste upplevas som el\u00e4ndigt. Att det syns\u00e4ttet \u00e4r det normala. Att \u00e4lska livet och att leva det \u00e4r det onormala. F\u00f6rh\u00e5llningss\u00e4ttet beror s\u00e5klart mest p\u00e5 vad man best\u00e4mmer sig f\u00f6r. Gillar man att leva eller inte? Sv\u00e5rare \u00e4n s\u00e5 \u00e4r det inte. Faktum \u00e4r s\u00e5 enkel som att livet – h\u00f6r snackar vi de facto – \u00e4r en g\u00e5va. Hur vi vill f\u00f6rvalta den \u00e4r upp till oss sj\u00e4lva s\u00e5klart. Helt fritt \u00e4r det valet. Man kan som en religi\u00f6s skjuta upp livet till “n\u00e4sta liv” – “efterlivet”. Man kan oroa sig f\u00f6r allt. Man kan skita i det. H\u00e4nga sig i en gran. Tycka det suger, varje dag och varje l\u00e5ng minut. Gn\u00e4lla \u00f6ver det. Ja, eller helt enkelt (OBS! Enkelt<\/strong>) gilla det d\u00e5. Man best\u00e4mmer det sj\u00e4lv. Inga yttre faktorer avg\u00f6r det. Livet \u00e4r och blir bara det man best\u00e4mmer sig f\u00f6r att ens liv \u00e4r. Super-nice.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Flum tycker den som inte t\u00e4nker f\u00f6r\u00e4ndra sitt liv s\u00e5klart. En rak v\u00e4g fram\u00e5t mot d\u00f6den utan sidoutflykter kan vara f\u00e4rden. Ett gn\u00e4ll och en suck p\u00e5 de r\u00e4tta st\u00e4llena efter den linjen. Liv avklarat d\u00e4r mot slutet. Man skall inte f\u00f6rh\u00e4va sig.<\/em> Eller: Man skall icke f\u00f6rh\u00e4va sig. Amen.<\/strong><\/em> Och s\u00e5 till\u00e4gger man: Som det st\u00e5r i bibeln.<\/em> Ingen har koll p\u00e5 det \u00e4nd\u00e5. \u00c5tminstone inte s\u00e5 m\u00e5nga. Sen kan man g\u00e5 d\u00e4r och k\u00e4nna \u00e5nger f\u00f6r att man f\u00f6rh\u00e4vde sig. Ja ack och oj.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Liksom<\/strong>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men kod beh\u00f6ver knappas. Tankar t\u00e4nkas. F\u00f6nster \u00f6ppna h\u00e4r i huset. Luft (varm) cirkulerar. Borde v\u00e4l kunna f\u00e5 lite extra fart p\u00e5 en och annan neuron de d\u00e4r syremolekylerna. Man kan v\u00e4l i alla fall hoppas p\u00e5 det. Man g\u00f6r det man m\u00e5ste. Ler medans man g\u00f6r det. Jod\u00e5. Inte s\u00e5 pj\u00e5kigt. Tackar som fr\u00e5gar.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Mer gr\u00e4s blir inte klippt. Det regnar n\u00e4mligen h\u00e4r uppe. V\u00e4lbeh\u00f6vligt skulle jag tro. “Det kan aldrig regna f\u00f6r mycket innan midsommar” \u00e4r v\u00e4l b\u00f6nders \u00e5rliga mantra. \u00c4r man bond\u00e4ttling s\u00e5 h\u00e4nger det d\u00e4r s\u00e5klart med. Man gr\u00e5ter allts\u00e5 inte. G\u00f6r annat. Det finns alltid annat att g\u00f6ra. V\u00e5rbruk. Men nu l\u00e5tsaskontor. Den sista f\u00e4rden. 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