{"id":39031,"date":"2021-06-04T17:25:02","date_gmt":"2021-06-04T16:25:02","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=39031"},"modified":"2021-06-04T17:25:02","modified_gmt":"2021-06-04T16:25:02","slug":"en-sista-tango-med-brorsan","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=39031","title":{"rendered":"En sista tango med brorsan"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Mustasch<\/a> hj\u00e4lper mig igenom den sista timmen h\u00e4r p\u00e5 eftermiddagen. Vad vore livet utan h\u00f6g musik? Rock. “Roll<\/em>” ocks\u00e5 tror jag. Energi in rakt in i kroppen som en sil med grumlig v\u00e4tska rakt in i armvecket. Narkoman och ett sv\u00e5rt beroende p\u00e5 ljud. Hela livet har det varit s\u00e5. Har alltid musik p\u00e5. H\u00f6gt. Eller n\u00e4stan alltid. Men ocks\u00e5 d\u00e5 “i tystnaden” upplever jag ofta musik. En r\u00f6st. En koltrast. Porlande vatten. Vind.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Snurrandet har sakta stabiliserats. Kanske finns det hopp. Kanske \u00e4r det bara lugnet f\u00f6re stormen. S\u00e5dant visar sig. Man kan inte g\u00e5 och oroa sig f\u00f6r allt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tango har jag aldrig dansat med brorsan. Inte vad jag vet. Antagligen blir det v\u00e4l inte. \u00c4r \u00e5tminstone osannolikt. Men kanske p\u00e5 varsit h\u00e5ll \u00e4nd\u00e5. En finsk variant is\u00e5fall. Ibland \u00e4r ett p\u00e5st\u00e5ende bara en bra rubrik. Inget mer.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ros i munnen n\u00e4r man dansar finsk tango \u00e4r s\u00e5klart en sj\u00e4lvklarhet. En riktigt taggig sak. S\u00e5 att blodet rinner i mungiporna.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Dansare fascinerar mig annars mycket. Den d\u00e4r l\u00e4ttheten. Att n\u00e4stan kunna flyga. Ja dansare \u00e4r v\u00e4l de som kommer n\u00e4rmast flygandet utan hj\u00e4lpmedel. Fascinerar grundar sig i att jag sj\u00e4lv \u00e4r som ett betonghus som stadigt och or\u00f6rligt st\u00e5r d\u00e4r n\u00e4r jag hamnar p\u00e5 ett dansgolv. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Konstigt nog har alla mina l\u00e4ngre relationer b\u00f6rjat med n\u00e5got som varit kopplat till dans. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Dansare skulle kunna vara ett andrahandsval i n\u00e4sta liv faktiskt. Om nu fj\u00e4ril skulle vara upptaget. Jad\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

En person hittar en Mars i ett annat land. Godiset allts\u00e5. Det lite roliga att den h\u00e4r personen kopplar Mars till Sverige. Allts\u00e5 “t\u00e4nk att man \u00e4ter Svenskt godis i det h\u00e4r landet…” ist\u00e4llet f\u00f6r “Jaha… var inte ens Mars\/Japp Svenskt”. Tv\u00e5 olika m\u00e4nniskotyper det d\u00e4r. Jag gissar att den ena firar nationaldagen och att den andra inte g\u00f6r det.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

N\u00e4r jag jobbade i England s\u00e5 fick jag snabbt \u00f6knamnet “Mars Lars”. Eller “smeknamn” kanske. Man var sn\u00e4lla d\u00e4r. Men antagligen \u00e5t jag v\u00e4ldigt m\u00e5nga Mars. Alla andra gjorde av med pengarna p\u00e5 \u00f6l. Olika.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men fredag allts\u00e5. Gr\u00f6n IKEA soffa v\u00e4ntar p\u00e5 mig. Ja och jag v\u00e4ntar p\u00e5 den. Vila n\u00f6dv\u00e4ndig. Nya tag p\u00e5 s\u00f6ndag kv\u00e4ll igen. Fem punkter kvar. Sen release. N\u00e4ra nu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men helg. Gr\u00e4sklippning. Men f\u00f6rst meka med gr\u00e4sklippare. Har f\u00e5tt ny drivrem levererad n\u00e4mligen. N\u00f6dv\u00e4ndigt. Gr\u00e4set v\u00e4xer som om det hade betalt f\u00f6r det just nu. S\u00e5 om jag skall ramla runt efter den d\u00e4r vr\u00e5lande saken s\u00e5 f\u00e5r den i alla fall dra mig ist\u00e4llet f\u00f6r att jag skall tr\u00f6gskjuta den framf\u00f6r mig med den on\u00f6digt stora magen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men helg k\u00e4nns sk\u00f6nt. Lite RESET<\/strong> \u00f6ver sommarens helger. G\u00f6r gott. Skapar energi. Gillar det. Att man kan g\u00f6ra en massa annat, orelaterat till det man h\u00e5ller p\u00e5 med under veckorna, och f\u00e5 energi fast man blir tr\u00f6tt av det andra ocks\u00e5. Vi \u00e4r fantastiska varelser vi m\u00e4nniskor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Musik-tillverkar-l\u00e4ngtan finns inom mig och \u00e4r i v\u00e4xande. Men monitor till studiodator anv\u00e4nds som tv ers\u00e4ttare och \u00e4gandes mixerbord \u00e4r tungjobbat. M\u00e5ste orda det d\u00e4r. Tappar sugne lite n\u00e4r jag t\u00e4nker p\u00e5 det d\u00e4r. Musiktillverkar-l\u00e4ngtan avtar. Men v\u00e4rlden blir v\u00e4l inte ledsen f\u00f6r det s\u00e5klart.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Inte jag heller d\u00e5 allts\u00e5. Inte n\u00e4mnv\u00e4rt i alla fall. Jag st\u00e5r stadigt p\u00e5 marken \u00e4nd\u00e5 d\u00e4r jag vill vara. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men h\u00e4r d\u00e5. Helg. Skall bara checka in koden. Sen s\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ha det gott kamrater. Gl\u00f6m inte j\u00e4mvikten.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Mustasch hj\u00e4lper mig igenom den sista timmen h\u00e4r p\u00e5 eftermiddagen. Vad vore livet utan h\u00f6g musik? Rock. “Roll” ocks\u00e5 tror jag. Energi in rakt in i kroppen som en sil med grumlig v\u00e4tska rakt in i armvecket. Narkoman och ett sv\u00e5rt beroende p\u00e5 ljud. Hela livet har det varit s\u00e5. Har alltid musik p\u00e5. H\u00f6gt. 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