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En f\u00f6rbannad by i solljus (t\u00e4nk UV str\u00e5lning)<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n

Jag sitter h\u00e4r p\u00e5 kullen. Det \u00e4r OK<\/strong>. Man f\u00e5r vara n\u00f6jd med det. Oooooh Kejjjj <\/em>allts\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tittar efter vad f\u00f6rbannelsen \u00e4ter p\u00e5 f\u00f6r tillf\u00e4llet.<\/a> Ja ungef\u00e4r som vanligt \u00e4r det s\u00e5klart. Man skulle s\u00e5klart stuckit, med svansen mellan benen som en r\u00e4v i en skogsbrand, den d\u00e4r dan i februari 1992. Om man hade varit smartare. Eller varningen fanns v\u00e4l d\u00e4r redan 1987. Sn\u00f6 p\u00e5 midsommarafton. Kan man serveras mer “stick<\/em><\/strong>” \u00e4n s\u00e5? Det \u00e4r rent utav “stick s\u00e5 fort du kan<\/strong><\/em>” d\u00e4r. Men stack gjorde man inte. Idot<\/strong>!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag har till och med skrivit en l\u00e5t till Loos<\/strong>. Varf\u00f6r det? Gillar dessutom inte den d\u00e4r stavningen med dubbel (o)(o). Ett l\u00f6sryckt f\u00f6rs\u00f6k, helt utan substans att… ja vad d\u00e5? F\u00f6rnya!?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men f\u00f6rbannelsen. Den finns d\u00e4r. Los l\u00e5g klart i topp i sj\u00e4lvmordsstatistiken under flera decennier. M\u00e4nnen tog livet av sig. Antagligen s\u00e4ger det n\u00e5got om kvinnorna ocks\u00e5. Nu \u00e4r det visst Grums som har en d\u00e4r t\u00e4tplaceringen. Antagligen s\u00e4ger det n\u00e5got om kvinnorna d\u00e4r ocks\u00e5. Eller inte. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

En del vill ha tillbaks den gamla Los kommunen. Man undrar lite f\u00f6rsiktigt hur man tog sig igenom skolan d\u00e5. Allts\u00e5 om man tror p\u00e5 s\u00e5dant. Vi kan liksom inte bli mer nettobidragstagare \u00e4n vi \u00e4r idag. Pengarna rinner i v\u00e5r riktning. Alla skulle dessutom s\u00e5klart bli glada om de blev av med oss. Utom vi sj\u00e4lva. Vi fick sv\u00e4lta. F\u00f6rfalla \u00e4nnu mer \u00e4n vi g\u00f6r idag. Ja om vi inte tv\u00e5ngs\u00e5tertog skogar, vatten och vind. Men is\u00e5fall beh\u00f6vs kanoner och gev\u00e4r. Ja och mod. Faller det inte p\u00e5 de f\u00f6rsta s\u00e5 faller det definitivt p\u00e5 den sista detaljen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Japp dra borde man. \u00c5tminstone hoppas man att det unga g\u00f6r det. Som avl\u00f6ningar ungef\u00e4r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Skriver s\u00e5klart det h\u00e4r f\u00f6r att reta upp de som l\u00e5ter sig retas upp. Fast osanningar finns det s\u00e5klart inte i orden ovan heller. Inte en enda. Inga. Man\/kvinna av tiden vet att det inte hj\u00e4lper ett dugg att titta p\u00e5 v\u00e4rlden genom rosa solglas\u00f6gon och ropa hurra av annan orsak heller eftersom v\u00e4rlden ser allt bra underbar ut \u00e4nd\u00e5 genom de d\u00e4r glasen. Man m\u00e5ste f\u00f6r\u00e4ndra. Skall man f\u00f6r\u00e4ndra m\u00e5ste man ta tag i den d\u00e4r skiten som ligger i h\u00f6rnen f\u00f6rst. Man m\u00e5ste allts\u00e5 ta sig en titt p\u00e5 det d\u00e5liga. Det duger inte att dutta med det bra. Bort med skiten f\u00f6rst. De storta grejerna. Sen kan man dutta i okackat bo.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men b\u00e4st \u00e4r kanske om f\u00f6rbannelsen f\u00e5r ta oss. En sjuj\u00e4vla skogsbrand. Sen \u00e4r det slut. Var ju n\u00e4ra f\u00f6r n\u00e5gra \u00e5r sedan f\u00f6rresten.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men l\u00e4ngtar bort allts\u00e5. Tanka bilen full och sen \u00e5ka s\u00f6derut s\u00e5 l\u00e5ngt det bara gick vore grejen. G\u00e4rna nu denna minut. Jovisst, jag vet s\u00e5 v\u00e4l att man inte kan fly fr\u00e5n sig sj\u00e4lv. Men man kan \u00e5tminstone komma bort fr\u00e5n f\u00f6rbannelsen. Sjumils flyktavst\u00e5nd h\u00f6gst borde den orka beh\u00e5lla sitt grepp. Sen sprider sig antagligen en m\u00e4rklig k\u00e4nsla i kroppen. En k\u00e4nsla av att allt \u00e4r m\u00f6jligt. Eller s\u00e5. Jo man har ju sig sj\u00e4lv att fajtas med ocks\u00e5. S\u00e5 en del blir \u00e4nd\u00e5 inte m\u00f6jligt. F\u00f6r att man \u00e4r f\u00f6r feg. F\u00f6r sn\u00e4ll. Men lite mer \u00e4nd\u00e5. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ett aber finns det med den d\u00e4r flykten. H\u00e4lsingland. Gillar H\u00e4lsingland. Identifierar mig med landskapet. Hmmm… Men man fick v\u00e4l begrava den k\u00e4nslan som m\u00e5nga andra k\u00e4nslor av l\u00e4ngtan man begravt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

F\u00f6rresten blir man v\u00e4l mer H\u00e4lsing omv\u00e4nt proportionellt med avst\u00e5ndet till H\u00e4lsingland. Jo s\u00e5 \u00e4r det ju. S\u00e5 kanske \u00e4r det inte ens ett problem det d\u00e4r. Eller rent av troligen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men f\u00f6rbannade \u00e4r vi. Sicket helvete!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Trevlig helg om n\u00e5gon nu orkat l\u00e4sa denna spya \u00e4nda till slutet. Gr\u00f6n IKEA-soffa v\u00e4ntar n\u00e4mligen p\u00e5 mig. Den \u00e4r en s\u00e4ker zon. En dit f\u00f6rbannelser inte n\u00e5r. Japp, ing\u00e5r i IKEA’s k\u00f6ptrygghetsgaranti. Serru spooling.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tjing!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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