{"id":38374,"date":"2021-04-07T22:55:45","date_gmt":"2021-04-07T21:55:45","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=38374"},"modified":"2021-04-07T22:55:45","modified_gmt":"2021-04-07T21:55:45","slug":"dagarna-som-gar","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=38374","title":{"rendered":"Dagarna som g\u00e5r"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Dagarna skyndar iv\u00e4g som l\u00f6sgjorda ankark\u00e4ttingar p\u00e5 v\u00e4g ner i ett hav utan botten. Jag hinner inte riktigt med. Har aldrig gjort det. Under hela mitt liv har det funnits mer att g\u00f6ra \u00e4n det funnits dagar att g\u00f6ra saker p\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men dagar rasslar p\u00e5 allts\u00e5. Har ni h\u00f6rt ankark\u00e4ttingen g\u00e5 p\u00e5 ett stort fartyg. Inget j\u00e4vla mjuks\u00e4nkande med bromsar och grejer. Nej fritt fall. Stop p\u00e5 direkten. Om det g\u00e5r. Det rister i skrovet. Dundrar som ett \u00e5skv\u00e4der. Varje l\u00e4nk v\u00e4ger femtio kilo. Alla v\u00e4ntar p\u00e5 att ankaret skall n\u00e5 botten, eller \u00e4nnu v\u00e4rre – inte n\u00e5 botten. S\u00e5dan \u00e4r dagarna.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag var sexton n\u00e4r jag b\u00f6rjade jobba. Ett \u00e5r p\u00e5 gymnasium, jag hade redan gett upp det d\u00e4r pluggandet innan jag b\u00f6rjade det \u00e5ret. Att det inte blev mer d\u00e4r var nog f\u00f6rutbest\u00e4mt. Hade jag velat g\u00e5 kvar s\u00e5 hade jag f\u00e5tt g\u00e5 om ettan. Mest ettor i betyg tror jag. Utom i Svenska. Underligt s\u00e5klart. Just det \u00e4mnet har aldrig varit mitt favorit\u00e4mne. Utom n\u00e4r det g\u00e4ller att skriva d\u00e5. Det gillade jag alltid. Men rockstj\u00e4rna ville jag nog bli hellre d\u00e5 och d\u00e4r \u00e4n en pluggande idiot. Adj\u00f6 idioter blev det och sen tack och adj\u00f6. Trotts att den st\u00f6rste idioten d\u00e4r och d\u00e5 s\u00e5klart var jag sj\u00e4lv. Det ins\u00e5g jag nog redan d\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men tog igen det d\u00e4r s\u00e5klart sju \u00e5r senare. N\u00e4r rockstj\u00e4rnedr\u00f6mmar inte k\u00e4ndes som en framkomlig v\u00e4g om man inte satte sig vid de l\u00f6jliga dj\u00e4vlarnas bord och skrev p\u00e5 tjocka bloddrypande, stinkande evighetskontrakt. Men jag har aldrig varit speciellt intresserad av att s\u00e4lja min sj\u00e4l. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men l\u00e4nge sedan nu s\u00e5klart. Det har flutit iv\u00e4g b\u00e5de dagar och \u00e5r sedan dess. I \u00e5r uppn\u00e5r jag pensions\u00e5lder. Det tar slut per definition. K\u00e4nns konstigt. V\u00e4xer i epitetet gammal ocool gubbe med r\u00e5ge liksom. Men k\u00e4nner mig inte gammal. M\u00e5ste b\u00f6rja tr\u00e4na p\u00e5 det. Man kan inte g\u00e5 ett helt liv och k\u00e4nna sig som tjugotv\u00e5. Det blir l\u00f6jligt. Fast man borde s\u00e5klart f\u00e5 best\u00e4mma sj\u00e4lv. I alla fall s\u00e5 l\u00e4nge man har n\u00e5gon begr\u00e4nsning kvar inom sig och inte b\u00f6rjar jaga sm\u00e5flickor eller tv\u00e5ngsm\u00e4ssigt utf\u00f6ra liknande patetiska ungdomliga handlingar. Nope. B\u00e4st och s\u00e4krast \u00e4r det att skaffa hatt. Eventuellt ocks\u00e5 galoscher. Ja och fransk m\u00f6ssa att ha under d\u00e5liga dagar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Man borde s\u00e5klart kammat hem storkovan vid det h\u00e4r laget. F\u00f6r jobbat har jag. \u00c5tminstone i tid och energi r\u00e4knat. Jo ocks\u00e5 om man r\u00e4knar in risker. Men d\u00e4r finns inte mycket att h\u00e4mta. Resultatet blir ungef\u00e4r detsamma som om man inte jobbat en dag under alla de d\u00e4r \u00e5ren. Ett konstigt system. V\u00e4rldens b\u00e4sta s\u00e4ger G\u00f6ran Persson. Han \u00e4r iof konstig han med. Det har jag fr\u00e5n s\u00e4kra k\u00e4llor. Fast \u00e5 andra sidan \u00e4r vi v\u00e4l alla det. Om vi \u00e4r n\u00e5gots\u00e5n\u00e4r friska. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men faktum \u00e4r att den h\u00e4r dagen nu har rasslat f\u00f6rbi i all sin prakt. Jag har faktiskt hunnit en del. Men ville d\u00e5 s\u00e5klart hinna tre delar. Men det gjorde jag d\u00e5 inte. Men vis av levt liv kan jag leva med det. F\u00f6rv\u00e4ntar mig att ankaret n\u00e5r botten i samma sekund som jag drar t\u00e4cket \u00f6ver min gamla kropp. D\u00e4rifr\u00e5n vill jag inte ha n\u00e5got ankark\u00e4ttingsrasslande h\u00e4r i huset.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

God natt!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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ps Detta \u00e4r Sven Gills\u00e4ter f\u00f6rresten. En g\u00e5ng en stor f\u00f6rebild ds<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Dagarna skyndar iv\u00e4g som l\u00f6sgjorda ankark\u00e4ttingar p\u00e5 v\u00e4g ner i ett hav utan botten. Jag hinner inte riktigt med. Har aldrig gjort det. Under hela mitt liv har det funnits mer att g\u00f6ra \u00e4n det funnits dagar att g\u00f6ra saker p\u00e5. Men dagar rasslar p\u00e5 allts\u00e5. Har ni h\u00f6rt ankark\u00e4ttingen g\u00e5 p\u00e5 ett stort fartyg. 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