{"id":37959,"date":"2021-02-24T22:40:13","date_gmt":"2021-02-24T21:40:13","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=37959"},"modified":"2021-02-24T22:40:13","modified_gmt":"2021-02-24T21:40:13","slug":"sa-javla-bra","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=37959","title":{"rendered":"S\u00e5 j\u00e4vla bra"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Det \u00e4r inte alltid jag till fullo uppskattar min situation. Men idag g\u00f6r jag det. Det \u00e4r n\u00e4mligen perfekt. L\u00e4get.- Jag g\u00f6r det jag vill. \u00c4r d\u00e4r jag skall vara. Och n\u00e4r man ser det d\u00e4r m\u00e5ste man ju \u00e4nd\u00e5 s\u00e4nda en tacksamhetens tanke ut i universum. Vad beh\u00f6ver man mer \u00e4n det man innerst inne vill? Tack. Liksom<\/strong>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Det d\u00e4r man har n\u00e4ra inp\u00e5 sig f\u00f6rpassar man s\u00e5 snabbt fr\u00e5n det man har n\u00e4ra. I b\u00f6rjan n\u00e4r vi bodde h\u00e4r. N\u00e4r man hade \u00e5teruppt\u00e4ckt de magnifika bergen igen, s\u00e5 steg jag varje g\u00e5ng ut bilen efter den d\u00e4r varje-vecka-resan hem fr\u00e5n Stockholm och bara stod d\u00e4r p\u00e5 g\u00e5rdsplan och tog in. Jod\u00e5. Till och med luften var en annan. Varje andetag tog sig liksom l\u00e4ngre ner i lungorna. Det f\u00f6rsta jag gjorde sen var att g\u00e5 in och dricka ett glas vatten. Fantastisk var varje klunk. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men precis som med det dagliga livet h\u00e4r p\u00e5 ett l\u00e5tsaskontor, som jag beskriver ovan, s\u00e5 gl\u00f6mmer man bort. Tar det d\u00e4r man ser och har n\u00e4ra sig varje dag f\u00f6r givet. Uppskattar inte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jod\u00e5 det g\u00e4ller k\u00e4rleken det d\u00e4r ocks\u00e5. Det rullar p\u00e5. Det \u00e4r bara ibland man fattar hur lyckligt lottad man \u00e4r. Hur det enkla och vardagliga alltid \u00e4r det stora. Man kan gifta om sig hur m\u00e5nga g\u00e5nger som helst och det kommer \u00e4nd\u00e5 alltid att bli vardag varje g\u00e5ng. Man kan s\u00e5klart \u00e4lska passionen mer \u00e4n en annan m\u00e4nniska. Men passionen \u00e4r flyktig som en vattendroppe i Sahara. det b\u00f6r man veta ocks\u00e5 innan man ger sig iv\u00e4g just efter den v\u00e4gen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag vet inte hur man skall g\u00f6ra f\u00f6r att lyfta fram det d\u00e4r oftare. Det finns nog inga metoder och recept f\u00f6r det annat \u00e4n viljan. Men jag f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker i alla fall stanna upp och gl\u00e4djas de g\u00e5nger den d\u00e4r insikten bubblar upp i mitt medvetande. L\u00e5ter mig vara i det d\u00e4r ett tag. K\u00e4nner f\u00f6rn\u00f6jsamheten fylla mig. Blir lycklig en stund.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sen dyker jag ner i mitt. Och d\u00e5 m\u00e4rker jag inte ens om himlen faller ner \u00f6ver hela v\u00e4rlden. Ett ansvarsl\u00f6st ge-sig-h\u00e4n \u00e4r det d\u00e4r. Men lycka det ocks\u00e5. S\u00e5klart. Eller tyv\u00e4rr. El\u00e4ndet \u00e4r ju det seri\u00f6sa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jod\u00e5. att klappa en katt, \u00e4r ett av de st\u00f6rre \u00f6gonblicken i livet det ocks\u00e5. Eller koltrasts\u00e5ng eller att f\u00f6lja bulliga moln som far fram \u00f6ver en f\u00f6r \u00f6vrigt bl\u00e4ndande bl\u00e5 himmel. Enkelt men v\u00e4rdefullt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sen lever man. Bra. En m\u00f6jlighet. En man borde ta tillvara p\u00e5. Genom att uppskatta livet man lever. Eller f\u00f6r\u00e4ndra det om man inte uppskattar det. N\u00e4r man \u00e4r d\u00f6d \u00e4r det f\u00f6r sent. Bara de religi\u00f6sa d\u00e5rarna tror p\u00e5 n\u00e4sta liv som lyckan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Aprop\u00e5 d\u00f6den. En ny grej har smugit sig in n\u00e4r jag kodar. Jag har kommit p\u00e5 mig sj\u00e4lv med att skriva kommentarer lite extra noga i koden. Kommentarer avsedda f\u00f6r andra, som kanske kommer efter mig. Det d\u00e4r har smugit sig p\u00e5. S\u00e5 d\u00e4r bara. Efter sextio kom insikten om det egna livets slut mycket n\u00e4rmare. F\u00f6r n\u00e4ra rent utav. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jod\u00e5. Men man f\u00e4rdas p\u00e5. Fram\u00e5t. Man har ingen aning om vart v\u00e4gen b\u00e4r och vilket m\u00e5let \u00e4r. Och t\u00e4nk, det \u00e4r helt ok. S\u00e5 l\u00e4nge det k\u00e4nns ok n\u00e4r man g\u00e5r h\u00e4r p\u00e5 v\u00e4gen. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bra.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Liksom.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men seri\u00f6st – n\u00e4 det \u00e4r det inte.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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