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Det \u00e4r n\u00e4stan ot\u00e4ckt. Jag har befunnit mig i en intensiv kreativ bubbla hela veckan. N\u00e4ra trans. Knappar p\u00e5. Men h\u00e4rligt ocks\u00e5 s\u00e5klart. Det h\u00e4nder saker. Fast sen m\u00e5ste man ju ur den d\u00e4r bubblan ibland. Ge sig ut i den riktiga v\u00e4rlden. Blir lite irriterad (n\u00e4stan) n\u00e4r verkligheten tr\u00e4nger sig p\u00e5. D\u00e4r inuti \u00e4r det som en dr\u00f6m. Men man m\u00e5ste anpassa sig till det riktiga ocks\u00e5. Men man st\u00f6kar \u00f6ver de d\u00e4r bes\u00f6ken i det verkliga. Kryper snart in i \u00c5kes v\u00e4rld igen. Trollar bort sin sj\u00e4l en stund.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast viktigt tror jag det \u00e4r att kunna skilja p\u00e5 en h\u00e4r l\u00e5tsasv\u00e4rlden och den riktiga. Man f\u00e5r inte fastna d\u00e4r inne. Farligt. \u00c4n s\u00e5 l\u00e4nge tror jag att jag klarar den balansg\u00e5ngen. Mycket d\u00e4rf\u00f6r att jag bor h\u00e4r n\u00e4rmare de verkliga v\u00e4rdena. I en storstad kan man l\u00e4tt f\u00f6rledas att tro att den skapade v\u00e4rlden \u00e4r den viktiga och verkliga. Nope, det \u00e4r den inte. Serr\u00f6. D\u00e4r, i det, finns det farligaste v\u00e4gvalet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Som en del i det jag jobbar med portar jag bitar till Windows och ser till min fasa att ett av de bibliotek jag f\u00f6rlitar mig p\u00e5 inte alls jobbar sn\u00e4llt p\u00e5 Windows plattformen. Trotts att det valts just f\u00f6r att det skulle g\u00f6ra det. Men omskrivningar allts\u00e5. En vecka extra. Eller tv\u00e5. Men man suckar inte ens. G\u00f6r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Efter det h\u00e4r skulle jag vilja resa iv\u00e4g n\u00e5gonstans. L\u00e5ngt bort. D\u00e4r det finns ett n\u00e4ra hav, v\u00e5gor och vindar som kan ruffsa om en tr\u00f6tt gammal mans h\u00e5r. Men s\u00e5 blir det s\u00e5klart inte. Men ist\u00e4llet kommer den Svenska sommaren och tar tag i den tr\u00f6tte, lyfter upp och b\u00e4r iv\u00e4g ut p\u00e5 sk\u00f6nheterna som den har att bjuda p\u00e5. Inte d\u00e5ligt det heller.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Semlan fr\u00e5n ig\u00e5r lyfter sj\u00e4len ocks\u00e5 denna dag. Kanske blir det ingen mer i \u00e5r. Men en \u00e4r bra nog. Girig har jag aldrig varit. Mycket annat kan dock s\u00e4gas om mig.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men fredag. En hel l\u00e5tsasarbetsdag framf\u00f6r sig har man. Lycka. Tv\u00e5hundrafemtiofem dagar kvar. Lycka det ocks\u00e5. Speciellt n\u00e4r vi pratar sextio dagar av det k\u00e4mpigt, resten rutschkana. Livet \u00e4r allts\u00e5 inte s\u00e5 d\u00e5ligt. Inte ens om man funderar \u00f6ver hur det blev och hur det \u00e4r. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men \u00e4nnu \u00e5terst\u00e5r allts\u00e5 n\u00e5gra timmar innan gr\u00f6n IKEA soffa skall sv\u00e4lja mig i sin famn f\u00f6r vila och \u00e5terh\u00e4mtning. Jag somnar antagligen omedelbart jag s\u00e4tter ner rumpan d\u00e4r. Men f\u00f6rst skall jag allts\u00e5 f\u00f6r\u00e4ndra v\u00e4rlden. Lite till. Ni vet, \u00e4ven sm\u00e5 kugghjul….<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Det \u00e4r n\u00e4stan ot\u00e4ckt. Jag har befunnit mig i en intensiv kreativ bubbla hela veckan. N\u00e4ra trans. Knappar p\u00e5. Men h\u00e4rligt ocks\u00e5 s\u00e5klart. Det h\u00e4nder saker. Fast sen m\u00e5ste man ju ur den d\u00e4r bubblan ibland. Ge sig ut i den riktiga v\u00e4rlden. Blir lite irriterad (n\u00e4stan) n\u00e4r verkligheten tr\u00e4nger sig p\u00e5. D\u00e4r inuti \u00e4r […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-37929","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":21685,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=21685","url_meta":{"origin":37929,"position":0},"title":"De r\u00e4dda \u00e4r de farliga","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2016-10-03","format":false,"excerpt":"Solen liksom skuttar upp p\u00e5 himlen h\u00e4r p\u00e5 morgonen, upp p\u00e5 en klarbl\u00e5 himmel utan ett enda moln, vill v\u00e4rma upp en frostnupen v\u00e4rld kan man f\u00f6rst\u00e5, f\u00f6rsta riktiga frostmorgonen h\u00e4r p\u00e5 kullen den h\u00e4r h\u00f6sten. 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