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Hittar tillbaks p\u00e5 sp\u00e5ret. Koncentrationen finns d\u00e4r. Hoppet f\u00f6ljer p\u00e5 det. V\u00e4l inne i koden kan inget stoppa mig.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men b\u00f6rjar morgonen med att l\u00e4mna blodprov. Andra f\u00f6rs\u00f6ket. Det f\u00f6rsta f\u00f6rsvann ut “in the void”. Som det kan g\u00e5. Har inget problem med det.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Halkigt p\u00e5 v\u00e4gen dit. Kan bero p\u00e5 att jag g\u00e5r och bara har dansv\u00e4nliga l\u00e5gskor p\u00e5 mig. Men h\u00e5ller mig uppr\u00e4tt b\u00e5de dit och hem. Med tur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hemma handlar det om sn\u00f6skottning. F\u00f6r vilken dag i ordningen har jag tappat r\u00e4kningen p\u00e5. Tyngdlyftarsn\u00f6 idag i alla fall. Bl\u00f6t, tung, sn\u00f6. Nollgraderssn\u00f6. R\u00e4tt vad det \u00e4r har man en biceps att vara stolt \u00f6ver p\u00e5 v\u00e4nster arm. P\u00e5 h\u00f6ger… n\u00e5ja…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Pelletsinb\u00e4rarhelg. Men gr\u00f6n IKEA-soffa f\u00f6rst. Man b\u00f6r f\u00e5 l\u00e4sa ut sin bok d\u00e4r p\u00e5 l\u00f6rdagsmorgonen och somna in lugnt och stilla efter eller mitt i det. Lag p\u00e5 det. Efter uppvaknande, macka och kaffe, sen kan man b\u00e4ra pellets resten av helgen om det beh\u00f6vs.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ingen semla \u00e4nnu. Enda anledningen till det \u00e4r att Janne inte finns l\u00e4ngre. Han hade s\u00e4kert varit hit med en l\u00e5da vid det h\u00e4r laget. Fnissande. Hummande. Men skall inhandla en vad det lider. Eller tv\u00e5. Mumsa i riktning mot J\u00e4rvs\u00f6. Till den gode mannens minne.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Annars \u00e4r allt lugnt. Har tr\u00e4ffat riktiga m\u00e4nniskor den h\u00e4r veckan. Japp, flera och mer \u00e4n en g\u00e5ng. Det \u00e4r inte varje vecka det h\u00e4nder.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Livet \u00e4r inte s\u00e5 pj\u00e5kigt.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Hittar tillbaks p\u00e5 sp\u00e5ret. Koncentrationen finns d\u00e4r. Hoppet f\u00f6ljer p\u00e5 det. V\u00e4l inne i koden kan inget stoppa mig. Men b\u00f6rjar morgonen med att l\u00e4mna blodprov. Andra f\u00f6rs\u00f6ket. Det f\u00f6rsta f\u00f6rsvann ut “in the void”. Som det kan g\u00e5. Har inget problem med det. Halkigt p\u00e5 v\u00e4gen dit. 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