{"id":37453,"date":"2021-01-10T16:37:45","date_gmt":"2021-01-10T15:37:45","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=37453"},"modified":"2021-01-10T16:37:45","modified_gmt":"2021-01-10T15:37:45","slug":"sa-som-ett-smultron-ror-sig","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=37453","title":{"rendered":"S\u00e5 som ett smultron r\u00f6r sig"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"580\" height=\"870\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/01\/pexels-photo-4940770.jpeg?resize=580%2C870&#038;ssl=1\" alt=\"ornamental old caste against overcast sky\" class=\"wp-image-37454\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/01\/pexels-photo-4940770.jpeg?w=867&amp;ssl=1 867w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/01\/pexels-photo-4940770.jpeg?resize=200%2C300&amp;ssl=1 200w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/01\/pexels-photo-4940770.jpeg?resize=683%2C1024&amp;ssl=1 683w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/01\/pexels-photo-4940770.jpeg?resize=768%2C1152&amp;ssl=1 768w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 580px) 100vw, 580px\" \/><figcaption>Photo by Maria Orlova on <a href=\"https:\/\/www.pexels.com\/photo\/ornamental-old-caste-against-overcast-sky-4940770\/\" rel=\"nofollow\">Pexels.com<\/a><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Snurrig. Fredag. Kv\u00e4ll. Vilar. Mindre snurrig p\u00e5 L\u00f6rdag. Men tillr\u00e4ckligt f\u00f6r att stanna en dag i gr\u00f6n IKEA soffa under t\u00e4cke med bok. S\u00f6ndag. Som l\u00f6rdag. V\u00e4rlden \u00e4r inte riktigt stadig. Men g\u00e5r ner till l\u00e5tsaskontor. S\u00e5klart g\u00f6r jag det. O-liv. Eller liv. Ibland m\u00e5ste man v\u00e4lja. Hittills har jag alltid valt liv n\u00e4r det d\u00e4r valet presenterats f\u00f6r mig. Det \u00e4r inte s\u00e4kert att jag alltid g\u00f6r det valet i framtiden. Men ber om tio \u00e5r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Det blir allts\u00e5 inte s\u00e5 mycket gjort i helgen. Utom d\u00e5 att jag l\u00e4ser ut en mycket bra bok. F\u00f6rutom det s\u00e5 sover jag mer \u00e4n jag sovit n\u00e5got annat dygn. Tr\u00f6tt. S\u00e5 j\u00e4vla tr\u00f6tt. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Fel att prata om energi som \u00e5terv\u00e4nt idag s\u00e5klart. Men tillr\u00e4ckligt av den \u00e4r d\u00e4r igen. Tack f\u00f6r det universums alla partiklar. Var och en inneh\u00e5llande hela universum i sig sj\u00e4lv. Var och en kapabel att \u00e5terskapa alltet. Japp, det \u00e4r den kraft vi alla besitter och har i oss.  F\u00f6r att bevara j\u00e4mvikten. Det enda som \u00e4r heligt. Han\/hon\/det\/gud skapade mig som en kopia av sig sj\u00e4lv s\u00e4ger varje partikel&#8230; &#8230;och tror p\u00e5 det. Med r\u00e4tta. S\u00e5 varf\u00f6r inte vi<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Dr\u00f6mmer att K har en av mina chefer som sin chef. Dom snackar om sitt. Jag sitter en bit bort (inte ett byte bort :)). Inte inbjuden och med. Som vanligt. Pl\u00f6tsligt ligger jag p\u00e5 golvet i ett hus. Fr\u00e5n tre meter ovanf\u00f6r mig sl\u00e4pper samma gamle chef, med ett glatt leende i fejjan, ner mjukisdjur av olika typ, f\u00e4rg och form ner p\u00e5 mig. Massor. Hinkar fulla.  Som faller ner i slow motion. Det \u00e4r inte alls otrevligt. Inte konstigt. Hur naturligt som helst att det d\u00e4r h\u00e4nder. Som om vi gjorde det d\u00e4r dagligen. Men d\u00e4r n\u00e5gonstans vaknar jag. Fortfarande kvar i den d\u00e4r h\u00f6gen av mjukisdjur som samlats runt mig. K ligger bredvid mig. Sover. Ovetandes om vad vilken historia hon spelar med i.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Veckan som kommer \u00e4r en obruten vecka. Det var l\u00e4nge sedan det fanns en s\u00e5dan framf\u00f6r en. V\u00e4ldigt l\u00e4nge sedan. V\u00e4lkommen s\u00e4ger jag. Mycket v\u00e4lkommen. K tycker att jag \u00f6verdriver.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Borde sota idag. Men var upp halv fem p\u00e5 l\u00f6rdagsmorgonen och fixade med Hulken och nog \u00e4r nog ibland. Best\u00e4mmer mig f\u00f6r att det f\u00e5r anst\u00e5 till imorgon. Det jobbet kan g\u00e5 bra ihop med f\u00f6rv\u00e4ntad sn\u00f6skottning. En decimeter till. Varf\u00f6r g\u00f6r ingen kopplingen vinterturism och Los? Eller det kanske m\u00e5nga g\u00f6r. Men ids inte mer.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Jag tycker &#8220;<em>Los<\/em>&#8221; \u00e4r b\u00e4ttre \u00e4n &#8220;<em>Loos<\/em>&#8220;. Kan inte hj\u00e4lpa det. \u00c4r v\u00e4l inte ensam om det s\u00e5klart. Men viktigt, nope, det \u00e4r det inte. Vi har \u00e4nd\u00e5 de charmigaste skyltarna.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><a href=\"https:\/\/github.com\/grodansparadis\">Github<\/a> godis upp\u00e4tet. D\u00e4remot inte meds\u00e4nd Champagne. N\u00e5ja. mousserande vin.  F\u00e5r st\u00e5 till sig tills lust f\u00f6r s\u00e5dant infaller. Har \u00e4nnu inte fattat varf\u00f6r jag fick det d\u00e4r. F\u00f6rv\u00e4ntas det n\u00e5got av mig nu?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">En stor p\u00e5se sm\u00e5godis finns det d\u00e4remot lust till. Eller en semla. Ja rent utav tv\u00e5. Men&#8230; Tids nog s\u00e5 hinner man med det d\u00e4r ocks\u00e5. F\u00f6rdr\u00f6jd njutning \u00e4r ALLTID dubbel njutning. Det \u00e4r s\u00e4llan br\u00e5ttom. Japp, just d\u00e4rf\u00f6r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Nu skall jag stoppa i mig en Alvedon och sen se om jag kan f\u00e5 fart p\u00e5 den h\u00e4r anglosaxiska veckan. F\u00f6r att jag vill. Inte f\u00f6r att jag m\u00e5ste.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><strong>Liksom<\/strong>.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Snurrig. Fredag. Kv\u00e4ll. Vilar. Mindre snurrig p\u00e5 L\u00f6rdag. Men tillr\u00e4ckligt f\u00f6r att stanna en dag i gr\u00f6n IKEA soffa under t\u00e4cke med bok. S\u00f6ndag. Som l\u00f6rdag. V\u00e4rlden \u00e4r inte riktigt stadig. Men g\u00e5r ner till l\u00e5tsaskontor. S\u00e5klart g\u00f6r jag det. O-liv. Eller liv. Ibland m\u00e5ste man v\u00e4lja. Hittills har jag alltid valt liv n\u00e4r det [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-37453","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":10347,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=10347","url_meta":{"origin":37453,"position":0},"title":"Jag \u00e4r en snobb","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2013-10-05","format":false,"excerpt":"En s\u00e5dan d\u00e4r h\u00e4rlig l\u00f6rdag. 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