{"id":37080,"date":"2020-12-09T21:09:31","date_gmt":"2020-12-09T20:09:31","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=37080"},"modified":"2020-12-09T21:09:31","modified_gmt":"2020-12-09T20:09:31","slug":"nollad","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=37080","title":{"rendered":"Nollad"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Somnar under nyhetss\u00e4ndningen. Noll energi kvar. Absolut nollad. Man m\u00e4rker det p\u00e5 att jag somnar sittande i soffan utan st\u00f6d. Bara huvud mot hals. Sovandes. Av Rapport ser jag inget. Jod\u00e5 det kan h\u00e4nda h\u00e4r nere ocks\u00e5. Man lutar sig tillbaks och somnar. Nejd\u00e5, inte ofta. Men ibland. N\u00e4r man har anv\u00e4nt allt man har. Som ikv\u00e4ll allts\u00e5. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men en tio minuter till en halvtimme brukar r\u00e4cka. Sen f\u00e5r jag tillbaks ganska mycket laddning. Ofta tillr\u00e4ckligt f\u00f6r att ta mig en skaplig bit till fram\u00f6ver p\u00e5 min knaggliga l\u00e5tsasarbetsv\u00e4g.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag har till\u00e4mpat det d\u00e4r ofta p\u00e5 resor fr\u00e5n Stockholm eller andra platser p\u00e5 v\u00e4g hem upp hit mot skogarna under sena n\u00e4tter n\u00e4r jag varit slutk\u00f6rd efter en dag med jobb. Jod\u00e5, ocks\u00e5 jag har jobbat p\u00e5 “riktigt”. En tacksam f\u00f6rm\u00e5ga det d\u00e4r att kunna \u00e5terh\u00e4mta medelst powernap. Farsan k\u00f6rde med det d\u00e4r han med.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men eftermiddagen h\u00e4r p\u00e5 l\u00e5tsaskontoret g\u00e5r i seghetens tecken. F\u00e5r f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka hitta p\u00e5 lite praktiska sysslor innan middag f\u00f6r att kunna h\u00e5lla ig\u00e5ng. Till sist s\u00e5 h\u00e4mtar jag gitarren fr\u00e5n den kallst\u00e4llda delen d\u00e4r den st\u00e5tt helt ensam och bortgl\u00f6md alldeles f\u00f6r l\u00e4nge. D\u00f6m om min f\u00f6rv\u00e5ning n\u00e4r jag m\u00e4rker att den fortfarande h\u00e5ller sig n\u00e4stan helt st\u00e4md. Nu f\u00e5r den stanna h\u00e4r inne. I v\u00e4rmen. Ja och muskler minns. Men mer \u00e4n s\u00e5 blir det inte innan jag st\u00e4ller tillbaks den i st\u00e4llet igen. M\u00e5ste sk\u00e4rpa mig d\u00e4r. Spela lite ibland. Det \u00e4r ju roligt. Troligen nyttigt f\u00f6r hj\u00e4rnan och motorik ocks\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Just nu k\u00e4nns det lite som om jag har ett berg att ensam b\u00f6rja gr\u00e4va i med min lilla, lilla spade. Ingen bra k\u00e4nsla. Den av \u00f6verm\u00e4ktighet. M\u00e5ste f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka hitta roligheterna, kristallerna, guldet i de d\u00e4r spadtagen. Se. Fast misstr\u00f6star lite. Troligen pga av tr\u00f6ttheten och en evig f\u00f6rkylning som jag f\u00e5tt f\u00f6r mina synders skull. Japp, dom \u00e4r m\u00e5nga. Straffet i relation till det r\u00e4tt milt. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men vi f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker v\u00e4l lite till…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Somnar under nyhetss\u00e4ndningen. Noll energi kvar. Absolut nollad. Man m\u00e4rker det p\u00e5 att jag somnar sittande i soffan utan st\u00f6d. Bara huvud mot hals. Sovandes. Av Rapport ser jag inget. Jod\u00e5 det kan h\u00e4nda h\u00e4r nere ocks\u00e5. Man lutar sig tillbaks och somnar. Nejd\u00e5, inte ofta. Men ibland. N\u00e4r man har anv\u00e4nt allt man har. 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