{"id":37075,"date":"2020-12-09T08:51:04","date_gmt":"2020-12-09T07:51:04","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=37075"},"modified":"2020-12-09T08:51:04","modified_gmt":"2020-12-09T07:51:04","slug":"sjalvmordsbenagna-tanter","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=37075","title":{"rendered":"Sj\u00e4lvmordsben\u00e4gna tanter"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Tanterna blir s\u00e5 deprimerade den h\u00e4r tiden p\u00e5 \u00e5ret att de f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker ta sina liv. G\u00e4rna med mer eller mindre v\u00e5ldsamma metoder. Duns och s\u00e5 ligger de d\u00e4r utslagna p\u00e5 golvet. Krukan i spillror. Jord utspridd en meter omkring sig. Ofta en stam som har f\u00e5tt en osnygg fraktur l\u00e5ngt borta fr\u00e5n l\u00e4kning och hj\u00e4lp. Ledsna blad h\u00e4r och d\u00e4r tryckta i vanmakt ner mot kalla l\u00e5tsaskontorsgolv.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Det \u00e4r synd om dom. Dom borde f\u00e5 ljusterapi. Tusentals lumen. Den h\u00e4r g\u00e5ngen st\u00e5r kandidaten dock i plastkruka. En gammal p\u00e5skkruka. Som klarar sig. Gul. Redan innan sj\u00e4lvmordsv\u00e5gen hade vi, eller jag, brist p\u00e5 krukor. Det mesta anv\u00e4nds redan. Som den h\u00e4r d\u00e5. P\u00e5skkrukan. Ja, att v\u00e4xa i en gul kruka, galningarnas f\u00e4rg, jag \u00e4lskar gult btw (min favortif\u00e4rg), hj\u00e4lper v\u00e4l kanske inte en vinterdeprimerad tant. Pelargon.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men det har s\u00e5klart med vattning att g\u00f6ra ocks\u00e5. Vinter. Mindre vatten. Det torkas ut. Plastkrukor \u00e4r l\u00e4tta. Pelargonerna stora och st\u00e5tliga. N\u00e5ja, just d\u00e4r f\u00f6rresten. Den k\u00e4re Backa-jan skrattade \u00e5t mina “taniga pelargoner”. Men jag tycker om dom. Tycker dom \u00e4r stiliga. Alla “tanterna” utan undantag.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Man f\u00e5r allts\u00e5 leka akutavdelning idag. De m\u00e5ste v\u00e4l f\u00e5 lite vatten ocks\u00e5 de som st\u00e5r d\u00e4r i de kallst\u00e4llda utrymmena. Som tr\u00f6st. Som en r\u00e4ddning. Ja och lite k\u00e4rleksfullt prat. Kanske skulle jag rent utav l\u00e4sa lite tantsnusk f\u00f6r dom som uppmuntran. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

F\u00e5gelbordet fullt efter Marcus sponsring i fredags. Alla \u00e4r d\u00e4r. Ljuvligt att se och det k\u00e4nns gott i ett gammalt vekhj\u00e4rta som mitt. Alla \u00e4r favoriter. Men ekorren, n\u00f6tv\u00e4ckan, \u00e4r lite extra s\u00e5d\u00e4r, som k\u00e4ndisar p\u00e5 bes\u00f6k. N\u00f6tv\u00e4ckan som jag f.\u00f6. f\u00e5tt f\u00f6r mig att kalla “tr\u00e4dkrypare”, har den egenheten att den sitter och vispar med n\u00e4bben i matbeh\u00e5llaren s\u00e5 att det yr fr\u00f6n \u00f6verallt. Fr\u00f6n som sedan ekorren och dom andra kommer \u00e5t d\u00e4r p\u00e5 backen. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Trodde nog att det skulle bli ett mindre antal individer i \u00e5r, att de tagit den uteblivna matningen till sig, men s\u00e5 blev det inte. De har tydligen bara suttit d\u00e4r i buskarna och lurat. Ja en del har s\u00e5klart skrikit \u00e5t mig n\u00e4r jag visat mig. Speciellt talgoxen Kurt d\u00e5. K\u00e4nner mig tacksam men skyldig \u00f6ver att ha mat \u00e5t dom igen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

K sitter i virtuellt m\u00f6te d\u00e4r uppe. Man f\u00e5r allts\u00e5 sk\u00e4rpa sig h\u00e4r nere. Inte spela h\u00e5rdrock. Inte skrika “J\u00c4VLAR”. Inte \u00e5terstarta router…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men redan onsdag. Blir lite stressad \u00f6ver det. Mycket l\u00e5tsasjobb skulle ha blivit utf\u00f6rt h\u00e4r som inte har flutit f\u00f6rbi under l\u00e5tsasjobbens gamla gistna bro. Programmeraroptimism. Man tror man skall hinna s\u00e5 mycket. Ja och det g\u00f6r man v\u00e4l. Men man hinner aldrig tillr\u00e4ckligt mycket eller ens n\u00e4ra s\u00e5 mycket som man tror att man skall hinna.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

L\u00e5t dagen ge oss ett liv v\u00e4rt att leva. Som dan ig\u00e5r och dan f\u00f6re den.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Tanterna blir s\u00e5 deprimerade den h\u00e4r tiden p\u00e5 \u00e5ret att de f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker ta sina liv. G\u00e4rna med mer eller mindre v\u00e5ldsamma metoder. Duns och s\u00e5 ligger de d\u00e4r utslagna p\u00e5 golvet. Krukan i spillror. Jord utspridd en meter omkring sig. Ofta en stam som har f\u00e5tt en osnygg fraktur l\u00e5ngt borta fr\u00e5n l\u00e4kning och hj\u00e4lp. 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