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Det h\u00e4r \u00e4r en bild av sn\u00e4llheten. Jag kan inte se det p\u00e5 annat s\u00e4tt. N\u00e4r jag kommer ut \u00e4r det redan skottat. Som n\u00e4stan alltid. Jag tar av mig kepsen (som jag bara b\u00e4r virtuellt) och bugar i r\u00e4tt riktning och uttalar ett \u00f6dmjukt och tacksamt “tack”. Det finns n\u00e5gra personer som har extra guldglimmande stj\u00e4rnor i min bok. Den som fixar det h\u00e4r \u00e4r en. Karma – ja man hoppas (och tror) p\u00e5 j\u00e4mvikten. Att universum styr och st\u00e4ller s\u00e5 att alla till slut f\u00e5r sitt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c5rets f\u00f6rsta riktiga sn\u00f6d\u00e4mp. Jag st\u00e5r d\u00e4r med skyffeln i hand och besk\u00e5dar det d\u00e4r kokainvita. Vitare \u00e4n s\u00e5h\u00e4r blir det inte. Inte ens hundrasextusenkronor p\u00e5 en tandblekningsklinik kan \u00e5stadkomma n\u00e5got liknande. Sn\u00f6n \u00e4r faktiskt helt vit. S\u00e5 som den \u00e4r nu p\u00e5 h\u00f6sten f\u00f6re jul. Sen, senare, n\u00e4r solen st\u00e5r h\u00f6gre (det m\u00e5ste vara ljuset), s\u00e5 antar sn\u00f6n en mer bl\u00e5 nyans. Lite olika djup finns i det d\u00e4r bl\u00e5 beroende p\u00e5 mildv\u00e4der eller kallv\u00e4der och gradantal. Fascinerande \u00e4r bara f\u00f6rnamnet. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men en s\u00e5dan h\u00e4r morgon kan man s\u00e5klart inte hata vinter. Tystnaden som l\u00e4gger sig \u00f6ver kullen \u00e4r en g\u00e5va. Det blir helt tyst. Meditationstyst. Sen att skotta det d\u00e4r \u00e4r inte heller n\u00e5got problem. Visserligen ligger temperaturen kring nollan idag och min enarmsskottning t\u00e4r lite extra p\u00e5 kroppen, men det finns en njutning i det d\u00e4r skottandet. Att g\u00e5 in i det. Tag f\u00f6r tag. Swisch, swish. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

En talgoxe piper och vill f\u00f6rtvivlat ha mat. Han minns. Det v\u00e4rker till i hj\u00e4rtat. Jag skulle s\u00e5 g\u00e4rna vilja ta en burk ur den d\u00e4r s\u00e4cken som brukar st\u00e5 i k\u00e4llaren och fylla p\u00e5 i automaten som vanligt. Men inte i \u00e5r. Ja jag s\u00e4ger det nog h\u00f6gt. “Inte i \u00e5r…”. Men inte har talgoxar f\u00f6rst\u00e5else f\u00f6r s\u00e5dana mystiska prioriteringar av resurser. Icke!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u00e5 g\u00e5r jag in. En l\u00e5tsasarbetsdag skall b\u00f6rja h\u00e4rifr\u00e5n. Kaffe eller te \u00e4r den f\u00f6rsta stora fr\u00e5gan som skall besvaras denna dag. Troligen och f\u00f6rhoppningsvis inte den enda.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Det h\u00e4r \u00e4r en bild av sn\u00e4llheten. Jag kan inte se det p\u00e5 annat s\u00e4tt. N\u00e4r jag kommer ut \u00e4r det redan skottat. Som n\u00e4stan alltid. Jag tar av mig kepsen (som jag bara b\u00e4r virtuellt) och bugar i r\u00e4tt riktning och uttalar ett \u00f6dmjukt och tacksamt “tack”. 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