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Katten och jag och ett t\u00e4nt ljus. Inte \u00e4r det s\u00e5 illa. Katten sover mest. Ljuset, ja det brinner s\u00e5 sakta ned\u00e5t och upp. Jag, den ocoole gubben, knappar p\u00e5. Kan v\u00e4l inte annat. Men k\u00e4nner en gl\u00e4dje i det d\u00e4r tryckande p\u00e5 knappar. Underligt kan b\u00e5de ocool gubbe, katt och annan utomst\u00e5ende betraktare tycka. Skall det vara ett liv det d\u00e4r? Att h\u00e5lla p\u00e5 s\u00e5d\u00e4r. L\u00e5tsasjobba. Pytsan! O\u00e4ndliga dagar och timmar men \u00e4nd\u00e5 kommer var och en att s\u00e4ga att du bara sitter d\u00e4r och knappar. Inte g\u00f6r n\u00e5got. Inte jobbar lika h\u00e5rt som dom g\u00f6r. Eftersom dom faktiskt jobbar. Det finns skillnad p\u00e5 l\u00e5tsasjobb och riktigt jobb. L\u00f6n. Priser. Respekt. Fast du lyssnar inte. Knappar p\u00e5. K\u00e4nner timmarna som v\u00e4rker i kroppen. F\u00f6rs\u00f6ker h\u00e5lla kvar koncentrationen som vill flyktas som en vattendroppe i en het \u00f6ken. Du \u00e4r en idiot. Men vet om det. Kanske \u00e4r det f\u00f6rmildrande. Kanske g\u00f6r det alltihop lite v\u00e4rre. Eller mycket v\u00e4rre.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Att tro p\u00e5 n\u00e5got. N\u00e4r ingen annan tror. Det kostar p\u00e5. Ingenmanslandets promenader ut i vildmark som aldrig sett en m\u00e4nniska. V\u00e4l d\u00e4r ute. N\u00e4r det inte finns n\u00e5gra landm\u00e4rken att ta fast p\u00e5 m\u00e5ste du hitta tillbaks igen. Till n\u00e5gonmansland. Hoppas att du hittar det. F\u00f6r s\u00e4ger n\u00e5gon, jaha och joho och va bra. D\u00e5 s\u00e4ger en annan det ocks\u00e5. Den \u00e4r s\u00e5 liten den d\u00e4r gr\u00e4nsen mellan att vara kvar i ingenmansland och n\u00e5gonmansland. De flesta f\u00f6ljer bara de upptrampade stigarna. S\u00e4ger att de alltid g\u00e5tt d\u00e4r ocks\u00e5 n\u00e4r de f\u00f6ljer n\u00e5gon som gick p\u00e5 stigen en f\u00f6rsta g\u00e5ng. F\u00f6ljarna \u00e4r s\u00e5 m\u00e5nga. S\u00e5klart att de m\u00e5ste g\u00e5 efter de stora stigarna d\u00e5. R\u00e4dslan tvingar dem. T\u00e4nk om man kommer n\u00e5gonstans dit man inte trodde man skulle komma. Till det ok\u00e4nda. Hur skall det g\u00e5 d\u00e5? B\u00e4st att sjunka bak\u00e5t i ledet. F\u00f6lja efter. De andra vet nog v\u00e4gen. Den r\u00e4tta v\u00e4gen. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men katten sover. Ljuset kan man sl\u00e4cka s\u00e5 jag sl\u00e4cker det. Allt det d\u00e4r man knappat fram kan man skicka iv\u00e4g \u00f6ver Atlanten med ljusets hastighet. Bara ettor och nollor. Inte \u00e4r det arbete det d\u00e4r inte. J\u00e4mvikt m\u00f6jligen om det \u00e4r lika m\u00e5nga ettor som nollor. Fast ingenting ocks\u00e5. En nolla tar ut en etta. Sandkonst. Budhisternas \u00f6gonblick.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men katten vaknar. Vill ut och upp och iv\u00e4g. Sl\u00e4pps ut. Sk\u00e4rmar st\u00e4ngs av. Kaffekoppen diskas. En robotdammsugare startas. L\u00e5tsasarbete. Kan ocool gubbe ocks\u00e5 ge sig? Kan det h\u00e4r kallas ett dagsverke. Eller \u00e4r det kanske ett l\u00e5tsasdagsverke. Ja, troligen. Eller inte. Eller oftast. Ibland.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men Hulken skall f\u00f6das. Natten \u00e4r l\u00e5ng om man \u00e4r gr\u00f6n och bor i en k\u00e4llare. En ocool gubbe kan lite medicin och en kaka. Nog f\u00e5r han n\u00f6ja sig s\u00e5. Ja verkligen. Eller n\u00e4ppeligen. Sen kan han gott borsta t\u00e4nderna. Som varje kv\u00e4ll. Innan s\u00e4ng och bok och dr\u00f6mmar. Innan en ny dag kommer. En riktig dag. Men troligtvis samma l\u00e4ttja n\u00e4r det g\u00e4ller riktigt arbete. Allt p\u00e5 l\u00e5tsas. Ingenting p\u00e5 riktigt. Kan man leva s\u00e5? Dag efter dag efter dag. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fr\u00e5gan \u00e4r vem som har ett svar. Ett kort. Det l\u00e5nga svaret orka ringen l\u00e4ngre lyssna p\u00e5. Vem har tid numera? Vem hade tid f\u00f6rr. Det \u00e4r fr\u00e5gorna som leder oss vidare. Inte svaren. Stackar oss. Stackars dom. Och OJ! <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nog kan jag svamla allt om jag vill. Ja ocks\u00e5 n\u00e4r jag inte vill. N\u00e5gon sto f\u00f6rfattare, nope, det blir jag aldrig. Men cool gubbe \u00e4r inte s\u00e5 dumt det heller. \u00c5tminstone om man l\u00e5ter bli att titta p\u00e5 sig sj\u00e4lv fr\u00e5n det 22-\u00e5riga jaget d\u00e4r borta. D\u00e5 f\u00f6rtj\u00e4nar man inte mer tid. Redan 42, 43, 44 tedde sig ur\u00e5ldrigt och n\u00e4ra d\u00f6den fr\u00e5n den synvinkeln. Och antagligen hade man r\u00e4tt. Lika r\u00e4tt som man har nu. Saker \u00e4r s\u00e4llan en. Det \u00e4r bara en del som tror p\u00e5 det enkla som tro p\u00e5 s\u00e5dant. Det och Jesus och Tomten tror det p\u00e5 s\u00e5klart. Sv\u00e4rmar \u00f6ver det on\u00e5bara.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men slutsvamlat nu. Tack han\/hon\/det\/gud\/j\u00e4mvikten f\u00f6r det. G\u00e4sp…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Katten och jag och ett t\u00e4nt ljus. Inte \u00e4r det s\u00e5 illa. Katten sover mest. Ljuset, ja det brinner s\u00e5 sakta ned\u00e5t och upp. Jag, den ocoole gubben, knappar p\u00e5. Kan v\u00e4l inte annat. Men k\u00e4nner en gl\u00e4dje i det d\u00e4r tryckande p\u00e5 knappar. Underligt kan b\u00e5de ocool gubbe, katt och annan utomst\u00e5ende betraktare tycka. 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