{"id":36659,"date":"2020-11-03T23:52:00","date_gmt":"2020-11-03T22:52:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=36659"},"modified":"2020-11-03T23:52:00","modified_gmt":"2020-11-03T22:52:00","slug":"motvilligt","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=36659","title":{"rendered":"Motvilligt"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Motvilligt ger jag upp f\u00f6r idag. Mycket motvilligt skall till\u00e4ggas. Japp. MOTVILLIGT<\/strong>. Det har varit en vr\u00e5ng dag. Inget. OK n\u00e4stan<\/strong> inget, har g\u00e5tt min v\u00e4g. Men nu p\u00e5 kv\u00e4llen lossnar det. Men d\u00e5 inser man att man \u00e4r en gammal gubbe numera. Beh\u00f6ver sin sk\u00f6nhetss\u00f6mn. Allts\u00e5 m\u00e5ste man ge sig och hoppas p\u00e5 att flytet st\u00e5r sig ocks\u00e5 imorgon.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men nu d\u00e5 tv\u00e5 l\u00e5dor pratar med en tredje kanske man kan l\u00e4gga till en fj\u00e4rde. M\u00f6jligen \u00e4r det att utmana \u00f6det. Men val finns det s\u00e5klart inga i det fallet. L\u00e5tsasjobbarens dilemma.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hinner inte ens fundera p\u00e5 d\u00f6den idag. Ovanligt h\u00e4r p\u00e5 l\u00e5tsaskontoret. Men det finns allts\u00e5 dagar d\u00e5 tankar inte g\u00e5r \u00e5t det h\u00e5llet \u00e4ven h\u00e4r. Trotts COVID-19 och religi\u00f6sa fundamentalister och amerikanska val d\u00e5. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men nu allts\u00e5 sl\u00e4ck, Hulk, tv\u00e4tt, medicin, en liten, liten macka som man inte borde \u00e4ta, l\u00e4sa en stund och sen dr\u00f6mma sig bort till n\u00e5gon konstig plats som min hj\u00e4rna best\u00e4mmer att vi n\u00f6dv\u00e4ndigt m\u00e5ste bes\u00f6ka. Allt5 det d\u00e4r \u00e4r rutin. Som jag s\u00e5klart f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker bryta ibland. D\u00e4rf\u00f6r att man inte m\u00e5r bra av rutiner fast det kan k\u00e4nnas s\u00e5. M\u00e4nniskan beh\u00f6ver \u00f6verraskningar. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Godnatt!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Motvilligt ger jag upp f\u00f6r idag. Mycket motvilligt skall till\u00e4ggas. Japp. MOTVILLIGT. Det har varit en vr\u00e5ng dag. Inget. OK n\u00e4stan inget, har g\u00e5tt min v\u00e4g. Men nu p\u00e5 kv\u00e4llen lossnar det. Men d\u00e5 inser man att man \u00e4r en gammal gubbe numera. Beh\u00f6ver sin sk\u00f6nhetss\u00f6mn. Allts\u00e5 m\u00e5ste man ge sig och hoppas p\u00e5 att […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-36659","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":18465,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=18465","url_meta":{"origin":36659,"position":0},"title":"Jag en produktm\u00e4nniska","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2015-08-19","format":false,"excerpt":"L\u00f6dning st\u00e5r p\u00e5 schemat idag. 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