{"id":36579,"date":"2020-10-29T08:14:12","date_gmt":"2020-10-29T07:14:12","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=36579"},"modified":"2020-10-29T08:14:12","modified_gmt":"2020-10-29T07:14:12","slug":"det-ovantade","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=36579","title":{"rendered":"Det ov\u00e4ntade"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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F\u00f6r de flesta en helt vanlig torsdag. F\u00f6r mig med. \u00c5tminstone hittills. Vad vet man om den h\u00e4r torsdagen. Ocks\u00e5 morgonen man vaknade efter att Estonia f\u00f6rliste var en vanlig dag. Inte visste man n\u00e5got om vad som skulle komma n\u00e4r man la sig. Dock fanns det en skillnad den d\u00e4r dagen. Jag sov p\u00e5 soffan i vardagsrummet den natten. Varf\u00f6r minns jag inte. Men antagligen var det n\u00e5got av barnen som l\u00e5g p\u00e5 min plats i s\u00e4ngen efter en mardr\u00f6m. Det andra skillnaden var att jag slog p\u00e5 tv’n n\u00e4r jag vaknade. Det brukar jag heller inte g\u00f6ra. Ja och d\u00e4r kom nyheten. Men det b\u00f6rjade allts\u00e5 som vilken dag som helt. Som den h\u00e4r. Man vet s\u00e5 lite om det som kommer.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag gillar torsdagar. Jo jag brukar st\u00e4da l\u00e4genheten uppe d\u00e5. Roligare \u00e4n s\u00e5 kan man s\u00e5klart ha det. Men efter\u00e5t \u00e4r jag tillfreds med den uppgiften ocks\u00e5. En “helgmaker”. Idag undantag fr\u00e5n den d\u00e4r rutinen. Finns andra saker att ta tag i. Undantagen st\u00e4rker.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag vaknar f\u00f6re sex h\u00e4r p\u00e5 morgonen. Frasse, gammelkatten, tycker jag gott kan g\u00e5 upp och f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker \u00f6vertala mig om den saken p\u00e5 sitt s\u00e4tt. Sj\u00e4lv \u00e4r jag inte lika \u00f6vertygad. Men somna om \u00e4r om\u00f6jligt s\u00e5klart. Ger upp vid halv sju. Startar dagen d\u00e4r. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men m\u00f6rker utanf\u00f6r f\u00f6nstret. Det \u00e4r priset d\u00e5 s\u00e5klart f\u00f6r ingen sn\u00f6. Ett pris jag allts\u00e5 g\u00e4rna betalar, och det med dricks d\u00e4rtill. M\u00f6rkret f\u00f6rst\u00e4rker den d\u00e4r bl\u00e5 k\u00e4nslan som genomsyrar h\u00f6sten och den k\u00e4nslan \u00e4r min bensin i allt. Jag \u00e4r en deppig person helt enkelt. Men vill vara det. Trivs i den bl\u00e5 k\u00e4nslan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

V\u00e4l nere p\u00e5 l\u00e5tsaskontoret t\u00e4nder jag mitt ljus. Det brinner i princip stadigt den h\u00e4r tiden. Gillar v\u00e4ldigt mycket. Lugnar tankar och sinne. Sen te. Billiga p\u00e5sar. Det duger \u00e5t mig. K\u00e4nner ingen skillnad mot dyrare sorter. Hett vatten ner f\u00f6r strupe som har mer smak \u00e4n Lossj\u00f6ns fj\u00e4llb\u00e4cksklara vatten i sig.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Morgon inneb\u00e4r ocks\u00e5 att g\u00e5 igenom mail. N\u00e5gra siter finns det v\u00e4l ocks\u00e5 att bes\u00f6ka. Sen kan man dra i startsn\u00f6ret p\u00e5 riktigt f\u00f6r en ny dag. Om man nu inte k\u00e4nner f\u00f6r ett blogginl\u00e4gg d\u00e5, som idag allts\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Det d\u00e4r skrivbandet \u00e4r s\u00e5klart helt on\u00f6digt och meningsl\u00f6st. Det \u00e4r antagligen d\u00e4rf\u00f6r jag gillar det. Ja rent av m\u00e5ste f\u00e5 ner n\u00e5gra ord ibland. N\u00e5gon slags terapi \u00e4r det ju. Hindrar mig fr\u00e5n att r\u00f6sta p\u00e5 icke socialistiska partier n\u00e4r det \u00e4r val. Tro nu inte att jag k\u00f6per allt det d\u00e4r f\u00e5niga v\u00e4nstersnacket. F\u00f6r det g\u00f6r jag inte. Jag tror p\u00e5 EU och f\u00f6retag och till och med privata initiativ inom v\u00e5rd och skola. Men f\u00f6rst kommer tron p\u00e5 att vi m\u00e5ste hj\u00e4lpas \u00e5t. Ju n\u00e4rmare varandra vi befinner oss i samh\u00e4llet desto mer utvecklat \u00e4r det. J\u00e4mvikt igen vet ni. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

N\u00e4sh\u00e5rstrimmer. Vem trodde n\u00e5gonsin som ung att man skulle beh\u00f6va det? Har i alla fall k\u00f6pt en f\u00f6r tjugonio kronor f\u00f6r femton \u00e5r sedan. Anv\u00e4nds flitigt i min n\u00e4sa. Jo, fattar inte att det \u00e4r en s\u00e5dan tillv\u00e4xt just d\u00e4r. Men en fris\u00f6r f\u00f6rklarade att h\u00e5rstr\u00e5na tjockar p\u00e5 sig n\u00e4r man blir \u00e4ldre. Syns mer allts\u00e5. Hursomhelst. F\u00f6rs\u00f6ker h\u00e5lla efter. Men idag burar den d\u00e4r grejen inte alls. F\u00f6rs\u00f6ker byta batteri men burrar inte d\u00e5 heller. Hmm….. Laga allts\u00e5. Inte k\u00f6pa nytt. I v\u00e4rsta fall f\u00e5r man v\u00e4l anv\u00e4nda skruvdragaren.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men nu s\u00e5. Jag skall f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka hitta den d\u00e4r koncentrationen som ligger och vilar sig i n\u00e5gon av sm\u00e5t\u00e5rna. F\u00f6ra upp den upp till hj\u00e4rnbarken. L\u00e5ta en sprida sig d\u00e4r sedan, fritt och v\u00e5ldsamt som en fransk revolution. F\u00f6r framtida segrar. N\u00e5gra on\u00f6diga ideer kan giljotinerna f\u00e5 ta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ha en god dag kamrat!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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