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Det finns alldeles f\u00f6r m\u00e5nga strider man aldrig kan vinna. Jag har alltid vetat att det \u00e4r s\u00e5. Har alltid g\u00e5tt \u00e5t sidan n\u00e4r jag befunnit mig i den ringen. Men slagits h\u00e5rt om jag trott att det funnits en chans att vinna. Men f\u00f6rlorat ibland d\u00e5 ocks\u00e5 s\u00e5klart. Eller kanske gjort det oftast. Eller var ocks\u00e5 f\u00f6rlusterna vinster?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast jag tror att det d\u00e4r att veta att man inte kan vinna \u00e4r en bra egenskap. Att kunna backa undan. Inte bli en r\u00e4ttshaverist. Att sl\u00e5ss bara f\u00f6r att f\u00e5 r\u00e4tt ger aldrig den d\u00e4r slutliga tillfredsst\u00e4llelsen. Man m\u00e5ste ha en b\u00e4ttre anledning. Substans. En tro p\u00e5 n\u00e5got. Inte spraya guldf\u00e4rg p\u00e5 skitklickar och inbilla sig att de inte l\u00e4ngre \u00e4r skit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Man m\u00e5ste kunna s\u00e4ga “f\u00f6rl\u00e5t<\/em>” till andra och till sig sj\u00e4lv och backa undan utan att l\u00e5ta hatet leta upp en plats d\u00e4r inne i en och s\u00e4tta sig d\u00e4r och lura. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

F\u00f6rloraren \u00e4r inte den som g\u00e5r vidare i sitt liv. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Man kan b\u00e4ra in pellets f\u00f6r att fylla Hulkens hungriga gap och fundera s\u00e5d\u00e4r. Stj\u00e4rnhimlen ovanf\u00f6r en \u00e4r magnifik. Det \u00e4r fyra grader minus och man \u00e4r barfota i tofflor n\u00e4r man vandrar med de d\u00e4r s\u00e4ckarna. S\u00e5d\u00e4r som man skall h\u00e5lla p\u00e5 fram\u00e5t maj n\u00e4sta \u00e5r. Morgon och kv\u00e4ll. Man kan lika g\u00e4rna njuta av det. G\u00f6ra det hela till en h\u00e4ndelse f\u00f6r dagen. Om man orkar. Om man kan. Om man vill. Den d\u00e4r himlen ovanf\u00f6r ens huvud r\u00e4cker ju egentligen. I alla fall om man stannar upp och tittar upp rakt ut i universum. F\u00f6rundran och v\u00f6rdnad b\u00f6r man l\u00e4mpligen k\u00e4nna n\u00e4r man st\u00e5r d\u00e4r. Om man \u00e4r levandes. Ja trotts att man bara b\u00e4r p\u00e5 en s\u00e4ck pellets.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Det \u00e4r n\u00e4stan synd att Hulken blir m\u00e4tt. Man kunde tagit en s\u00e4ck till. Det \u00e4r en njutning alltsammans. En enkel njutning f\u00f6r en enkel sj\u00e4l som inte vill och inte kan vara b\u00e4ttre \u00e4n n\u00e5gon annan. Som aldrig kunnat. Som g\u00e5tt undan n\u00e4r det inte g\u00e5tt att vinna. Men det \u00e4r bara vid m\u00e5llinjen som vinnare koras. Man m\u00e5ste veta det ocks\u00e5 och bida sin tid.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Det finns alldeles f\u00f6r m\u00e5nga strider man aldrig kan vinna. Jag har alltid vetat att det \u00e4r s\u00e5. Har alltid g\u00e5tt \u00e5t sidan n\u00e4r jag befunnit mig i den ringen. Men slagits h\u00e5rt om jag trott att det funnits en chans att vinna. Men f\u00f6rlorat ibland d\u00e5 ocks\u00e5 s\u00e5klart. Eller kanske gjort det oftast. 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