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Lusten driver p\u00e5 mig. Skriker “upp med dig gubbj\u00e4vel, det finns saker att g\u00f6ra<\/em>” redan vid fem. Men det finns m\u00e5tta. Ocks\u00e5 i mitt liv. Sjuttiofem\u00e5rings morgonliv kan vi inte leva \u00e4nnu. Vakna tidigt. S\u00e4tta p\u00e5 kaffe. V\u00e4nta p\u00e5 tidningen. Snart men, inte \u00e4nnu. “Bara” sextiotre.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men det \u00e4r inte bara att somna efter s\u00e5dant skrikande. Allra helst om det \u00e4r lusten som skriker. Men till slut g\u00f6r jag det. I alla fall tills det \u00e4r dags igen vid halv sju. D\u00e4r \u00e4r det bara att ge sig. \u00c4r man en s\u00e5dan d\u00e4r sl\u00f6 person som jag \u00e4r, en som inte g\u00f6r ett endaste dugg nytta, s\u00e5 f\u00e5r man i alla fall visa lite god vilja och g\u00e5 upp vid en skapligt rimligt tid p\u00e5 morgonen. Av med t\u00e4cke. Hoppa i kl\u00e4derna. G\u00e5 mot toalett och k\u00f6k. Allts\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u00e5 nu sitter jag h\u00e4r. En nybryggd kopp te bredvid mig. Ja, “nybryggd” \u00e4r \u00e4nd\u00e5 en lite pretenti\u00f6s beskrivning f\u00f6r inneh\u00e5llet i den d\u00e4r koppen. Uppkokat vatten med en te-strumpa i. Men ok. “Nybryggt”. Ljuset \u00e4r det ingen ide att t\u00e4nda. Nedbrunnet s\u00e5 l\u00e5ngt det g\u00e5r nu. Borde ha nappat \u00e5t mig n\u00e5gra nya uppe i l\u00e4genheten innan jag vandrade ner hit, men gl\u00f6mde s\u00e5klart. Det f\u00e5r vara till lunch allts\u00e5. Men gl\u00f6mmer s\u00e4kert d\u00e5 ocks\u00e5. Men r\u00e4tt vad det \u00e4r kommer jag ih\u00e5g. Lusten brukar skrika h\u00f6gt \u00e4ven d\u00e4r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Morgonrutiner f\u00f6rresten, de inneb\u00e4r katter f\u00f6rst. Gammelkatt och ungkatt. Mat skriks det p\u00e5 d\u00e4r. Hungern river i kattmagar. Man f\u00e5r bejaka. F\u00e5r tillbaks ett kurr h\u00e4r och d\u00e4r n\u00e4r man \u00e4r behov av kurrande. Fattar att man \u00e4r s\u00e5klart utnyttjad hela v\u00e4gen ut till slaveriets gr\u00e4nsmarker.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men s\u00e5 d\u00e5 s\u00e5. L\u00e5t denna onsdag ha sin b\u00f6rjan. Ingen vet vad den f\u00f6r med sig och vad den inneh\u00e5ller f\u00f6r\u00f6ver. Gott kan man hoppas. Som man alltid g\u00f6r. Men \u00e4n s\u00e5 l\u00e4nge tycker jag nog \u00e4nd\u00e5 att livet k\u00e4nns r\u00e4tt gott att leva.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tjenamors!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Lusten driver p\u00e5 mig. Skriker “upp med dig gubbj\u00e4vel, det finns saker att g\u00f6ra” redan vid fem. Men det finns m\u00e5tta. Ocks\u00e5 i mitt liv. Sjuttiofem\u00e5rings morgonliv kan vi inte leva \u00e4nnu. Vakna tidigt. S\u00e4tta p\u00e5 kaffe. V\u00e4nta p\u00e5 tidningen. Snart men, inte \u00e4nnu. “Bara” sextiotre. 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