{"id":36275,"date":"2020-09-28T16:37:16","date_gmt":"2020-09-28T15:37:16","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=36275"},"modified":"2020-09-28T16:37:16","modified_gmt":"2020-09-28T15:37:16","slug":"rockstjarna-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=36275","title":{"rendered":"Rockstj\u00e4rna"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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N\u00e4r jag var ung jobbade jag p\u00e5 fabrik. Tr\u00e4f\u00f6r\u00e4dligen. Edsbyn. 70-tal. Farsan var verkm\u00e4stare. Ordnade det d\u00e4r n\u00e4r jag hoppade av gymnasiet. Lite straff var det nog. “Ge honom skitjobben” och det gjorde man. Som om det inte r\u00e4ckte som straff att vara verkm\u00e4starens son.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Liksom<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men sju \u00e5r blev jag kvar. Dr\u00f6mmen om att bli rockstj\u00e4rna fick dagarna att g\u00e5 och skit att rinn av. Pengar ramlade in som det gick att k\u00f6pa instrument f\u00f6r. Ett \u00e5r i lumpen ocks\u00e5 i det d\u00e4r. S\u00e5 sex \u00e5r var det v\u00e4l egentligen. Tills jag br\u00f6t mig ur. B\u00f6rjade plugga. Stack iv\u00e4g. Gav upp rockstj\u00e4rnedr\u00f6mmarna. K\u00f6pte tv.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Man kan s\u00e5klart fnissa lite \u00e5t de d\u00e4r rockstj\u00e4rnedr\u00f6mmarna idag. Nu n\u00e4r man vore beredd att betala f\u00f6r ok\u00e4ndisskapet. Friheten att vara den man \u00e4r. Lyxen att INTE bli igenk\u00e4nd och \u00f6vervakad. Men allvar d\u00e5. Kanske var det s\u00e5klart egentligen bara f\u00f6r att bli n\u00e5gon. Vara v\u00e4rd att \u00e4lska. Som om det inte r\u00e4ckte med att vara en man var.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast det var inte det jag t\u00e4nkte skriva om. P\u00e5 fabriken fanns en man som var n\u00e4ra pension. Han m\u00e5ste ha varit i min \u00e5lder. Troligen lite yngre till och med. Men ur\u00e5ldrig i mina \u00f6gon s\u00e5klart. Skr\u00f6plig rent utav. Jag minns hur mycket han l\u00e4ngtade till pensioneringen. R\u00e4knade dagarna. Pratade om den dan hela tiden. Och s\u00e5 kom d\u00e5 den d\u00e4r dagen och han kunde passerade st\u00e4mpelklockan en sista g\u00e5ng p\u00e5 sin v\u00e4g ut och hem f\u00f6r att aldrig igen \u00e5terv\u00e4nda till sin arbetsplats och sin maskin. Mindre \u00e4n ett \u00e5r efter den hemf\u00e4rden s\u00e5 var han d\u00f6d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Livet har ju en tendens att skoja med oss. Typiskt, precis som f\u00f6r min arbetskamrat. Men jag l\u00e4rde mig d\u00e4r och d\u00e5 att man m\u00e5ste leva nu. \u00c4ven om man l\u00e4ngtar till en dag, ja som jag d\u00e5 till en dag 399 dagar f\u00f6r\u00f6ver, s\u00e5 g\u00e4ller det att ta vara p\u00e5 dom dagar som g\u00e5r f\u00f6re den d\u00e4r dagen ocks\u00e5. Man vet liksom inte vad livet kan hitta p\u00e5. Ja och livet \u00e4r riktigt lurigt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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