{"id":36249,"date":"2020-09-25T17:09:33","date_gmt":"2020-09-25T16:09:33","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=36249"},"modified":"2020-09-25T17:09:33","modified_gmt":"2020-09-25T16:09:33","slug":"ett-bra-stalle","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=36249","title":{"rendered":"Ett bra st\u00e4lle"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Hon kommer in genom d\u00f6rrarna. S\u00f6t som socker. Lite tr\u00f6tt. Kanske liten ledsen. Eller b\u00e5da. Vad vet man . Men hon h\u00e5ller sin pappa h\u00e5rt i ena handen och lika h\u00e5rt en \u00e4lskad sliten nalle i den andra. P\u00e5 ryggen har hon en ljusbl\u00e5 ryggs\u00e4ck utsmyckad med n\u00e5gon grafik jag inte k\u00e4nner igen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Vi sitter p\u00e5 Max i Bolln\u00e4s. K och jag. Det \u00e4r m\u00e5nadens snabbmatsm\u00e5ltid. In med en haloumiburgare mellan k\u00e4ftarna. Tugga. Sv\u00e4lj. Det \u00e4r inte mer med det d\u00e4r. Men p\u00e5 k\u00f6pet f\u00e5r man \u00e4lsklingsupplevelsen av att se (och fantisera om) andra m\u00e4nniskor. Idag allts\u00e5 den h\u00e4r pappan och hans dotter.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Pappan \u00e4r i fyrtio\u00e5rs\u00e5ldern. Flickan \u00e4r kanske \u00e5tta eller nio eller d\u00e4romkring. Ingenting \u00e4r konstigt med den h\u00e4r delen av en familj p\u00e5 v\u00e4g in f\u00f6r att k\u00f6pa en hamburgare. Inte f\u00f6r de flesta. Om man nu inte \u00e4r annorlunda, utpekad, om man har en annan hudf\u00e4rg \u00e4n n\u00e4stan alla andra som finns d\u00e4r p\u00e5 hamburgerhaket. Eller alla i staden d\u00e4r paret r\u00f6r sig eller i landet f\u00f6r den delen. Ja rent av i v\u00e4rldsdelen. F\u00f6r b\u00e5de far och dotter \u00e4r n\u00e4mligen svarta. F\u00e4rgade Annorlunda.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag \u00e4r s\u00e5 gammal s\u00e5 att jag k\u00e4nner m\u00e4nniskorna. Solit\u00e4rens roll \u00e4r den att l\u00e4ra k\u00e4nna de som omger honom. S\u00e5 jag vet att den h\u00e4r flickan kommer att f\u00e5 utst\u00e5 – har redan utst\u00e5tt s\u00e4kert – en massa skit bara f\u00f6r att hon har en m\u00f6rkare hud \u00e4n sina v\u00e4nner och dem hon m\u00f6ter. Hon kommer att m\u00f6ta en massa dumma idiotiska m\u00e4nniskor som kommer att s\u00e4ga dumma idiotiska saker. Den d\u00e4r hudf\u00e4rgen kommer att f\u00f6rf\u00f6lja den lilla flickan hela hennes liv precis som den f\u00f6rd\u00f6ljer hennes far varje dag. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag sitter d\u00e4r och har sv\u00e5rt att f\u00f6rst\u00e5 hur en m\u00f6rkare nyans p\u00e5 huden, som faktisk \u00e4r vackrare \u00e4n den grissk\u00e4ra f\u00e4rg som de flesta andra jag m\u00f6ter idag har f\u00f6tt sig i, kan f\u00e5 andra m\u00e4nniskor att blir monster. En skitsak. Som \u00f6gonf\u00e4rg, h\u00e5rf\u00e4rg, l\u00e5ng eller kort eller vad fan som helst. Sm\u00e5saker. Det d\u00e4r att best\u00e4mma sig f\u00f6r att de med t.ex. gr\u00f6na \u00f6gon \u00e4r en s\u00e4mre sorts m\u00e4nniskor. Eller \u00e4r och t\u00e4nker p\u00e5 ett speciellt s\u00e4tt. \u00c4r annorlunda. F\u00e5r inte vara med.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u00e5 jag tar p\u00e5 mig en del av den skit som en d\u00e4r flickan kommer att uts\u00e4ttas f\u00f6r. Det \u00e4r mitt folk som kommer att utdela den d\u00e4r skiten. Men jag skickar tillbaks den ut i universum in i solar och supernovor s\u00e5 att den en dag \u00e5terv\u00e4nder och sl\u00e5r de d\u00e4r m\u00e4nniskorna till marken n\u00e4r de nedv\u00e4rderar eller sl\u00e4nger ur sig sitt bajs till prat och \u00e5sikter. Som vilken Jesus som helst allts\u00e5. Men ocool gubbe d\u00e5. Vi gamla gubbar besitter mer makt \u00e4n m\u00e5nga tror.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Mannen och hans dotter k\u00f6per den minsta drickan och den minsta hamburgaren. Bara en. Det \u00e4r dottern som skall f\u00e5 den. Fredag. N\u00e4r mannen g\u00e5r ut s\u00e5 m\u00f6ts v\u00e5ra blickar. \u00c4r det skam jag ser i den? Kanske. Jag k\u00e4nner att jag vill g\u00e5 fram till dem b\u00e5da och bjuda in till fest. En fest f\u00f6r att visa att \u00e5t helvete med alla idioter som g\u00f6r v\u00e4rlden till ett s\u00e4mre st\u00e4lle att finnas i och v\u00e4lkommen in alla som g\u00f6r den till ett b\u00e4ttre st\u00e4lle f\u00f6r ALLA att leva i.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Hon kommer in genom d\u00f6rrarna. S\u00f6t som socker. Lite tr\u00f6tt. Kanske liten ledsen. Eller b\u00e5da. Vad vet man . Men hon h\u00e5ller sin pappa h\u00e5rt i ena handen och lika h\u00e5rt en \u00e4lskad sliten nalle i den andra. P\u00e5 ryggen har hon en ljusbl\u00e5 ryggs\u00e4ck utsmyckad med n\u00e5gon grafik jag inte k\u00e4nner igen. 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