{"id":36119,"date":"2020-09-12T13:20:51","date_gmt":"2020-09-12T12:20:51","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=36119"},"modified":"2020-09-12T13:20:51","modified_gmt":"2020-09-12T12:20:51","slug":"formiddag","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=36119","title":{"rendered":"F\u00f6rmiddag"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Korpen \u00e4r det enda som h\u00f6rs. Nej fel. \u00c4lven ocks\u00e5. Voxnan som brusar lite mer just h\u00e4r, h\u00f6rs den ocks\u00e5 i fj\u00e4rran. Ner\u00e5t, l\u00e4ngre nedanf\u00f6r berget \u00e4n d\u00e4r jag st\u00e5r, p\u00e5g\u00e5r dess st\u00e4ndiga resa mot havet. Annars tystnad. Inte ens vind h\u00f6rs i tr\u00e4dkronorna. H\u00e4r \u00e4r jag hemma. Lugnet fyller hela mitt sinne.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Man v\u00e4ljer att \u00e5ka hit ut, l\u00e5ngt ut, bort, en f\u00f6rmiddag, en l\u00f6rdag, ist\u00e4llet f\u00f6r att h\u00e4cka i soffan. Val som man g\u00f6r. Som man inte \u00e5ngrar. H\u00e4r kan man samla kraft och energi f\u00f6r det som kommer. Bara h\u00e4r \u00e4r man helt och h\u00e5llet sig sj\u00e4lv.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men man \u00e4r inte ensam. Det \u00e4r inte bara korpen och jag som \u00e4r ute i skogen. En \u00e4lg som drar iv\u00e4g genom ungskogen. J\u00e4garen vid sitt pass som dr\u00f6mmer om att just den \u00e4lg jag nyss skr\u00e4mde iv\u00e4g skall skall springa f\u00f6rbi just hens pass. Bj\u00f6rnsp\u00e5r. Skogsf\u00e5gel. St\u00e4ndigt tvekande. H\u00f6ger eller v\u00e4nster, fly, Fast \u00e5t vilket h\u00e5ll? Och skall man verkligen fly? \u00c4r det verkligen dags? Men hur? Tills det inte g\u00e5r l\u00e4ngre. Tills de flyr. Men vackra. B\u00e5de i sin virrighet och i sitt s\u00e4tt. Ordet tj\u00e4der, har n\u00e5got m\u00e4ktigt \u00f6ver sig. Hanf\u00e5glarna, svarta och vita och stolta kan h\u00e5lla en kulle lika bra som vilket milit\u00e4rt kompani som helst. Or\u00e4dda \u00e4r bara f\u00f6rnamnet. Urminnestidens kraft i fj\u00e4derskrud.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Voxnan \u00e4r tryggheten. H\u00e4r kan man r\u00f6ra sig. Tappar man bort sig \u00e4r det bara att g\u00e5 mot Voxnan. Den \u00e4r hemma f\u00f6r mig i allt. Jag \u00e4r f\u00f6dd och uppvuxen n\u00e4ra den \u00e4lven. Som en extra mor \u00e4r den f\u00f6r mig. Fick jag som jag ville skulle den b\u00e4ra min aska ut till havet sedan ocks\u00e5 n\u00e4r jag en dag \u00e4r d\u00f6d. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hem \u00e5terv\u00e4nder man med mer energi \u00e4n man hade n\u00e4r man \u00e5kte ut. Bensinlampan lyser. Resan g\u00e5r p\u00e5 ett h\u00e5r. Som s\u00e5 ofta. Fast vet s\u00e4kert g\u00f6r man inte. Min bensinm\u00e4tare \u00e4r inte att lita p\u00e5. Det kan finnas hur m\u00e5nga litrar som helst kvar i den d\u00e4r tanken. Eller ocks\u00e5 inga alls plus en och annan liter vatten. B\u00e4st att inte veta. Anv\u00e4nda sig av och hoppas p\u00e5 marginalerna. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag delar s\u00e5klart med mig av lite av Voxnans kraft f\u00f6r er som fortfarande h\u00e4ckar i soffan<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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H\u00e4r hemma nu avbetande av de d\u00e4r listorna. Men med batteriet laddat d\u00e4r inne i hj\u00e4rna och kropp d\u00e4r m\u00e4nskliga batterier h\u00e4rb\u00e4rgerar tar jag mig an verkligheten igen med l\u00e4tthet. Om det nu \u00e4r det h\u00e4r, hemma, som tillh\u00f6r verkligheten eller om det \u00e4r turen ut i skogen, d\u00e4r, korpen, Voxnan, \u00e4lgen och allt annat som \u00e4r det verkliga. Fast skit samma. Man lever. Det r\u00e4cker. \u00c5tminstone f\u00f6r mig. En (r\u00e4tt) gammal gubbe i osynligheten.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Korpen \u00e4r det enda som h\u00f6rs. Nej fel. \u00c4lven ocks\u00e5. Voxnan som brusar lite mer just h\u00e4r, h\u00f6rs den ocks\u00e5 i fj\u00e4rran. Ner\u00e5t, l\u00e4ngre nedanf\u00f6r berget \u00e4n d\u00e4r jag st\u00e5r, p\u00e5g\u00e5r dess st\u00e4ndiga resa mot havet. Annars tystnad. Inte ens vind h\u00f6rs i tr\u00e4dkronorna. H\u00e4r \u00e4r jag hemma. Lugnet fyller hela mitt sinne. Man v\u00e4ljer […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-36119","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":28665,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=28665","url_meta":{"origin":36119,"position":0},"title":"Som i en osynlig s\u00e5pbubbla","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2018-05-27","format":false,"excerpt":"Det \u00e4r l\u00f6rdag f\u00f6rmiddag. 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