{"id":35966,"date":"2020-08-31T20:04:30","date_gmt":"2020-08-31T19:04:30","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=35966"},"modified":"2020-08-31T20:04:30","modified_gmt":"2020-08-31T19:04:30","slug":"oh-ja-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=35966","title":{"rendered":"Oh, ja"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Photo by Shivam Patel on Pexels.com<\/a><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n

Solen g\u00e5r ner. Det sker i v\u00e4ster h\u00e4r med. Faktisk. Man kan tro att det skulle kunna vara tv\u00e4rt om. Varf\u00f6r man nu skulle tro det. Kanske f\u00f6r att Losbor \u00e4r vr\u00e5nga. Har finnars blod och vr\u00e5nghet i sig. “OO” \u00e4r en kamp som f\u00f6rsigg\u00e5r h\u00e4r. Som om den g\u00e4llde livet. Var viktigare \u00e4n mat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sj\u00e4lv \u00e4r jag \u00e4r inflyttad och utb\u00f6ling. Inte lika vr\u00e5ng. D\u00e4rmed inte sagt att jag \u00e4r l\u00e4tt att ha att g\u00f6ra med f\u00f6r den skull. Kan nog vara vr\u00e5ng n\u00e4r det beh\u00f6vs. Annars n\u00e4r det inte beh\u00f6vs ocks\u00e5 p\u00e5 oj\u00e4mna datum. Som de flesta andra gamla gubbar. Sen har man ju vr\u00e5ngat till sig under \u00e5ren man bott h\u00e4r. Anpassat sig. “Det g\u00e5r \u00e5t helvete” liksom. Sagt med best\u00e4mdhet och s\u00e4kerhet i r\u00f6sten. “Fuck off<\/em>” liksom. Till alla. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Liksom<\/strong> igen. Omtag. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men att l\u00e4ngta h\u00e4rifr\u00e5n… Det g\u00e5r inte att fly fr\u00e5n sig sj\u00e4lv. Det vet jag best\u00e4mt. Man har sin zon. D\u00e4r g\u00e5r det att leva. I mitt fall p\u00e5 en kulle. B\u00f6rjar man ojja sig rinner det alltid tillbaks p\u00e5 en sj\u00e4lv. Som sirap ungef\u00e4r. Tr\u00f6gflytande och \u00e4ckligt s\u00f6tt. Galenskapens fl\u00f6de.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Frostvarning d\u00e5 till slut. I natt nere vid tv\u00e5 grader och touchade. Man borde gr\u00e5ta. Sommaren \u00e4r de facto slut. Imorgon september. H\u00f6stm\u00e5nad antingen man vill det eller ej. Man ville vara flyttf\u00e5gel. G\u00f6ra sig redo f\u00f6r resan s\u00f6derut. Som s\u00e4des\u00e4rlan jag pratade med idag. Resan till det som ocks\u00e5 \u00e4r hemma. Fast har man inget s\u00e5dant “hem”. Ja, d\u00e5 kan man lika g\u00e4rna stannat d\u00e4r man \u00e4r. Lida. Flina lite \u00e5t sitt eget lidande. Rent utav galet storflabba. F\u00f6r vad skall man annars g\u00f6ra liksom. Bygga en bastu?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men brittsommar allts\u00e5. Till Britt st\u00e5r hoppet. Hela.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

H\u00e4r p\u00e5 l\u00e5tsaskontoret h\u00e4nder inte mycket idag. Liv som g\u00e5r bara. \u00c4nd\u00e5 \u00e4r det v\u00e4l inte mindre som sker \u00e4n vilken annan dag som helst. Men paradoxen \u00e4r det d\u00e4r med att g\u00f6ra saker p\u00e5 l\u00e5tsas. Om det som h\u00e4nt varit p\u00e5 riktigt hade det s\u00e5klart varit en annan sak. D\u00e5 hade dagen varit rent utav produktiv. Kanske borde man skrika “HJ\u00c4LP<\/em>” och “r\u00e4dda mig<\/em>“, som om man var den drunknande.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men vem vill bli r\u00e4ddad. Man vill ju vara hj\u00e4lten och den som r\u00e4ddar. S\u00e5klart. Annars \u00e4r det ju ingen vits att anstr\u00e4nga sig.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u00e5… d\u00e4r… liksom<\/strong>.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Solen g\u00e5r ner. Det sker i v\u00e4ster h\u00e4r med. Faktisk. Man kan tro att det skulle kunna vara tv\u00e4rt om. Varf\u00f6r man nu skulle tro det. Kanske f\u00f6r att Losbor \u00e4r vr\u00e5nga. Har finnars blod och vr\u00e5nghet i sig. “OO” \u00e4r en kamp som f\u00f6rsigg\u00e5r h\u00e4r. Som om den g\u00e4llde livet. Var viktigare \u00e4n mat. 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