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Idag fyller VSCP<\/strong> 20 \u00e5r. Ton\u00e5rstiden \u00e4r \u00f6ver. Dags att v\u00e4xa upp. Fast s\u00e5 br\u00e5ttom \u00e4r det v\u00e4l inte. Nog borde det v\u00e4l g\u00e5 att festa runt och ha vansinnigt roligt i \u00e5tminstone tio \u00e5r till. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast fest blir det inte. Noll fest. Som vanligt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men tjugo \u00e5r. Det f\u00e5r en att t\u00e4nka p\u00e5 alla timmar. Det \u00e4r bara att r\u00e4kna ihop. 15-16 timmar per dag, ta bort fredagskv\u00e4llar och l\u00f6rdagar. Multiplicera med tjugo. Ungef\u00e4r. Skr\u00e4mmande. Det blir ett liv. “Ett livsverk<\/em>“. Fast livsverk l\u00e5ter s\u00e5klart som en prestation och en bedrift. Om man g\u00f6r n\u00e5got som v\u00e4ldigt f\u00e5 vill ha. L\u00e4gger sin sj\u00e4l i det \u00e4nd\u00e5. Vad kallas det d\u00e5? Galenskap?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men grattis, liksom<\/strong>. Hur man nu gratulerar en tanke eller v\u00e5gar man kalla det en vision.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fester… Man hade kanske f\u00f6delsedagskalas n\u00e4r man var barn. S\u00e5 m\u00e5nga kom v\u00e4l inte p\u00e5 dom. Minns inte. Men kusinen A brukade dyka upp mot kv\u00e4llen med sin mamma och pappa. \u00d6verr\u00e4ckte sedvanligt avl\u00e5ngt paket. Inneh\u00e5ll en silversked. Det skulle tackas. Ogillade det d\u00e4r starkt. Det var s\u00e5 krystat. Man skulle bli glad. Har inte kunnat ta emot en present utan stor obehagsk\u00e4nsla sedan dess. Silverskedarna ligger v\u00e4l n\u00e5gonstans i n\u00e5gon l\u00e5da fortfarande. V\u00e4rdel\u00f6sa d\u00e5. V\u00e4rdel\u00f6sa nu. Och vi pratar inte kronor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Otacksam \u00e4r jag kanske.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Backa-Jan ber\u00e4ttade mycket glad om sitt 60-\u00e5rsfirande d\u00e5 n\u00e4r jag fyllde sextio. S\u00f6nerna hade bjudit honom p\u00e5 middag i T\u00e4llberg. Ingen fest d\u00e4r heller. Men gesten s\u00e5g jag p\u00e5 honom att han uppskattade mycket. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sj\u00e4lv \u00e4r jag d\u00e5 inte s\u00e5 mycket f\u00f6r det d\u00e4r firandet. Fast egentligen tycker jag att man skall fira utav bara helvete. Ta chansen vid varje tillf\u00e4lle. Livet inneh\u00e5ller s\u00e5 mycket ickefirande. Men till\u00e4mpar inte det d\u00e4r sj\u00e4lv allts\u00e5. Jag brukar spela Per Gessles F\u00f6delsedag<\/a> och arbeta p\u00e5 mina f\u00f6delsedagar. Ocks\u00e5 de j\u00e4mna. G\u00f6r nog det idag ocks\u00e5 f\u00f6r VSCP.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

N\u00e4 visst ja. Har annat f\u00f6r mig idag.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Farsan var bra p\u00e5 det d\u00e4r med bem\u00e4rkelsedagar. Var den sj\u00e4lvklara medelpunkten. Folk droppade in under en hel dag. Tal. Fest. Presenter. Minnen. Jag fattar inte riktigt varifr\u00e5n det d\u00e4r kom. Morsan flydde hellre n\u00e4r det var hennes tur. S\u00e5 l\u00e5ngt bort som det gick. Hon hade varit v\u00e4l v\u00e4rd de d\u00e4r festerna. Men kanske handlar allt det d\u00e4r om sj\u00e4lvk\u00e4nsla. Eller brist p\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

N\u00e5ja. VSCP. I b\u00e4sta fall kan man kanske t\u00e4nka sig tio \u00e5r till. Ja om det nu \u00e4r det “b\u00e4sta”. Man kan kanske bli “frisk” ocks\u00e5. Ta sig ur galenskapen. G\u00f6ra annat. Titta p\u00e5 TV t.ex. Eller s\u00e4tta sig p\u00e5 en b\u00e4nk med de andra gubbarna. Ljuga lite. Eller varf\u00f6r inte mycket.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast lusten finns kvar d\u00e4r \u00e4nd\u00e5. Det roliga och lustfyllda st\u00e5r kanske f\u00f6r n\u00e5gra procent s\u00e5klart. Det \u00e4r mest jobb. Nope, l\u00e5tsasjobb. Men \u00e4nd\u00e5. Lust att g\u00e5 vidare mot det som visionerades om f\u00f6r tjugo \u00e5r sedan. Fast allt startade egentligen s\u00e5klart \u00e4nnu l\u00e4ngre tillbaks. 1982 kanske. I Uppsala. Det gick bara inte att g\u00f6ra d\u00e5. Bara pappersprodukter. Det var m\u00f6jligt f\u00f6rst d\u00e5 d\u00e4r vid millennieskiftet att skapa det verkliga.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men dagen \u00e4r s\u00e5klart ingen viktig dag f\u00f6r n\u00e5gon. Inte ens f\u00f6r mig. Allt snurrar vidare och jag med det. Jag kan leva med det. S\u00e5 l\u00e4nge lusten finns d\u00e4r. Det g\u00f6r den!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Idag fyller VSCP 20 \u00e5r. Ton\u00e5rstiden \u00e4r \u00f6ver. Dags att v\u00e4xa upp. Fast s\u00e5 br\u00e5ttom \u00e4r det v\u00e4l inte. Nog borde det v\u00e4l g\u00e5 att festa runt och ha vansinnigt roligt i \u00e5tminstone tio \u00e5r till. Fast fest blir det inte. Noll fest. Som vanligt. Men tjugo \u00e5r. 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