{"id":35886,"date":"2020-08-21T10:02:00","date_gmt":"2020-08-21T09:02:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=35886"},"modified":"2020-08-21T10:02:00","modified_gmt":"2020-08-21T09:02:00","slug":"doden-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=35886","title":{"rendered":"D\u00f6den"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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D\u00f6den, nej, skojar bara. Vi skall inte prata om d\u00f6den idag. N\u00e5gon m\u00e5tta m\u00e5ste det v\u00e4l \u00e4nd\u00e5 vara p\u00e5 en lycklig fredag. Fast fredagar. Halvdager. Man m\u00e5ste ge sig vid 18-tiden. Det blir liksom inte n\u00e5got gjort. Fast n\u00e5ja, l\u00e5tsasjobbare… det finns inte mycket v\u00e4rde i andra dagars sysslor heller. Men s\u00e5 illa som fram till till d\u00f6d skall vi v\u00e4l \u00e4nd\u00e5 inte komma. Fast vad vet man \u00e5 andra sidan. Men \u00e5tminstone inte just nu d\u00e5 i alla fall.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sugen idag. Sen ringer Ljungstr\u00f6m… Nejd\u00e5. Inte ens han tar bort suget. Nu var jag stygg. Det g\u00f6r han aldrig. Det \u00e4r alltid roligt att prata med den gamle musikern. Idag ringer han f\u00f6r att tala om att han skall skicka ett mail. Jo. De g\u00f6r det m\u00e5nga av mina kompisar. Ringer och f\u00f6rvarnar innan. N\u00e4pp, d\u00e4r finns det ingen chans att l\u00e4ra gamla hundar att sitta. Tro mig. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men mailet inneh\u00e5ller lite tjuvlyssningar av r\u00e5mixar p\u00e5 kommande l\u00e5tar fr\u00e5n den gamle rockr\u00e4ven. Skall ta mig an dem senare under dan n\u00e4r l\u00f6dr\u00f6ksdimmorna skingrats h\u00e4r i lokalerna.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ulf Lundell, Vardagar 3, g\u00f6r att jag f\u00f6rsover mig varje morgon. Man vill hela tiden l\u00e4sa n\u00e5gra sidor till. Vad \u00e4r nu kriteriet p\u00e5 “bra” l\u00e4sning?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast trekvart \u00e4r v\u00e4l inte s\u00e5 farligt. \u00c5tminstone inte om man lever p\u00e5 l\u00e5tsas. Ig\u00e5ng strax efter \u00e5tta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Mj\u00f6lk, fil och yoghurt fattas inf\u00f6r helgen. Jag tar p\u00e5 mig uppdraget att inf\u00f6rskaffa. Utf\u00f6r det utan bil. Klarar mig b\u00e5de dit och hem. Fast andningen \u00e4r aningen snabb efter att ha kl\u00e4ttrat upp f\u00f6r Brattbergabackarna. Men det g\u00e5r. M\u00e5ste komma ig\u00e5ng med mina dagliga promenader igen n\u00e4mligen. Kanske var det h\u00e4r startskottet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men helg allts\u00e5. Snart. Gr\u00f6n IKEA soffas ikv\u00e4ll med rej\u00e4l s\u00f6mnskuld i bagaget. Det kan liksom<\/strong> bara g\u00e5 p\u00e5 ett s\u00e4tt. Fast ibland \u00f6verraskar jag mig sj\u00e4lv. Sen angripa listorna imorgon. Tro mig, de har inte minskat j\u00e4ttemycket i antal punkter. Men skam den som ger sig.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kallare v\u00e4der p\u00e5 ing\u00e5ng s\u00e4gs det. Men helt naturligt s\u00e5klart. Vi \u00e4r snart i september. “VILL INTE”. Vill jag skrika d\u00e4r vid den insikten. Jag gillar iof h\u00f6sten. Antagligen den \u00e5rstid jag tycker b\u00e4st om. Men efter den kommer vintern. Gillar inte den alls. Fryser bara. Accepterar den enbart f\u00f6r att den \u00e4r den svacka som g\u00f6r andra tider underbara. Fast fram till januari g\u00e5r det bra. Sen \u00e4r det de d\u00e4r veckorna fram till Vasaloppet. En r\u00e4cka lidande. Sv\u00e5rmod. Det enda som hj\u00e4lper \u00e4r (l\u00e5tsas)arbete. Turligt nog v\u00e4nder det efter den d\u00e4r dan. N\u00e4r det sista repet dragits. N\u00e4r den siste fyrtio\u00e5ringen med \u00e5lderskris har \u00e4ntrat givit-upp-bussen hem till Mora och hotellet f\u00f6r dusch, vila, kontemplation med insikten att “nu \u00e4r jag slut som den m\u00e4nniska jag en g\u00e5ng var” sakta sjunker in. Jag skulle kunna lugna. Jag som passerat allt det d\u00e4r. Det blir bara b\u00e4ttre efter att man gett upp alla dr\u00f6mmar om stora segrar i f\u00f6dernes sp\u00e5r och annat. Eller inte. Men ett in-i-v\u00e4ggen-g\u00e5ende h\u00e4rdar det ocks\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men skall sl\u00e5 p\u00e5 l\u00f6dkolven. Luften h\u00e4r inne b\u00f6rjar k\u00e4nnas allt f\u00f6r fr\u00e4sch. S\u00e5 kan vi inte ha det. Testar lite nytt f\u00f6r tillf\u00e4llet. Vi f\u00e5r se om det \u00e4r en \u00e5terv\u00e4ndsgr\u00e4nd eller inte. Ibland \u00e4r \u00e5terv\u00e4ndsgr\u00e4nden de verkliga v\u00e4garna fram\u00e5t. D\u00e4r storkliven tas. Man skall inte vara r\u00e4dd f\u00f6r misslyckanden. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

D\u00e5 s\u00e5. Solong!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

D\u00f6den, nej, skojar bara. Vi skall inte prata om d\u00f6den idag. N\u00e5gon m\u00e5tta m\u00e5ste det v\u00e4l \u00e4nd\u00e5 vara p\u00e5 en lycklig fredag. Fast fredagar. Halvdager. Man m\u00e5ste ge sig vid 18-tiden. Det blir liksom inte n\u00e5got gjort. Fast n\u00e5ja, l\u00e5tsasjobbare… det finns inte mycket v\u00e4rde i andra dagars sysslor heller. 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