{"id":35728,"date":"2020-08-10T07:24:22","date_gmt":"2020-08-10T06:24:22","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=35728"},"modified":"2020-08-10T07:24:22","modified_gmt":"2020-08-10T06:24:22","slug":"blatt-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=35728","title":{"rendered":"Bl\u00e5tt"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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K\u00e4nner det d\u00e4r bl\u00e5 tydligt inom mig den h\u00e4r morgonen. Det b\u00e5dar f\u00f6r en utm\u00e4rkt dag fram\u00f6ver. Flytet och det bl\u00e5 f\u00f6ljer ofta varandra. Detsamma g\u00e4ller kreativiteten. Jag har allts\u00e5 inget emot nedst\u00e4mdheten, den som varit min f\u00f6ljeslagare genom hela livet. Uppskattade snarare \u00e4n f\u00f6rbannad. Antagligen handlar det d\u00e4r bara om att dalarna och topparna inte \u00e4r s\u00e5 h\u00f6ga s\u00e5 att det blir besv\u00e4rligt. Men mild form av bipolaritet – den vi alla har i oss – \u00e4r det nog \u00e4nd\u00e5. Mentalt \u00e4r vi alla sjukare \u00e4n vad vi tror.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sol ute. Den fl\u00f6dar – kastar fotoner – mot s\u00f6dersidan av huset efter att ha rest sig upp \u00f6ver Brattberget, \u00d6rnberget och tr\u00e4den. V\u00e5gor av ljus. Kulsprutek\u00e4rvar av fotoner. Samtidigt. Att vara till naturen tv\u00e5 i samma mikrosekund. Eller varf\u00f6r inte femton skepnader. Samtidigt. S\u00e5klart. Det d\u00e4r att vara klassificerad som bara en \u00e4r ett Linneanskt p\u00e5hitt som ligger n\u00e4ra sv\u00e5r sjukdom hos m\u00e4nniskorna. Inget \u00e4r bara ett. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men kall augustimorgon. Under sex. Som de brukar vara de h\u00e4r f\u00f6rsta h\u00f6stm\u00e5naderna. N\u00e5ja, sensommarm\u00e5naderna. Vi h\u00e5ller v\u00e4l kvar sommaren. Ett tag till. H\u00e5ller kvar den med tv\u00e5ng om n\u00f6dv\u00e4ndigt. Det blir s\u00e5klart varmare senare under dan. Som brukligt. Man tar in och njuter. Fast eftersom l\u00e5tsasarbetsveckan \u00e4r ig\u00e5ng p\u00e5 allvar s\u00e5 inne-njuter man. Barfota och med \u00f6ppna f\u00f6nster. Det senare f\u00e5r dock bli om n\u00e5gon timme eller s\u00e5. \u00c5ttaminutersljuset skall f\u00e5 v\u00e4rna upp v\u00e4rlden f\u00f6rst.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Brygger kaffe. Starkt. Dricker det till Backa-Jans minne. Men kan s\u00e5klart inte h\u00e4lla i mig en kopp p\u00e5 det imponerande s\u00e4tt som han kunde. Rakt ner i halsen bara. Temperatur och kaffestyrka spelade ingen roll d\u00e4r. Inte heller vilken kopp i ordningen det var. Sj\u00e4lv inv\u00e4ntar jag fegt n\u00e5gon slags ljummen v\u00e4tska. D\u00e4rifr\u00e5n sippas det. Jo jag vet. N\u00e5gon tuffing har jag aldrig varit och kommer aldrig att bli.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Best\u00e4ller glas\u00f6gon. Det sista (?) steget efter gr\u00e5starr och operation. Det som kan st\u00e4lla till det \u00e4r s.k. efterstarr. \u00d6gonlinsceller som forts\u00e4tter att bygga lins i utrymmet d\u00e4r den gamla linsen satt. Men det d\u00e4r br\u00e4nner man tydligen bort med laser. Om det nu uppst\u00e5r. Men riktiga glas\u00f6gon. Vilken ljuvlighet. K\u00f6r med att par gamla l\u00e4sglas\u00f6gon sedan operationen som \u00e4nd\u00e5 har fungerat f\u00f6rv\u00e5nande bra. Fast efter \u00e5ret med starr s\u00e5 \u00e4r s\u00e5klart allt b\u00e4ttre. Men glas\u00f6gon ger \u00e4nd\u00e5 ett djupt h\u00e5l i en ekonomi som \u00e4nd\u00e5 \u00e4r r\u00e4tt anstr\u00e4ngd. D\u00e4rf\u00f6r nu. Det m\u00e5ste planeras. Definitivt ordnas innan eldningss\u00e4songen b\u00f6rjar. Det \u00e4r inte bara kylan som \u00e4r tuff under vintern. Men 448 dagar kvar. \u00c4ven i det d\u00e4r finns det hopp.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nu skall jag passa p\u00e5 att dyka ner i mitt innan den d\u00e4r bl\u00e5 k\u00e4nslan l\u00e4mnar mig. Det \u00e4r gott att leva.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

K\u00e4nner det d\u00e4r bl\u00e5 tydligt inom mig den h\u00e4r morgonen. Det b\u00e5dar f\u00f6r en utm\u00e4rkt dag fram\u00f6ver. Flytet och det bl\u00e5 f\u00f6ljer ofta varandra. Detsamma g\u00e4ller kreativiteten. Jag har allts\u00e5 inget emot nedst\u00e4mdheten, den som varit min f\u00f6ljeslagare genom hela livet. Uppskattade snarare \u00e4n f\u00f6rbannad. Antagligen handlar det d\u00e4r bara om att dalarna och topparna […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-35728","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":22587,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=22587","url_meta":{"origin":35728,"position":0},"title":"Bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla…","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2016-12-19","format":false,"excerpt":"Sju grader varmt h\u00e4r ute. 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