{"id":35583,"date":"2020-07-30T21:47:06","date_gmt":"2020-07-30T20:47:06","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=35583"},"modified":"2020-07-30T21:47:06","modified_gmt":"2020-07-30T20:47:06","slug":"just-idag","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=35583","title":{"rendered":"Just idag"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"580\" height=\"870\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/07\/1595694095312-a6f3a17f-081d-40a9-87eb-e8386f74c740.jpg?resize=580%2C870&#038;ssl=1\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-35584\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/07\/1595694095312-a6f3a17f-081d-40a9-87eb-e8386f74c740.jpg?w=609&amp;ssl=1 609w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/07\/1595694095312-a6f3a17f-081d-40a9-87eb-e8386f74c740.jpg?resize=200%2C300&amp;ssl=1 200w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 580px) 100vw, 580px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Just idag skulle farsan fyllt 98. Man undrar hur han skulle pallat med ett f\u00f6rfall som f\u00f6ljer med en s\u00e5dan h\u00f6g \u00e5lder. Nu blev han bara 70. Dog i sin prime i m\u00e5ngt och mycket. Det sista han sa till mig var att han b\u00f6rjar bli gammal nu och att det nog var dags snart. Det sista jag sa till honom var ett f\u00f6rnekande av det och ett &#8220;hej s\u00e5 l\u00e4nge&#8221;. Tv\u00e5 timmar senare var han d\u00f6d. Men inte mycket blev osagt. Vi han med en del viktiga ord f\u00f6re den stunden. Jag l\u00e4rde k\u00e4nna en far som i sj\u00e4lva verket var en mycket liten och r\u00e4dd person under ett starkt och sj\u00e4lvs\u00e4kert yttre. S\u00e5 som man s\u00e5klart kan bli om man v\u00e4xer upp utan en far och mister sin mor som ung. En glipa in till sitt verkliga jag, den verklige m\u00e4nniskan, som \u00f6ppnades upp under korta stunder och som man kunde ta del av om man v\u00e5gade se det f\u00f6r vad det var, fanns d\u00e4r n\u00e5gra g\u00e5nger.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Nu \u00e4r brorsan 71 och jag snart 64. Vi st\u00e5r p\u00e5 tur. Alla i den gamla generationen har redan vandrat vidare. Tiden hinner man liksom aldrig ikapp. Man ligger alltid ett steg efter. V\u00e5ra s\u00f6ner och d\u00f6ttrar kommer att undra vilka vi var och hur vi skulle blivit om vi f\u00e5tt leva n\u00e5gra \u00e5r till. Eller kanske blir vi bara den d\u00e4r belastningen. Den som g\u00f6r att man drar en l\u00e4ttnadens suck n\u00e4r det \u00e4r \u00f6ver och man g\u00e5r vidare.  Den d\u00e4r sucken som ocks\u00e5 l\u00e4mnar d\u00e5ligt samvete efter sig. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Att v\u00e5r tid har ett slutdatum m\u00e5ste man leva med. G\u00f6ra allt f\u00f6r att livet skall vara s\u00e5 h\u00e4rligt som det bara g\u00e5r fr\u00e5n f\u00f6dsel och fram till den dan. Det \u00e4r <strong>liksom<\/strong> hela grejen just det med att leva. Inte ens sv\u00e5rt.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Just idag skulle farsan fyllt 98. Man undrar hur han skulle pallat med ett f\u00f6rfall som f\u00f6ljer med en s\u00e5dan h\u00f6g \u00e5lder. Nu blev han bara 70. Dog i sin prime i m\u00e5ngt och mycket. Det sista han sa till mig var att han b\u00f6rjar bli gammal nu och att det nog var dags snart. 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