{"id":35452,"date":"2020-07-07T10:46:25","date_gmt":"2020-07-07T09:46:25","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=35452"},"modified":"2020-07-07T10:46:25","modified_gmt":"2020-07-07T09:46:25","slug":"abstinens","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=35452","title":{"rendered":"Abstinens"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Semester. Andra dagen. Jag vet inte. Kanske \u00e4r det inget en l\u00e5tsasarbetande kan k\u00e4nna av, men i min semester, nog finns det en abstinens h\u00e4r i det h\u00e4r. L\u00e5tsasjobbsabstinens i mitt fall d\u00e5. Det \u00e4r lite som att sluta r\u00f6ka. Fast \u00e4nnu v\u00e4rre egentligen. Jag ville sluta r\u00f6ka men l\u00e5tsasjobba. Nope, inte vill jag sluta med det. Och nu allts\u00e5 inget. ojobb. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men man vill forts\u00e4tta i tangentens riktning. Tr\u00f6ghetskrafter. Alltid.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c4nd\u00e5 sitter jag d\u00e5 h\u00e4r p\u00e5 l\u00e5tsaskontoret. Men tillf\u00e4lligt. Jag tar det h\u00e4r p\u00e5 allvar. Skall bli l\u00e5tsasjobbsfri. I alla fall under de h\u00e4r veckorna. Anv\u00e4nder h\u00e4nder ist\u00e4llet. Skruv, spik, r\u00f6r och efter det, bra bok, bra film och skaplig s\u00f6mn.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men varmt \u00e4ro det icke. L\u00e4ttfrysta ocoola gubbar huttrar. Jordgubbar med. V\u00e4n av ordningen m\u00e5 t\u00e4nka “l\u00e4ttfrusna”. Men jag \u00e4r inte s\u00e5 noga med slikt. Sommar \u00e4ro det dock. Det brukar vara s\u00e5h\u00e4r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

F\u00e5r enkronassk\u00e4rm levererad som \u00e4r inhandlad p\u00e5 Tradera. Fungerar som en sk\u00e4rm skall fungera. Tydligen \u00e4r det under denna tid av \u00e5ret som man skall inf\u00f6rskaffa sig en sk\u00e4rm. Minnesnotering tagen. Beh\u00f6ver inte fler nu. Check!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

L\u00e4ngtar ut p\u00e5 v\u00e4garna. M\u00e4rker att folk man k\u00e4nner redan \u00e4r d\u00e4r. De d\u00e4r \u00e5rliga bes\u00f6ken, fr\u00e5n de sparsamma kontakterna, haglar in och folk st\u00e5r i k\u00f6 f\u00f6r bes\u00f6k och prat. Det brukar intr\u00e4ffa den sista veckan i Juli det d\u00e4r annars. Jag k\u00e4nner bara “l\u00e4mna mig ifred” men \u00e4r v\u00e4l \u00e4nd\u00e5 inte s\u00e5 dramatisk \u00e5tminstone inte till vardags. Men n\u00e4stan d\u00e5 \u00e4nd\u00e5. Erk\u00e4nner. Stuga ute i v\u00e4gl\u00f6st land med fiber och sj\u00f6 vore platsen f\u00f6r en s\u00e5dan som jag.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Att se igen \u00e4r en fantastisk erfarenhet. Jag jublar inombords flera g\u00e5nger per dag \u00f6ver detta. D\u00e5 skall man bet\u00e4nka att jag \u00e4nnu inte provat ut nya glas\u00f6gon och f\u00f6r tillf\u00e4llet g\u00e5r med ett par som inte allas st\u00e4mmer. Det skall allts\u00e5 bli b\u00e4ttre! Som om inte redan detta vara kanon! HURRA!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men musiken… Den saknas mig. Det \u00e4r f\u00f6r lite musik just nu. Jo, s\u00e5klart, man skulle kunna stoppa pluggar i \u00f6ronen och vandra runt med den d\u00e4r. Men i v\u00e4rlden, ute, d\u00e4r allt annat h\u00e4nder, p\u00e5 riktigt, d\u00e4r vill jag vara med p\u00e5 riktigt ocks\u00e5. H\u00f6ra och se i nuet. Man kan kalla det d\u00e4r mindfullness eller vad man vill. Men f\u00f6r mig beh\u00f6ver det inte vara s\u00e5 f\u00f6rbaskat m\u00e4rkv\u00e4rdigt. Det r\u00e4cker med att finnas till ibland och k\u00e4nna att man \u00e4r en levandes del av allt. Borde vara ett slags grundtillst\u00e5nd i den m\u00e4nskliga sj\u00e4len kan man tycka. Men \u00e4r det s\u00e5 s\u00e4llan idag. Allt \u00e4r flykt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men lite sjuka b\u00e5de K och jag. F\u00f6rkylda. K\u00e4nns i kroppen. Beh\u00f6vs lite \u00e5terh\u00e4mtning. Gissar att det handlar om ledighetssjukan. Slappnar man av alldeles s\u00e5 lite s\u00e5 anfaller “dom”. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast nu d\u00e5. Laga matberedare. G\u00e5rdagens f\u00f6rs\u00f6k godk\u00e4ndes inte. Ja, h\u00f6ll inte kan man ocks\u00e5 s\u00e4ga. Nytt f\u00f6rs\u00f6k idag allts\u00e5. Sen leta den d\u00e4r p\u00e5sen med brickor som jag k\u00f6pte f\u00f6rra \u00e5ret. S\u00e5g den alldeles nyligen. Fr\u00e5gan \u00e4r bara VAR?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Semester. Andra dagen. Jag vet inte. Kanske \u00e4r det inget en l\u00e5tsasarbetande kan k\u00e4nna av, men i min semester, nog finns det en abstinens h\u00e4r i det h\u00e4r. L\u00e5tsasjobbsabstinens i mitt fall d\u00e5. Det \u00e4r lite som att sluta r\u00f6ka. Fast \u00e4nnu v\u00e4rre egentligen. Jag ville sluta r\u00f6ka men l\u00e5tsasjobba. 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