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F\u00f6r f\u00f6rsta g\u00e5ngen p\u00e5 n\u00e5gra \u00e5r kan jag dra ig\u00e5ng gr\u00e4sklipparen p\u00e5 egen hand. Njuter d\u00e4rf\u00f6r av den d\u00e4r tretimmarsklippningen av en torr gr\u00e4smatta. Har inget emot det d\u00e4r annars heller – jag g\u00e5r d\u00e4r ofta och funderar \u00f6ver livet – men det \u00e4r stor frihet att kunna klara av det sj\u00e4lv. Jag v\u00e4rdes\u00e4tter friheten. Mycket.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Egentligen gillar jag inte att sl\u00e5 ner all de d\u00e4r v\u00e4xterna. Tycker att allt skall f\u00e5 leva som det vill. Men livet \u00e4r en avv\u00e4gning. Klippt gr\u00e4s ger mindre insekter n\u00e4r man sitter d\u00e4r ute och vill slappna av \u00f6ver en grillad morot, och ormar v\u00e4ljer andra platser f\u00f6r sin lek. Allts\u00e5 drar jag fram som en sk\u00f6vlare \u00f6ver rik v\u00e4xtlighet med v\u00e5r h\u00f6gljudda gr\u00e4sklippare. Naturligtvis l\u00e5ter jag pr\u00e4stkragar och bl\u00e5klockor st\u00e5 kvar, de vackra klarar sig i en gr\u00e4smatta lika bra som annorst\u00e4des i v\u00e4rlden. Det \u00e4r l\u00e4ttare att vara vacker. Troligen. Det retar mig lite. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Maskrosor och lite annat har ocks\u00e5 sina fria zoner. Jag har aldrig f\u00f6rst\u00e5tt det d\u00e4r hatet som maskrosor f\u00e5r utst\u00e5. Nog \u00e4r de v\u00e4l vackra? Eller \u00e4r det fel p\u00e5 mina nyrenoverade \u00f6gon?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u00e4des\u00e4rla och tjattertanter (Bj\u00f6rktrastar allts\u00e5) uppskattar den d\u00e4r klippningen. Flugsnapparen likas\u00e5. De f\u00f6rser sig rikligt efter en klippning. Hur de kan f\u00e5nga en till insekt med tio redan i n\u00e4bben \u00e4r en f\u00f6rm\u00e5ga som g\u00e5r mina ringa intelligens f\u00f6rbi. M\u00f6jligen b\u00e4r jag ansvaret f\u00f6r att de nu oskyddade insekterna blir offer f\u00f6r de d\u00e4r rovj\u00e4garna. Som en Hitler allts\u00e5. En som inte d\u00f6dar sj\u00e4lv men som sannerligen g\u00f6r det indirekt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast just det d\u00e4r med att ta sig genom livet och att skada s\u00e5 f\u00e5 varelser omkring sig som m\u00f6jligt har jag s\u00e5klart funderat mycket p\u00e5. Det finns inget noll\u00e4ge. Man kan inte ens komma n\u00e4ra. N\u00e4r jag blev vegetarian 1978 s\u00e5 trodde jag nog det. Att man blev en b\u00e4ttre varelse p\u00e5 planeten av det d\u00e4r valet. Men idag… ja man har gjort ett val. M\u00f6jligen m\u00e5r man lite b\u00e4ttre inombords av att ha gjort det. Men betydelsen f\u00f6r universum. N\u00e5ja. Ringa p\u00e5 sin h\u00f6jd. Men kanske \u00e4r det just d\u00e4r det stora finns. Att \u00e5tminstone f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka g\u00f6ra gott. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast ondska och godhet \u00e4r sv\u00e5rare \u00e4n vad Amerikanska filmer f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker f\u00e5 det till. M\u00e4nniskorna tycks ha tappat f\u00f6rm\u00e5gan till nyansering. Det finns helt enkelt inget som \u00e4r endera gott eller ont. Allt \u00e4r gr\u00e5tt eller en den av v\u00e4rldens f\u00e4rger. J\u00e4mvikt. Den ligger mitt emellan. Inte i \u00e4ndpunkterna.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast livet \u00e4r inte sv\u00e5rare \u00e4n en gr\u00e4sklippning. Man d\u00f6dar. Man f\u00f6der eller bereder mark f\u00f6r liv. Och i det d\u00e4r f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker \u00e4nd\u00e5 vara en s\u00e5 god m\u00e4nniska som det bara g\u00e5r. Men lyckas man. Ja inte ofta. Men kanske \u00e4r det just det som inneb\u00e4r att vara en av de levandes. Inte mer. Inte mindre. Gott nog.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

F\u00f6r f\u00f6rsta g\u00e5ngen p\u00e5 n\u00e5gra \u00e5r kan jag dra ig\u00e5ng gr\u00e4sklipparen p\u00e5 egen hand. Njuter d\u00e4rf\u00f6r av den d\u00e4r tretimmarsklippningen av en torr gr\u00e4smatta. Har inget emot det d\u00e4r annars heller – jag g\u00e5r d\u00e4r ofta och funderar \u00f6ver livet – men det \u00e4r stor frihet att kunna klara av det sj\u00e4lv. Jag v\u00e4rdes\u00e4tter friheten. 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