{"id":35351,"date":"2020-06-24T22:48:51","date_gmt":"2020-06-24T21:48:51","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=35351"},"modified":"2020-06-24T22:48:51","modified_gmt":"2020-06-24T21:48:51","slug":"tystnaden-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=35351","title":{"rendered":"Tystnaden"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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En f\u00e5gel och jag. Det \u00e4r s\u00e5 det k\u00e4nns. Jag f\u00f6rbereder mig f\u00f6r att ge upp l\u00e5tsasjobbbet f\u00f6r den h\u00e4r dan och f\u00e5geln funderar v\u00e4l p\u00e5 natts\u00f6mn den med. Den sjunger hur som helst sorgligt men vackert d\u00e4r en bit upp mot berget och jag sitter p\u00e5 f\u00f6rsta parkett lyssnandes med vid\u00f6ppna f\u00f6nster. Blir lite melankolisk. En k\u00e4nsla jag h\u00f6gaktar. Jag vet s\u00e5klart inte vad f\u00e5gel heter. M\u00e4nniskonamnet, katalogiseringen som allt m\u00e5ste ha f\u00f6r att finnas. Men det spelar ingen roll f\u00f6r mig. Jag kan njuta av s\u00e5ngen \u00e4nd\u00e5. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast f\u00f6rr “kunde” man nog fler f\u00e5glar. Hade namn p\u00e5 dem. Nu k\u00e4nner jag igen bara n\u00e5gra f\u00e5 p\u00e5 l\u00e4tet. Som med musiken ocks\u00e5. Tonerna k\u00e4nner jag igen men det tar en stund innan jag vet vem som \u00e5stadkommer dem. Om \u00f6verhuvudtaget det kommer till mig. \u00c5ldersf\u00f6rfall.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Varmt h\u00e4r idag. Man har f\u00e5tt k\u00e4mpa med koncentrationen. Men en skaplig dag \u00e4nd\u00e5. N\u00f6jd. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Det \u00e4r gott att leva kv\u00e4llar som denna. Andra kv\u00e4llar med. Min beg\u00e5vning \u00e4r kanske livslusten. Ja den och f\u00f6rn\u00f6jsamheten. Eller “mina g\u00e5vor”. F\u00f6r inte har jag jobbat speciellt mycket f\u00f6r det d\u00e4r. Det mesta \u00e4r \u00e4nd\u00e5 gl\u00e4dje mer \u00e4n olycka. Gudarna skall veta att det har funnits utrymme f\u00f6r olyckligt nedgr\u00e4vande i sin egen bitterhets grav i mitt liv med. Fast jag ins\u00e5g tidigt att man alltid har v\u00e4gval. Man best\u00e4mmer h\u00f6ger eller v\u00e4nster sj\u00e4lv. Vilken v\u00e4g man tar. Sen m\u00e5ste man s\u00e5klart ta konsekvenserna av den v\u00e4g man v\u00e4ljer. V\u00e4lja andra v\u00e4gar som mildrar om man g\u00e5tt i riktningar som g\u00f6r ont. F\u00f6rs\u00f6ka i alla fall. Prova. Tro att det g\u00e5r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Den sorgsna f\u00e5geln har tystnat nu. Efter-midsommarm\u00f6rker<\/em> r\u00e5der. Jag skall vandra upp f\u00f6r trapporna jag med. L\u00e4sa en stund. Tillgodog\u00f6ra mig ord och historia tills \u00f6gonen inte l\u00e4ngre orkar mer. D\u00e5 kan ocool gubbe lugnt somna och l\u00e5ta dr\u00f6mv\u00e4rlden f\u00f6ra honom till platser han inte alls trodde fanns. Det \u00e4r gott att vara sovandes ocks\u00e5 efter en dag i l\u00e5tsasjobbsland. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

God natt!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

En f\u00e5gel och jag. Det \u00e4r s\u00e5 det k\u00e4nns. Jag f\u00f6rbereder mig f\u00f6r att ge upp l\u00e5tsasjobbbet f\u00f6r den h\u00e4r dan och f\u00e5geln funderar v\u00e4l p\u00e5 natts\u00f6mn den med. Den sjunger hur som helst sorgligt men vackert d\u00e4r en bit upp mot berget och jag sitter p\u00e5 f\u00f6rsta parkett lyssnandes med vid\u00f6ppna f\u00f6nster. 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