{"id":35325,"date":"2020-06-23T22:54:40","date_gmt":"2020-06-23T21:54:40","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=35325"},"modified":"2020-06-23T22:54:40","modified_gmt":"2020-06-23T21:54:40","slug":"tva-tre-fyra","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=35325","title":{"rendered":"Tv\u00e5, tre, fyra…"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Kanske inte oproduktiv, men i alla fall l\u00e5gproduktiv. Dagen allts\u00e5. Jag t\u00e4mligen missn\u00f6jd. Men har s\u00e5klart varit med f\u00f6rr. Livet inneh\u00e5ller s\u00e5dana h\u00e4r dagar. Man m\u00e5ste ta sig igenom. Fast de suger. L\u00e5tsasjobbar man p\u00e5 s\u00e5 kommer lusten och inspirationen till slut. Alltid. Att aldrig ge upp g\u00e4ller allts\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Annars sol. \u00c4nnu mer sol. Och mer sol. Imorgon SOL och dan efter det SOL<\/strong> med j\u00e4ttetypsnitt. Trettiotv\u00e5 grader skriker prognosen. D\u00e4r n\u00e5gonstans f\u00f6rsvinner produktiviteten ocks\u00e5 dagar n\u00e4r man \u00e4r i flytet. Man f\u00e5r ge sig. Sitta p\u00e5 en stol och stirra. V\u00e4nta ut. Eller ocks\u00e5 k\u00f6r man. Finns fl\u00e4ktar. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Koltrasts\u00e5ng idag ocks\u00e5. Men avtagande. Vill h\u00e5lla kvar. Men best\u00e4mmer inte i det d\u00e4r. Inte i mycket annat heller f\u00f6r den delen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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I det d\u00e4r ligger en annan i l\u00e4. Men en sponsor<\/a> (st\u00f6d Rusoku)<\/a>. Inte d\u00e5ligt det heller. Otroligt tacksam \u00e4r jag f\u00f6r det. Support utifr\u00e5n \u00e4r jag inte van vid. Definitivt inte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast inga t\u00e5rar f\u00e4lls f\u00f6r det.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nope.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c5tminstone inte hittills. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast man borde s\u00e5klart l\u00e4gga ner alltsammans och g\u00f6ra n\u00e5got annat ist\u00e4llet. Bara idioter dunkar huvudet om och om igen i samma gamla v\u00e4gg. Ja och en annan har h\u00e5llit p\u00e5 med det i tjugo \u00e5r nu snart. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ja inte vet jag. Sjukdom kanske. Eller d\u00f6d. Kanske det enda som ger ett avslut. Eller en dj\u00e4vulsutdrivning, en exorcist som driver ur alla fixid\u00e9er ur ens huvud. HJ\u00c4LP liksom.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast 496 dagar… kvar… att fundera p\u00e5. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

L\u00e4skigt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u00f6rkare ute \u00e4n det varit p\u00e5 l\u00e4nge nu. Hur \u00e4r det m\u00f6jligt. N\u00e5gra dagar efter midsommar n\u00e4r det knappt blev natt. Kommer aldrig fatta vad som h\u00e4nder vid den h\u00e4r v\u00e4ndpunkten. Vid vintersolst\u00e5ndet segar det minsan p\u00e5 innan minuterna b\u00f6rjar ticka p\u00e5 till ljusets fav\u00f6r. Men v\u00e4gen mor m\u00f6rker den g\u00e5r med rekordfart.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast man f\u00e5r leva med det.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Inte ens sv\u00e5rt \u00e4r det.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Liksom<\/strong>.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Kanske inte oproduktiv, men i alla fall l\u00e5gproduktiv. Dagen allts\u00e5. Jag t\u00e4mligen missn\u00f6jd. Men har s\u00e5klart varit med f\u00f6rr. Livet inneh\u00e5ller s\u00e5dana h\u00e4r dagar. Man m\u00e5ste ta sig igenom. Fast de suger. L\u00e5tsasjobbar man p\u00e5 s\u00e5 kommer lusten och inspirationen till slut. Alltid. Att aldrig ge upp g\u00e4ller allts\u00e5. Annars sol. \u00c4nnu mer sol. 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