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Osedvanligt l\u00e5g inspiration och d\u00e4rmed l\u00e5g verkningsgrad pl\u00e5gar mig under kv\u00e4llen. Kan ha att g\u00f6ra med en natt som inneh\u00f6ll mycket spring till n\u00e4rmaste toalett. Problem vi gammelgubbar har. En del av oss i alla fall. Man t\u00f6mmer. Tror man. Men t\u00f6mmer inte. M\u00e5ste upp igen om en timme. Eller en halv. Det g\u00e4ller att kunna somna snabbt. Oftast kan jag det. Men ibland hj\u00e4lper inte ens det. Man f\u00e5r leva med s\u00f6mnskuld dan efter. Den som g\u00f6r sig mer p\u00e5mind ju l\u00e4ngre dagen lider. Ja veckan med f\u00f6rresten.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ulf Lundell avlyssnad idag. N\u00e5ja liksom. Man kunde varit utan den lyssningen ocks\u00e5 och inte blivit leden f\u00f6r det. Som s\u00e5 ofta med Sommar i P1 s\u00e5 \u00e4r de avsnitt man f\u00f6rv\u00e4ntar sig skall bli bra, s\u00e4llan de som \u00e4r det. Just d\u00e4rf\u00f6r g\u00e4ller det att kasta bort alla f\u00f6rutfattade meningar och lyssna p\u00e5 allt. Ofta f\u00e5r man sig en k\u00e4ftsm\u00e4ll – h\u00e5rt rakt i f\u00f6rdomssinnet – och hittar guldkorn d\u00e4r man minst anar det.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bokhyllan bakom mig st\u00e5r allt oftare or\u00f6rd. Man h\u00e4mtar mer och mer information p\u00e5 n\u00e4tet. Man skriver ut mindre och mindre. Till och med jag som h\u00e4vdat att de tomma bokhyllorna varit tydliga tecken p\u00e5 tomhet. Jod\u00e5. Jag som skrivit ut l\u00e5dvis med papper. L\u00e4st ocks\u00e5. Snudd p\u00e5 f\u00f6rs\u00f6rjt ett helt arbetslag inom skogsindustrin. Men inte l\u00e4ngre allts\u00e5. Kanske dags att elda b\u00f6cker som nu bara st\u00e5r d\u00e4r. Jo det har v\u00e4l h\u00e4nt n\u00e5gra g\u00e5nger redan. Det svider i en bok\u00e4lskares sj\u00e4l att g\u00f6ra sig av med b\u00f6ckerna som betytt s\u00e5 mycket f\u00f6r en. Men samtidigt, b\u00f6cker skall l\u00e4sas och anv\u00e4ndas. De \u00e4r inte status eller prydnadsf\u00f6rem\u00e5l. Sorgligt n\u00e4r de bara st\u00e5r d\u00e4r ol\u00e4sta. Oanv\u00e4nda. Blir till papper och trycksv\u00e4rta. Jag \u00e4r ingen samlare.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Koltrasten sjunger. Men en kortsjungare har intagit kullen i \u00e5r. Det \u00e4r inte de d\u00e4r l\u00e5nga serenaderna. Men h\u00e4nf\u00f6rs g\u00f6r ju jag likafullt s\u00e5klart. Laddar den d\u00e4r s\u00e5ngen s\u00e5 att den finns kvar inom mig under m\u00f6rka h\u00f6stdagar och under vinterns v\u00e4rsta iskalla n\u00e4tter. Att plocka fram d\u00e5 – ja man krossar glasrutan med den r\u00f6da hammaren – och f\u00e5 ig\u00e5ng tr\u00f6gflytande blodstr\u00f6mmar med. Som en hj\u00e4lp att \u00f6verleva m\u00f6rkertid och kyla som aldrig tycks ta slut. Bara forts\u00e4tter och forts\u00e4tter och forts\u00e4tter.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast ibland, japp, d\u00e5 vill man bara ge upp. Lever allt f\u00f6r mycket “in the void”. F\u00f6rsvinner mer och mer in i det d\u00e4r ingenting d\u00e4r inget alls betyder n\u00e5got. Men vet ju hur det sv\u00e4nger ocks\u00e5. Ena sekunden \u00e4r man h\u00e4r, den andra d\u00e4r. Som en k\u00e4nd kr\u00e5ka som skulle ut och \u00e5ka. Det kan g\u00e5 undan n\u00e4r man g\u00f6r det. Man avg\u00f6r till stor del sj\u00e4lv om man vill stanna i dikena efter att man k\u00f6rt ner i dem. Att man slinker hit och dit. Det \u00e4r d\u00e4remot oundvikligt och en del av livsresan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast en del verkar bara sitta h\u00e5rt fastsp\u00e4nda p\u00e5 en r\u00e4kmacka och det g\u00e5r fram\u00e5t, ned\u00e5t, upp\u00e5t, hur l\u00e4tt som helst. Fast tittar man n\u00e4rmare \u00e4r det aldrig s\u00e5 enkelt som det ser ut \u00e4nd\u00e5. Det l\u00e4r man sig med \u00e5ren. Det st\u00e4ndigt enkla, st\u00e4ndigt framg\u00e5ngsrika \u00e4r bara l\u00f6gnares och illusionisters verk. Det \u00e4r alltid en kamp.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men nu en m\u00e5ndag som h\u00e5ller p\u00e5 att ta slut. Bli till tisdag. Just h\u00e4r. Man hoppas p\u00e5 en bra dag. Man hoppas p\u00e5 att vara en av de levandes ocks\u00e5 d\u00e5. Jag tror p\u00e5 tisdagen den h\u00e4r veckan. En kanondag. Japp. S\u00e4kert.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Godnatt kamrater.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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