{"id":35173,"date":"2020-06-04T07:55:52","date_gmt":"2020-06-04T06:55:52","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=35173"},"modified":"2020-06-04T07:55:52","modified_gmt":"2020-06-04T06:55:52","slug":"starten","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=35173","title":{"rendered":"Starten"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Morgon. Inte utan min tekopp. Jod\u00e5, det fungerar med kaffe ocks\u00e5. Eller inget. Men helst te. Earl Grey. Tr\u00f6ttnar aldrig. Det skall sippas. R\u00e4cka en stund. Sista slurken h\u00e4lls i halsen strax innan koppens inneh\u00e5ll \u00e4r helt kallt. Sen kan man g\u00e5 vidare. Starta dan. Den som allts\u00e5 b\u00f6rjar perfekt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

En kusin begravs idag. L\u00e4mnar oss f\u00f6r tidigt s\u00e5klart. Jag klarar inte av begravningarna l\u00e4ngre. Pr\u00e4sterna som talar som utvalda och sj\u00e4lvutn\u00e4mnda representanter f\u00f6r n\u00e5got slags h\u00f6gsta chefsskap. T\u00e4nder ett ljus h\u00e4r hemma och skickar en tanke ist\u00e4llet. Hoppas att ingen tar illa upp f\u00f6r att jag t\u00e4nker s\u00e5. Men vet ju att m\u00e5nga g\u00e4rna \u00e4gnar sig \u00e5t just det \u00e4nd\u00e5. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men all denna d\u00f6d. Kamrater och sl\u00e4kt. Unga och gamla. Det \u00e4r jobbigt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Skickar iv\u00e4g en release ig\u00e5r. Andi drar iv\u00e4g tv\u00e5. Det st\u00e5r allts\u00e5 inte stilla. Bra det.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u00e5ste f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka f\u00e5 till en ny telefon. Den senaste – en en mycket uppskattad g\u00e5va fr\u00e5n en VSCP medarbetare – g\u00e5r bara att starta om man har tur eller i alla fall ganska mycket t\u00e5lamod. Men har en gammal Iphone 4 liggande ocks\u00e5. Kanske kan man klara sig ett \u00e5r med den.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Telefoner och bilar. Ointressant. Fast anv\u00e4ndbara. Men det d\u00e4r dreglandet \u00f6ver dem. Nope, inte f\u00f6r mig.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ser bra. D\u00e4ri finns lycka. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men nu skall jag hitta p\u00e5 n\u00e5got. Varf\u00f6r inte liksom. Nu n\u00e4r jag f\u00e5r leva fast andra inte f\u00e5r det. Nog borde man allts\u00e5 leva f\u00f6r n\u00e5got. Inte bara st\u00e5 d\u00e4r stilla och trampa vatten i en f\u00f6rort. B\u00e4ttre att g\u00e5 p\u00e5 en tung v\u00e4g och vara levandes \u00e4n att g\u00e5 p\u00e5 en l\u00e4tt och inte vara det. Alltid. Man f\u00e5r inte gl\u00f6mma det. Antagligen finns det mer man inte borde gl\u00f6mma. Men i min \u00e5lder r\u00e4cker inte minnet s\u00e5 l\u00e5ngt. Nope. Inte m\u00e5nga sanningar finns kvar heller. Allt som \u00e4r hugget i sten \u00e4r till f\u00f6r att ifr\u00e5gas\u00e4ttas.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u00e5 l\u00e5t torsdagen starta med en rivstart s\u00e5h\u00e4r lite sent om sidor.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Morgon. Inte utan min tekopp. Jod\u00e5, det fungerar med kaffe ocks\u00e5. Eller inget. Men helst te. Earl Grey. Tr\u00f6ttnar aldrig. Det skall sippas. R\u00e4cka en stund. Sista slurken h\u00e4lls i halsen strax innan koppens inneh\u00e5ll \u00e4r helt kallt. Sen kan man g\u00e5 vidare. Starta dan. Den som allts\u00e5 b\u00f6rjar perfekt. En kusin begravs idag. 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