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Opererar h\u00f6gra \u00f6gat idag. Kommer till sjukhuset f\u00f6re tio. Sitter p\u00e5 t\u00e5get mot Ljusdal p\u00e5 v\u00e4g hem igen halv ett. Gammellinsen \u00e4r h\u00e5rd som en golfboll. Vad annat att v\u00e4nta av en gubblins t\u00e4nker jag. Men ultraljudverktyget p\u00e5 styrka tre fixar det d\u00e4r. Linsen \u00e4r borta p\u00e5 ett litet kick i den d\u00e4r ljustortyrmaskinen. Ny lins pressas in i tv\u00e5 milimeterssnittet. Efter det f\u00f6r mig – “VARDE LJUS” – och ljust blev det. Jag ser n\u00e4mligen bara 0.1 korrigerat p\u00e5 det \u00f6gat. Men kan \u00e4nd\u00e5 se att det finns saker och att de r\u00f6r sig, ja och s\u00e5 ljus och m\u00f6rker. Nu j\u00e4klar blev det allts\u00e5 ljust. V\u00e4ldigt ljust. N\u00e5gon liksom t\u00e4nde lampan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ljus allts\u00e5 och fullaste sk\u00e4rpa p\u00e5 v\u00e4nster \u00f6ga. Succ\u00e9! I alla fall s\u00e5 h\u00e4r l\u00e5ngt. Man skall ju inte ropa hej innan man \u00e4r \u00f6ver b\u00e4cken och allt det d\u00e4r. Men LYCKA! h\u00e4r och nu. Det \u00e4r nu som r\u00e4knas. Faktiskt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00d6gondropparna d\u00e4remot \u00e4r ingen lycka. Man skall droppa dem i \u00f6gonen i tre veckor, En g\u00e5ng varje dag. En flaska om tre milliliter kostar 280 sp\u00e4nn. Man beh\u00f6ver en till varje \u00f6ga. Kan krossa vilken budget som helst. Man t\u00e4nker att smuggling av knark, cigg, sprit knappast l\u00f6nar sig i j\u00e4mf\u00f6relse med att smuggla \u00f6gondroppar. Straffskalan borde vara l\u00e4gre den med. En man med gr\u00e5 trenchcoat som tillgodos\u00e5g behovet f\u00f6r halva priset borde v\u00e4l st\u00e5 d\u00e4r utanf\u00f6r entr\u00e9n till apoteket. Kanske skulle man helt enkelt sj\u00e4lv bli den mannen. Ja, eller l\u00e4ra sig blanda dropparna sj\u00e4lv. Det finns s\u00e4kert tips om hur man g\u00f6r det p\u00e5 n\u00e4tet. Fast, n\u00e5ja, nu \u00e4r dom inhandlade. Operationerna \u00e4r utf\u00e4rda. F\u00f6rst\u00f6gat s\u00e5g bra ut sa doktor X. Nytt liv! Beh\u00f6ver f\u00f6rhoppningsvis aldrig mer s\u00e5dana h\u00e4r dyrdroppar. Andra f\u00e5r ta sig ann den aff\u00e4rsid\u00e9n. Allts\u00e5! Liksom!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Vinkar till Janne n\u00e4r vi \u00e5ker f\u00f6rbi J\u00e4rvs\u00f6. T\u00e4nker att han finns d\u00e4r. Men det g\u00f6r han s\u00e5klart inte. Hans v\u00e4rld \u00e4r hela universum nu. Jag \u00e4r s\u00e4ker p\u00e5 att han f\u00f6rundras \u00f6ver det han ser och h\u00f6r. Saknad s\u00e5 att hj\u00e4rtat n\u00e4stan brister. En v\u00e4n. Som blev det. F\u00f6r evigt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I Ljusdal uppst\u00e5r v\u00e4ntan innan buss mot Los avg\u00e5r. Coop d\u00e5 s\u00e5klart. K\u00f6per lite dygnsgammalt br\u00f6d till halva priset – duger till mig – k\u00f6per sen den d\u00e4r vanliga cappuccinon och bullen f\u00f6r en tjuga. Valuta f\u00f6r st\u00e5larna. Sitter d\u00e4r sen och tittar p\u00e5 m\u00e4nniskorna och fantiserar om deras liv. Ett plus numera \u00e4r ju att jag ser dem r\u00e4tt bra ocks\u00e5. M\u00e4nniskorna \u00e4r vackra. N\u00e4stan alla. Nope fel. ALLA.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u00f6ter brandk\u00e5ren med fulla bl\u00e5ljus n\u00e4r jag g\u00e5r tillbaks mot bussen. \u00c5skv\u00e4der. Blixtarna viner \u00f6ver H\u00e4lsingebergen p\u00e5 v\u00e4gen hem. Skogsbr\u00e4nderna sl\u00e4cks p\u00e5 l\u00f6pande band. Hemma skakar b\u00e5de hus och rutor n\u00e4r \u00e5skan dundrar p\u00e5. Sommar h\u00f6rnini. Det \u00e4r stort och sm\u00e5tt. N\u00e4tets alla grejer \u00f6verlever. Man borde v\u00e4l tacka n\u00e5gon slags gudom f\u00f6r s\u00e5dant. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Somnar en stund p\u00e5 soffan innan jag skall fixa mat. Uppstigning fem g\u00f6r att det inte blir s\u00e5 m\u00e5nga timmars s\u00f6mn. Det skall oroas f\u00f6r att inte vaknas ocks\u00e5. Ja och ocool gubbe l\u00e4ggas sent eftersom han “skall ju bara” innan ljuset p\u00e5 l\u00e5tsaskontoret sl\u00e4cks. Men allt s\u00e5dant d\u00e4r l\u00f6ser sig. ALLTID. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men nu d\u00e5. Ja knappa p\u00e5 s\u00e5klart. I alla fall s\u00e5 l\u00e4nge som man orkar. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Opererar h\u00f6gra \u00f6gat idag. Kommer till sjukhuset f\u00f6re tio. Sitter p\u00e5 t\u00e5get mot Ljusdal p\u00e5 v\u00e4g hem igen halv ett. Gammellinsen \u00e4r h\u00e5rd som en golfboll. Vad annat att v\u00e4nta av en gubblins t\u00e4nker jag. Men ultraljudverktyget p\u00e5 styrka tre fixar det d\u00e4r. Linsen \u00e4r borta p\u00e5 ett litet kick i den d\u00e4r ljustortyrmaskinen. 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