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Hasse med familj. Lars med keps framf\u00f6r Hasse.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n

Jag ser bara den d\u00e4r bilden som hastigast. Jag l\u00e5tsasjobbar och har tankarna p\u00e5 andra st\u00e4llen. Den d\u00e4r sidan d\u00e4r bilden finns med ligger liksom bara uppe. S\u00e5 som sidor ofta g\u00f6r. Men n\u00e5got \u00e4ter sig in i mig. Tanken att Max von Sydow – han bak i mitten p\u00e5 bilden – allt \u00e4nd\u00e5 \u00e4r bra lik min morbror Hasse. Ja Hasse \u00e4r d\u00f6d sedan m\u00e5nga \u00e5r. En k\u00e4r person. En av de sn\u00e4llaste i v\u00e4rlden. En s\u00e5dan d\u00e4r det inte finns s\u00e5 m\u00e5nga av. Inte d\u00e5. Inte nu. Japp, lika \u00e4r de…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tanken sitter kvar. Mal p\u00e5. Jag m\u00e5ste titta p\u00e5 bilden. Den \u00e4r inte fr\u00e5n utvandrarna. Jamen, det \u00c4R ju Hasse. Med hela sin familj. Slotterfika kanske. Vilken j\u00e4kla kanonbild. Roligt eftersom jag inte har n\u00e5gon bild p\u00e5 Hasse. Laddar ner den. Fast sen l\u00e4ser jag texten. Kusin Lars \u00e4r d\u00f6d. En namne. En ungdom fr\u00e5n mitt perspektiv. Tr\u00e5kigt. V\u00e4ldigt tr\u00e5kigt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Vi har ingen kontakt i egentlig mening. Generationen f\u00f6re oss var v\u00e4ldigt n\u00e4ra varandra. Ocks\u00e5 bland kusiner. Nu i generationen efter h\u00e4lsar vi som mest p\u00e5 varandra n\u00e4r vi r\u00e5kar st\u00f6ta p\u00e5 varandra. Inte mer. Fast Hasses barn \u00e4r nog de som \u00e4r n\u00e4rmast \u00e4nd\u00e5. De som det g\u00e5tt s\u00e5 j\u00e4kla bra f\u00f6r. Som har s\u00e5dan talang. De som morsan v\u00e4rnade om s\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast d\u00f6d. Den \u00e4r en f\u00f6ljeslagare i med i min \u00e5lder. Man v\u00e4njer sig s\u00e5klart aldrig. Det vore simpelt och ok\u00e4nsligt. Men man blir inte heller f\u00f6rv\u00e5nad l\u00e4ngre. Ju l\u00e4ngre man lever ju fler d\u00f6da kretsar runt ens \u00e5ldrande person. Det \u00e4r inte s\u00e5 roligt. En v\u00e4g som bara leder mot total ensamhet. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag hoppas Lars var lycklig.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Jag ser bara den d\u00e4r bilden som hastigast. Jag l\u00e5tsasjobbar och har tankarna p\u00e5 andra st\u00e4llen. Den d\u00e4r sidan d\u00e4r bilden finns med ligger liksom bara uppe. S\u00e5 som sidor ofta g\u00f6r. Men n\u00e5got \u00e4ter sig in i mig. Tanken att Max von Sydow – han bak i mitten p\u00e5 bilden – allt \u00e4nd\u00e5 \u00e4r […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-35063","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":17885,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=17885","url_meta":{"origin":35063,"position":0},"title":"Vill bara \u00f6nska en trevlig helg","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2015-05-15","format":false,"excerpt":"Avslutar fredagen med huvudv\u00e4rk. 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