{"id":34979,"date":"2020-04-21T21:09:32","date_gmt":"2020-04-21T20:09:32","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=34979"},"modified":"2020-04-21T21:09:32","modified_gmt":"2020-04-21T20:09:32","slug":"sista-sucken","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=34979","title":{"rendered":"Sista sucken"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Tr\u00f6ttheten tar tag i mig idag. Trotts vackert v\u00e4der. Trotts v\u00e4rme. Eller kanske just d\u00e4rf\u00f6r. Energin \u00e4r hur som helst helt bortbl\u00e5st. Jag f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker med n\u00e5gra v\u00e4ndor i tr\u00e4dg\u00e5rden. Njuter. Lyssnar. Ser varje pinne som en lekande huggorm. Varje prasslande l\u00f6v som en r\u00e5tta. Det \u00e4r inte samma sak att vara ute som det brukar vara. Fantasi lever sitt eget liv i huvudet n\u00e4r jag inte ser som jag skall och jag “ser” allt m\u00f6jligt som egentligen inte finns..<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men sn\u00f6n drar sin sista suck. Bara plogh\u00f6gen kvar. I alla fall om man l\u00e5ter bli att titta p\u00e5 norrsidor och i diken. Ibland f\u00e5r man l\u00e5ta \u00f6gon se det man vill att de skall se. Just det d\u00e4r fungerar extra bra om man ser lite glest s\u00e5klart. Man kan l\u00e4gga till och dra bort efter behov. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men jag fixar de d\u00e4r testerna. Kommer igenom dem. 365 stycken, 116 ms, “Passing” i gr\u00f6nt, n\u00e5gra tusen rader kod. Men eftersom jag passar p\u00e5 att addera och \u00e4ndra en del grejer s\u00e5 \u00e4r det allts\u00e5 dags nu f\u00f6r manualskrivande. Man h\u00e4mtar energi fr\u00e5n yttersta spetsen av sin lillt\u00e5 p\u00e5 h\u00f6ger fot. Det \u00e4r bara d\u00e4r det finns lite kvar just f\u00f6r tillf\u00e4llet..<\/p>\n\n\n\n

L\u00e5tsasjobb s\u00e5klart. T\u00e4nk vad tr\u00f6tt man blivit om det varit jobb p\u00e5 riktigt. Eller \u00e4r det tv\u00e4rt om. Det var s\u00e5 l\u00e4nge sedan jag jobbade p\u00e5 riktigt nu att jag inte mins.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Man m\u00e5ste ju helt enkelt sk\u00e5da norrut och ta in Venus i dessa tider. Aftonstj\u00e4rnan. Man ser hettan \u00e4nda hit. Har man kikarna kan man se Plejaderna helt n\u00e4ra. Fast det r\u00e4cker s\u00e5klart med Venus. Om man kan uppskatta det som \u00e4r fantastiskt s\u00e5klart. Annars f\u00e5r man k\u00f6pa sig en ny tv eller ny bil eller n\u00e5got. Som tr\u00f6st.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

V\u00e4rme imorgon ocks\u00e5. \u00c4nnu mer. H\u00e4rligt. Jag skall h\u00e4va upp stora skolf\u00f6nster s\u00e5 fort det bara g\u00e5r och njuta av frisk luft och f\u00e5gels\u00e5ng.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast nu ett sista ryck – sen l\u00e4sa, sova.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Tr\u00f6ttheten tar tag i mig idag. Trotts vackert v\u00e4der. Trotts v\u00e4rme. Eller kanske just d\u00e4rf\u00f6r. Energin \u00e4r hur som helst helt bortbl\u00e5st. Jag f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker med n\u00e5gra v\u00e4ndor i tr\u00e4dg\u00e5rden. Njuter. Lyssnar. Ser varje pinne som en lekande huggorm. Varje prasslande l\u00f6v som en r\u00e5tta. Det \u00e4r inte samma sak att vara ute som det brukar […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-34979","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":17230,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=17230","url_meta":{"origin":34979,"position":0},"title":"Havet igen","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2015-03-30","format":false,"excerpt":"De som lider av jetlag \u00e4r sannolikt de som lider av att g\u00e5 upp en timme tidigare idag ocks\u00e5. 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