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S\u00e5klart. Alldeles f\u00f6r mycket vila nu. Men det enda jag orkar. Hostan och det. Jo l\u00e4ser. Guillou. Sista. Nej, “senaste” heter det v\u00e4l. Jag vet att han skriver p\u00e5 en ny. Den h\u00e4r \u00e4r b\u00e4ttre \u00e4n den f\u00f6rra. Mer sl\u00e4ktkr\u00f6nika. Mer liv. Gillar. Sover d\u00e4r emellan. \u00c4ter ocks\u00e5. Det som smakar. En del g\u00f6r det faktiskt fortfarande. Smakar. Allts\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men ser p\u00e5 TV ocks\u00e5. DNA<\/a>. Har ni kollat? Skitbra tycker jag (och K). Finns p\u00e5 svtplay. Man kan allts\u00e5 \u00f6sa p\u00e5 med avsnitt om man vill. Har sett v\u00e4ldigt mycket bra Dansk krim ett tag nu. Gillar det mesta hos danskar utom m\u00f6jligtvis deras minderv\u00e4rdeskomplex kontra Sverige och hur illa de pratar. \u00c4lska mig<\/a> \u00e4r inte s\u00e5 tokig den heller. Sitter en meter framf\u00f6r tv’n n\u00e4r jag kollar. Anstr\u00e4ngande. F\u00e5nigt. Men n\u00f6dv\u00e4ndigt. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast nu s\u00f6ndag. Det skall knappas. Men det blir mest upprensing. Fast just det rensar manegen f\u00f6r knappande imorgon. Om det finns en morgondag. Ta inget f\u00f6r givet lille v\u00e4n. Det g\u00e4ller ocks\u00e5 en vanlig dag. Alla dar. Bara idioter tror att de lever f\u00f6r evigt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Finv\u00e4der p\u00e5 ing\u00e5ng. Borde ta med sig den sista sn\u00f6n h\u00e4r p\u00e5 kullen. Ljuvligt. Jag m\u00e5ste ut. Hela min lekamen skriker efter det. Fast det \u00e4r inte samma sak att vandra omkring i skogen eller efter v\u00e4garna n\u00e4r man inte ser s\u00e5 bra. M\u00f6ter man folk ser man inte vilka de \u00e4r. Det d\u00e4r g\u00f6r en n\u00e4stan folkskygg. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Lider allts\u00e5. Lite. Japp, \u00e5tminstone lite. Ett j\u00e4vla sjukdomscentrerat liv nu ett tag. Det \u00e4r farligt att bli sin sjukdom. Fastna i den. Man m\u00e5ste resa sig \u00f6ver. Sl\u00e4ppa sig sj\u00e4lv fri. Flyga iv\u00e4g. Men s\u00e4g det till dem som har ont s\u00e5 att de gr\u00e5ter. Det \u00e4r l\u00e4tt att snacka n\u00e4r man st\u00e5r d\u00e4r tryggt i sina egna skor. Man inser ganska snabbt att man inte har mycket att klaga p\u00e5. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tranorna \u00e4r visst h\u00e4r. Men jag har inte h\u00f6rt dem \u00e4nnu. Troligen f\u00f6r att jag hela tiden h\u00e5ller mig inne. Men l\u00e4ngtar. Ett av de riktigt stora gl\u00e4djemomenten i mitt liv \u00e4r att ligga d\u00e4r i s\u00e4ngen om sommaren med \u00f6ppet f\u00f6nster – ljumma vindar som lyfter gardinen och smeker mig – och lyssna p\u00e5 tranorna p\u00e5 myren i n\u00e4rheten n\u00e4r de v\u00e4lkomnar den nya dagen. Det brukar ske mellan tre och fyra d\u00e4r p\u00e5 morgonen n\u00e5gonstans. Har man tur s\u00e4tter koltrasten ig\u00e5ng med den vackraste s\u00e5ngen som finns strax efter. En b\u00e4ttre start p\u00e5 en ny dag kan man liksom inte f\u00e5. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast \u00e4n s\u00e5 l\u00e4nge \u00e4r det ju ett tag dit. N\u00e5ja. Inte s\u00e5 l\u00e4nge. Maj r\u00e4kcer om det kommer v\u00e4rme.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast nu… jag tror jag g\u00e5r och l\u00e4gger mig. Ingen ide att b\u00f6rja med n\u00e5got av v\u00e4rde nu. Man hoppas p\u00e5 morgondagen. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

S\u00e5klart. Alldeles f\u00f6r mycket vila nu. Men det enda jag orkar. Hostan och det. Jo l\u00e4ser. Guillou. Sista. Nej, “senaste” heter det v\u00e4l. Jag vet att han skriver p\u00e5 en ny. Den h\u00e4r \u00e4r b\u00e4ttre \u00e4n den f\u00f6rra. Mer sl\u00e4ktkr\u00f6nika. Mer liv. Gillar. Sover d\u00e4r emellan. \u00c4ter ocks\u00e5. Det som smakar. 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