{"id":34877,"date":"2020-04-09T17:08:57","date_gmt":"2020-04-09T16:08:57","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=34877"},"modified":"2020-04-10T15:55:37","modified_gmt":"2020-04-10T14:55:37","slug":"slut-redan","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=34877","title":{"rendered":"Slut? &#8211; redan?"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"341\" height=\"607\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/04\/IMG_20200409_173448423.jpg?resize=341%2C607&#038;ssl=1\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-34878\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/04\/IMG_20200409_173448423.jpg?w=341&amp;ssl=1 341w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/04\/IMG_20200409_173448423.jpg?resize=169%2C300&amp;ssl=1 169w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 341px) 100vw, 341px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Fnissar lite f\u00f6r mig sj\u00e4lv. G\u00e5r omkring och dammsuger. Men ser ju inte s\u00e5 bra. S\u00e5 metoden \u00e4r att f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka f\u00f6ra dammsugarmunstycke \u00f6ver s\u00e5 mycket yta som m\u00f6jligt. Jo jag ser munstycket. \u00c5tminstone skapligt.  Dimmigt. Hur som helst. Man klarar av en l\u00e4genhet p\u00e5 det viset om man vill och har sj\u00e4lvf\u00f6rtroende. Hoppas det blev skapligt rent. K skurar. Muttrar inte. Bra.  Egentligen \u00e4r v\u00e4l allt det d\u00e4r ganska el\u00e4ndigt. Men d\u00e5 m\u00e5ste man t\u00e4nka efter. Det g\u00f6r vi inte idag. Helg blir det efter att man st\u00e4dat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Hostar s\u00e5klart. Har lagom ont i axel. Ont i magmuskler jag inte viste fanns d\u00e4r av allt hostande. &#8212; S\u00e5ja nu \u00e4r kr\u00e4mporna avklarade. T\u00e4nkte bara klara av det d\u00e4r. Nu kan vi f\u00f6rklara p\u00e5sken inledd. Japp, sitter p\u00e5 l\u00e5tsaskontor och inleder den genom att knappa vidare och lyssna p\u00e5 musik. Ja och om sanningen skall fram s\u00e5 stal jag lite av p\u00e5skk\u00e4rringarnas godis. De jag hoppas inte kommer i \u00e5r. Dels pga av Corona och dels pga att jag sj\u00e4lv vill \u00e4ta upp det d\u00e4r godiset.<em> <\/em>Jo, JO, JO, jag vet<em>. <\/em>Man blir glad av att ge. Men&#8230; <em><strong>Godis \u00e4r gott<\/strong><\/em> som kamrat Magnus en g\u00e5ng diktade. Man b\u00f6r allts\u00e5 \u00e4ta. Lita p\u00e5 kroppens signaler. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Fast det tar slut v\u00e4ldigt fort. Alltid. Konstigt det ocks\u00e5 eftersom jag inte har haft n\u00e5gon n\u00e4mnv\u00e4rd aptit de senaste veckorna. F\u00e5tt tvinga i mig mat. Men godis det g\u00e5r i. Kakor med. Kubb. Chips. Men kaffe&#8230; sv\u00e5rt. Av n\u00e5gon anledning smakar det skit just nu. Men smakf\u00f6r\u00e4ndringar h\u00f6r visst till alltihop. Om&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">M\u00e5nen var fantastisk i natt s\u00e4ger K. Jag s\u00e5g bara oljuset d\u00e4r utanf\u00f6r f\u00f6nstret. Fantastiskt det ocks\u00e5. Jag brukar alltid s\u00f6ka i oljusets skuggor efter dem som inte vill synas. Men sova s\u00e4rskilt bra kan ingen av oss den natten. Om det sen beror p\u00e5 m\u00e5nen vill jag l\u00e5ta vara osagt. En s\u00f6mnl\u00f6s natt \u00e4r ingen s\u00f6mnl\u00f6s natt. Tv\u00e5 \u00e4r tre osv. 1-1-2-3-5-8-&#8230; mot helvetet och hallucinationer. Aldrig varit d\u00e4r. Men ser ansikten om jag blundar. D\u00f6da som har g\u00e5tt f\u00f6re troligen. N\u00e4 jag skojar. Mer troligt en livlig fantasi. En g\u00e5va jag \u00e4r stolt \u00f6ver.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">P\u00e5 m\u00e5ndag skall vi f\u00e5 (enligt prognosen) 26 m\/s i byarna h\u00e4r. Man f\u00e5r stanna inne. Torkvindar. Det blir v\u00e5r snabbare \u00e4n fort n\u00e4r de drar fram. Om man nu inte sj\u00e4lv bl\u00e5ser bort och inte m\u00e4rker av alltsammans. Som sv\u00e4rmor gjorde. Turligt nog hittades hon igen. Men lite l\u00e4ngre bort. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ser att siten hoppar upp och ner. Den ligger hos Loopia. Stabilt? Nope.! Men pengarna tar man g\u00e4rna. Orkar snart inte gn\u00e4lla mer. Det \u00e4r alltid n\u00e5got problem. Fast det \u00e4r ju Corona tider. Man f\u00e5r vara glad att en och annan sida g\u00e5r att l\u00e4sa d\u00e5 och d\u00e5. Ig\u00e5r var det f.\u00f6. ett j\u00e4kla l\u00e4sande. Vet inte varf\u00f6r. Men undrar. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Men egentligen \u00e5terst\u00e5r v\u00e4l bara att \u00f6nska alla en <strong>Glad P\u00e5sk<\/strong>! Kan man vara <strong>glad<\/strong> ett \u00e5r som detta? Ja nog m\u00e5ste man v\u00e4l \u00e4nd\u00e5 f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka. \u00c5tminstone borde v\u00e4l inte en enda ha ens ett uns av d\u00e5ligt samvete f\u00f6r att man k\u00e4nner gl\u00e4dje i en orostid. J\u00e4mvikten \u00e4r det vi m\u00e5ste jobba mot. Alltid. Allvar beh\u00f6ver inte utesluta gl\u00e4dje. Inget blir b\u00e4ttre av det. Surmulenheten \u00e4r lika som cancer. <strong>Fuck both<\/strong>! \u00c4t \u00e4pplen ist\u00e4llet f\u00f6r \u00e4gg. Eller \u00e4t vafan du vill. Du v\u00e4ljer.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><strong>Liksom<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">ps S\u00e4rskrivningsintoleranta m\u00e5 ha \u00f6verseende ds<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">pss Fast de har de s\u00e5klart inte ds<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Fnissar lite f\u00f6r mig sj\u00e4lv. G\u00e5r omkring och dammsuger. Men ser ju inte s\u00e5 bra. S\u00e5 metoden \u00e4r att f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka f\u00f6ra dammsugarmunstycke \u00f6ver s\u00e5 mycket yta som m\u00f6jligt. Jo jag ser munstycket. \u00c5tminstone skapligt. Dimmigt. Hur som helst. Man klarar av en l\u00e4genhet p\u00e5 det viset om man vill och har sj\u00e4lvf\u00f6rtroende. 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