{"id":34690,"date":"2020-03-17T22:47:12","date_gmt":"2020-03-17T21:47:12","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=34690"},"modified":"2020-03-17T22:47:12","modified_gmt":"2020-03-17T21:47:12","slug":"vagar-inte","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=34690","title":{"rendered":"V\u00e5gar inte"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Jag \u00e4ter elefant. V\u00e5gar inte r\u00e4kna hur m\u00e5nga tuggor… ja komponenter… delar… det handlar om. R\u00e4knar jag efter g\u00e5r jag s\u00e4kert upp och l\u00e4gger mig. Omedelbart. Det \u00e4r n\u00e4mligen om\u00f6jligt. I alla fall ensam. Samma sak g\u00e4ller om en tanke “varf\u00f6r” eller “till vilken nytta” skulle smita in obem\u00e4rkt i huvudet. Koncentrerat l\u00e5tsasjobb \u00e4r b\u00e4sta tankemuren man kan bygga. S\u00e5 jag \u00e4gnar mig \u00e5t det. Bortkopplar mig fr\u00e5n v\u00e4rlden.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men jag deklarerar s\u00e5klart idag ocks\u00e5. Grejar med vattenm\u00e4tarinstallat\u00f6rer som jag inte vill ha hit under eldningss\u00e4song (Det kostar n\u00e4mligen en massa pengar). Grejar med bygglov hos kommunen f\u00f6r mitt evighetsprojekt. Ja kanske g\u00e5r det… Ja och lite annat. Men mest fokus p\u00e5 att sl\u00e4ppa ut saker allts\u00e5 som det l\u00e5tsasjobbats med under det senaste \u00e5ret. Terapi kanske kanske allt det d\u00e4r egentligen kallas i min \u00e5lder. Inte den heller har v\u00e4l n\u00e5got reellt syfte utom att f\u00e5 tiden att g\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ute sjunger f\u00e5glarna. Ja medans solen var uppe. Sj\u00e4lv drar jag ner persiennerna. M\u00f6rkl\u00e4gger. Galet eftersom det \u00e4r ljuset man beh\u00f6ver nu. Men man f\u00e5r helt enkelt best\u00e4mma sig och l\u00e5tsas att solen inte lyser. Hur som helst finns det inget alternativ. Trotts trettio centimeter mellan ansikte och sk\u00e4rm s\u00e5 g\u00e5r det inte att ha s\u00f6derl\u00e4gessol brassande in genom stora skolf\u00f6nster. Det spelar ingen roll att den \u00e4r \u00e5tta minuter bort. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kommer eventuellt f\u00e5 operera min gr\u00e5 starr direkt n\u00e4sta vecka. \u00c5terbud. Det var en av dagen stora \u00f6verraskningar. Positivt s\u00e5klart. Om det nu blir s\u00e5. N\u00e4r jag sa att jag skulle \u00e5ka buss och t\u00e5g och buss igen undrade sjuksk\u00f6terskan om jag inte hade n\u00e5gon som kunde skjutsa mig. Nej, \u00e4r det enkla svaret. Det har jag inte. “Vad synd<\/em>” sa sk\u00f6terskan. Men ger jag mig fan p\u00e5 det s\u00e5 hittar jag s\u00e4kert hem igen. Jag \u00e4r bra p\u00e5 att ge mig fasiken p\u00e5 saker. Hamnar man n\u00e5gon annanstans s\u00e5 kan v\u00e4l det ocks\u00e5 bli sp\u00e4nnande p\u00e5 m\u00e5nga s\u00e4tt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Liksom<\/strong>!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Boken jag l\u00e4ser, den som handlar om en pandemi, \u00e4r skr\u00e4mmande lik det som h\u00e4nder nu i verkligheten. Jag f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker klaga hos K som valt den. Men hon lyssnar inte p\u00e5 mig. Sl\u00e5r dov\u00f6rat till. Men jag l\u00e4ser nog klart. Ja och hoppas att det och allt inte blir fullt s\u00e5 j\u00e4vligt som det beskrivs i boken.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag \u00e4r lite fundersam p\u00e5 Kina f\u00f6rresten. Varf\u00f6r har smittspridningen avstannat d\u00e4r? Ingen annan verkar ju ha lyckats begr\u00e4nsa spridningen med s\u00e4rskilt lyckat resultat! Borde det inte finnas en ledtr\u00e5d att h\u00e4mta i just detta faktum? Kanske \u00e4r Kineser bara l\u00e4ttare att isolera. Men har sv\u00e5rt att t\u00e4nka mig det. Det finns alltid folk som inte lyder, som drar iv\u00e4g, st\u00e4ller till saker. Alla kan ju inte dragit iv\u00e4g till andra l\u00e4nder.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Liksom<\/strong>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Man vet inget. Jag flyttade min fria del av pensionen till den statliga fonden i h\u00f6stas. Tror det var ett lyckat drag. K\u00e4nns som det h\u00e4r kommer att ta tid att f\u00e5 ordning p\u00e5. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Atchooo!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tror inte jag skall tugga mer ikv\u00e4ll…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Jag \u00e4ter elefant. V\u00e5gar inte r\u00e4kna hur m\u00e5nga tuggor… ja komponenter… delar… det handlar om. R\u00e4knar jag efter g\u00e5r jag s\u00e4kert upp och l\u00e4gger mig. Omedelbart. Det \u00e4r n\u00e4mligen om\u00f6jligt. I alla fall ensam. Samma sak g\u00e4ller om en tanke “varf\u00f6r” eller “till vilken nytta” skulle smita in obem\u00e4rkt i huvudet. Koncentrerat l\u00e5tsasjobb \u00e4r b\u00e4sta […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[24,22,6],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-34690","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser","category-techstuff","category-vscp"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":18054,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=18054","url_meta":{"origin":34690,"position":0},"title":"Studios\u00f6ndag","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2015-06-07","format":false,"excerpt":"Man m\u00e5ste bevisa f\u00f6r sig sj\u00e4lv ibland att man klarar det. 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