{"id":34608,"date":"2020-03-04T21:51:48","date_gmt":"2020-03-04T20:51:48","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=34608"},"modified":"2020-03-04T21:51:48","modified_gmt":"2020-03-04T20:51:48","slug":"slapper-mig","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=34608","title":{"rendered":"Sl\u00e4pper mig"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Sl\u00e4pper lite grejer.<\/a> Release-iver. Till vilken nytta vet bara han\/hon\/det\/gud och en och annan dj\u00e4vul. Eller n\u00e5gon annan f\u00f6r mig ok\u00e4nd. Eller ingen. Borde kanske sl\u00e4ppa musik ist\u00e4llet. Har en l\u00e5t halvv\u00e4gs ute liksom. Men kanske lika bra att l\u00e5ta bli. Men det kan jag s\u00e5klart inte i l\u00e4ngden. G\u00f6dselspridare. JAG!?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

L\u00e4tt sn\u00f6 idag ocks\u00e5. Men en halv decimeter ist\u00e4llet f\u00f6r utlovad hel decimeter. L\u00e4ttskottat allts\u00e5. Men jag f\u00e5r ont i ryggen i alla fall. Handlar mer om otr\u00e4nad kropp \u00e4n om anstr\u00e4ngning, Men \u00f6verlever troligen. Det skall komma mer sn\u00f6. Vi f\u00e5r se hur det g\u00e5r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Annars b\u00e4r jag pellets. Hulken skall matas. Alltid. D\u00e4r har ryggen vant sig. Man kr\u00f6ker rygg f\u00f6r \u00f6verh\u00f6gheten. I det finns ocks\u00e5 det svettigaste jag blir. Varma dagar. M\u00e5nga s\u00e4ckar. Ingen tomg\u00e5ng.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kan man p\u00e5 allvar vara presidentkandidat i USA vid 80-\u00e5rs \u00e5lder borde inte livet vara slut som gubbe p\u00e5 en kulle i Los vid 65-\u00e5rs \u00e5lder heller. Den enda tr\u00f6st man kan h\u00e4mta fr\u00e5n den d\u00e4r kampanjen. Tr\u00f6ttande i allt annat. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u00e5 det kommande \u00e5ret, v\u00e4gen mot 65, f\u00e5r v\u00e4l bli en startstr\u00e4cka ist\u00e4llet f\u00f6r en slutstr\u00e4cka. Jag k\u00e4nner ju inte en enda som jag st\u00e5r i v\u00e4gen f\u00f6r. Det \u00e4r v\u00e4l det enda man m\u00e5ste passa sig f\u00f6r som gamling. Man m\u00e5ste k\u00e4nna n\u00e4r man \u00e4r i v\u00e4gen. Ja och l\u00e4mna. Japp, det enda om man redan fattat att det inte var b\u00e4ttre f\u00f6rr. Man m\u00e5ste f\u00f6rst\u00e5 det. Ta in. Begrunda. Inse.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag har en masa text liggande som jag borde g\u00f6ra n\u00e5got av ocks\u00e5. Det fanns en period n\u00e4r jag skrev mycket. Det material som bara ligger d\u00e4r nu. Idag (NU) blir mest mest kod. Men var sak har sin tid. Beh\u00f6ver g\u00e5 l\u00e5ngt in och djupt ner ibland. Skrivandet och musiken \u00e4r ytligare. H\u00f6gre upp. L\u00e4ttare p\u00e5 det viset. Bara gl\u00e4dje. Men de d\u00e4r texterna allts\u00e5. N\u00e5got m\u00e5ste jag g\u00f6ra av dom. Hatar n\u00e4r saker bara ligger i filer och mappar. Har en drift att l\u00e5tsas n\u00e5 “klart”. D\u00e5 och d\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Alma Tr\u00e4dg\u00e5rd och Alma Park. F\u00f6rbannat imponerande. Gillar att bli imponerad. Alla r\u00e4tt om n\u00e5gon nu skulle fr\u00e5ga mig. Fast det \u00e4r s\u00e5klart ringen risk. Tur det. Ibland tror jag n\u00e4mligen att jag sitter p\u00e5 sanningar. V\u00e4rre kan det inte bli f\u00f6r en m\u00e4nniska.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Blir bjuden p\u00e5 fest i G\u00e4vle hos gamla arbetskamrater fr\u00e5n en gammal arbetsplats. De b\u00e4sta m\u00e4nniskor jag har funnits tillsammans med fanns d\u00e4r. Jag skriver inte “arbetat” f\u00f6r det var mer \u00e4n s\u00e5. M\u00e4rkv\u00e4rdigt. Det fanns n\u00e5got helt unikt d\u00e4r mellan m\u00e4nniskorna. Nu \u00e4r arbetsplatsen borta sedan m\u00e5nga \u00e5r och folket spridda \u00f6ver l\u00e4net och landet. Men det d\u00e4r unika h\u00e4nger kvar i luften. Jag t\u00e4nker s\u00e5klart inte \u00e5ka p\u00e5 festen. Man skall inte f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka \u00e5terupprepa det som \u00e4r exceptionellt bra. Skilja p\u00e5 d\u00e5 och nu. Men \u00e4lskar de d\u00e4r m\u00e4nniskorna av hela mitt hj\u00e4rta. Tacksam ocks\u00e5. Att f\u00e5 ha varit en del av det d\u00e4r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men jag \u00e4r en turgubbe. N\u00e4stan i allt. N\u00e4stan alltid.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Liksom<\/strong>.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Sl\u00e4pper lite grejer. Release-iver. Till vilken nytta vet bara han\/hon\/det\/gud och en och annan dj\u00e4vul. Eller n\u00e5gon annan f\u00f6r mig ok\u00e4nd. Eller ingen. Borde kanske sl\u00e4ppa musik ist\u00e4llet. Har en l\u00e5t halvv\u00e4gs ute liksom. Men kanske lika bra att l\u00e5ta bli. Men det kan jag s\u00e5klart inte i l\u00e4ngden. G\u00f6dselspridare. JAG!? L\u00e4tt sn\u00f6 idag ocks\u00e5. 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