H\u00e4r vandrar vi p\u00e5. L\u00f6jligt l\u00e5ngsamt g\u00e5r det – men fram\u00e5t. Det \u00e4r i alla fall inte foxtrot. Man f\u00e5r vara glad f\u00f6r det. Alla steg g\u00e5r faktiskt fram\u00e5t. Men alla steg \u00e4r pyttesm\u00e5. Tr\u00f6ttsamt s\u00e4tt att ta sig fram\u00e5t p\u00e5. Vill ta sjumilakliv. N\u00e4r jag kan. Men kan man inte just nu. Nej, d\u00e5 \u00e4r det s\u00e5. D\u00e5 f\u00e5r man koppla p\u00e5 t\u00e5lamodet. Ist\u00e4llet allts\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kylig natt p\u00e5 ing\u00e5ende. Jag pratar allvar med Hulken och shuntar upp. Vi skall nog klara det d\u00e4r. Ja, det \u00e4r han som g\u00f6r jobbet. Jag b\u00e4r bara in pellets. Fast det blir bara ett dygn riktig vinter. Sen \u00e4r vi tillbaks i det milda. Undertecknad \u00e4r inte ett dugg ledsen f\u00f6r det. Ta mig fram till Vasaloppss\u00f6ndag bara. Upp ur sv\u00e5rvinterhelvetesh\u00e5let. Efter den dan klarar jag mig.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Fast \u00e4n \u00e4r det en bit kvar i m\u00f6rkret. Fast idag p\u00e5 morgonen upplevdes ljuset. Japp. Ja p\u00e5 eftermiddagen ocks\u00e5. Det h\u00e4nder saker. Jod\u00e5. Ett g\u00e4ng extra minuter varje dag som attackerar m\u00f6rkret. Man sjunger hejaramsor och hurrar \u00e5t det d\u00e4r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Blir tr\u00f6tt efter en dag framf\u00f6r sk\u00e4rmarna. Det \u00e4r trettio centimeter som g\u00e4ller nu. Ledsen att jag gn\u00e4ller om det s\u00e5klart. Men det f\u00e5r r\u00e4cka med det d\u00e4r. F\u00f6r idag. P\u00e5 fredag skall jag ta den f\u00f6rhoppningsvis sista CRP’n efter infektionen och ber alla att h\u00e5lla tummarna f\u00f6r att det \u00e4r bra v\u00e4rden ocks\u00e5 denna g\u00e5ng s\u00e5 att jag f\u00e5r l\u00e4mna allt det d\u00e4r bakom mig. Japp, h\u00e4r p\u00e5 bloggen med. Befriande f\u00f6r alla. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Fast nu m\u00e5ste jag nog f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka koncentrera mig och ta ett mikrosteg fram\u00e5t.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
H\u00e4r vandrar vi p\u00e5. L\u00f6jligt l\u00e5ngsamt g\u00e5r det – men fram\u00e5t. Det \u00e4r i alla fall inte foxtrot. Man f\u00e5r vara glad f\u00f6r det. Alla steg g\u00e5r faktiskt fram\u00e5t. Men alla steg \u00e4r pyttesm\u00e5. Tr\u00f6ttsamt s\u00e4tt att ta sig fram\u00e5t p\u00e5. Vill ta sjumilakliv. N\u00e4r jag kan. Men kan man inte just nu. 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