{"id":34208,"date":"2020-01-20T23:22:51","date_gmt":"2020-01-20T22:22:51","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=34208"},"modified":"2020-01-20T23:22:51","modified_gmt":"2020-01-20T22:22:51","slug":"skriva-eller","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=34208","title":{"rendered":"Skriva eller…"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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S\u00e5 uppstod det d\u00e4r naturliga avslutet p\u00e5 en dag. Kod incheckad. Det \u00e4r liksom ingen ide att b\u00f6rja med annat. F\u00f6rr hade det varit det. D\u00e5 var b\u00e4sta tiden efter tio. Telefonerna hade tystnat. Man k\u00f6rde l\u00e4tt till fyra. Klev upp efter n\u00e5gra timmar och k\u00f6rde igen. Eller la sig aldrig. Men inte nu allts\u00e5. Segare. Beh\u00f6ver s\u00f6mnen. Inbillar man sig i alla fall. Men sextontimmarspassen f\u00e5r duga. M\u00e5ste duga.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

De trettio silverpenningarna f\u00f6r min sj\u00e4l ramlade in idag. Japp jag beh\u00f6ver dom. Japp, s\u00e5 pass mycket att sj\u00e4len till slut \u00e4nd\u00e5 blev till salu. Fast stoltheten f\u00e5r sig s\u00e5klart en snyting. Men just stoltheten har varit med om snytingar m\u00e5nga g\u00e5nger f\u00f6rut och st\u00e5tt pall. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Det ensa som \u00e5terst\u00e5r h\u00e4r \u00e4r nu allts\u00e5 att upps\u00f6ka bingen. En novellsamling v\u00e4ntar. Jag gillar just noveller. Men l\u00e4ser allt f\u00f6r s\u00e4llan novellsamlingar. Borde \u00e4ndra p\u00e5 det. Det d\u00e4r komprimerade historieber\u00e4ttandet plockar fram n\u00e5got annat i en ber\u00e4ttelse. Sen f\u00e5r det mig ocks\u00e5 sugen p\u00e5 att skriva sj\u00e4lv. En kort historia k\u00e4nns \u00f6verkomlig att jobba med. Det f\u00e5r inte bli som i mitt dagliga l\u00e5tsasv\u00e4rv med skrivandet och l\u00e5tmakeriet. D\u00e4r m\u00e5ste lusten f\u00e5 h\u00e4rja fritt. I det h\u00e4r andra f\u00e5r man undertrycka lusten en hel del i s\u00f6kandet efter “klart”.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

N\u00e5ja, allt har sin tid. Kanske kommer man en dag ta tag i det d\u00e4r. Kanske g\u00f6r man det inte. Det \u00e4r inte s\u00e5 noga. Det \u00e4r ju det som \u00e4r det bra med det som \u00e4r lustdrivet. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Idag har jag inte pratat med en enda levande person utanf\u00f6r familjen. Det \u00e4r s\u00e4kert inte bra. B\u00e4ddar f\u00f6r en \u00e5lderdom i ensamhet och en skygghet som ropar efter med solit\u00e4r tillvaro. Men det \u00e4r som det \u00e4r. Ja och det \u00e4r ett val. Eller kanske inte. Man m\u00e5ste g\u00f6ra det man m\u00e5ste och m\u00e5ste man s\u00e5 offrar man n\u00e5got. Fast tragiskt egentligen s\u00e5klart om man gillar m\u00e4nniskor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men nu allts\u00e5 kv\u00e4ller h\u00e4r p\u00e5 l\u00e5tsaskontoret. D\u00e4ri den sanningen finns en massa bra saker. Ju. Liksom<\/strong>.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

S\u00e5 uppstod det d\u00e4r naturliga avslutet p\u00e5 en dag. Kod incheckad. Det \u00e4r liksom ingen ide att b\u00f6rja med annat. F\u00f6rr hade det varit det. D\u00e5 var b\u00e4sta tiden efter tio. Telefonerna hade tystnat. Man k\u00f6rde l\u00e4tt till fyra. Klev upp efter n\u00e5gra timmar och k\u00f6rde igen. Eller la sig aldrig. Men inte nu allts\u00e5. 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