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Det \u00e4r inte ofta, men ibland \u00e4nd\u00e5, som f\u00f6r mig i l\u00f6rdags n\u00e4r jag sitter framf\u00f6r brasan med ett glas med julwhiskyn i handen, den som jag fick av J. i julklapp. K. grejar kv\u00e4llsmat i k\u00f6ket. Jag bara sitter d\u00e4r. Lite halvsjuk, har inte gjort mycket under dagen. F\u00f6rkylning. Gammeln. Den stora tr\u00f6ttheten. N\u00e5got har mig i sitt grepp. Bj\u00f6rkveden sprakar och liksom att jag aldrig tr\u00f6ttnar p\u00e5 att titta ut \u00f6ver hav och v\u00e5gors r\u00f6relse s\u00e5 tr\u00f6ttnar jag aldrig p\u00e5 att sitta och titta in i en brasa. De d\u00e4r b\u00e5da n\u00e5r hela v\u00e4gen in i min sj\u00e4l. Jord, eld, luft och vatten. Jo, nog fungerar det p\u00e5 samma s\u00e4tt att titta p\u00e5 himlen ocks\u00e5. Jag minns ju s\u00e5dana stunder med samma k\u00e4nsla. Eller att ha h\u00e4nderna i jorden. K\u00e4nna urprunget f\u00f6r liv. Inse att man \u00e4r en del av det d\u00e4r, inte \u00f6ver, inte under.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men n\u00e4r jag sitter d\u00e4r med mitt glas inser jag att livet blir inte b\u00e4ttre \u00e4n s\u00e5h\u00e4r. Att det inte beh\u00f6ver bli b\u00e4ttre \u00e4n s\u00e5h\u00e4r. H\u00e4r och nu i det h\u00e4r \u00f6gonblicket \u00e4r jag helt lycklig och utan ett enda bekymmer. K\u00e4nslan intar mig. Och jag njuter till fullo \u00f6ver att finnas till.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Idag, dagen efter, \u00e4r livet ikapp igen. Praktiska ting har tagit \u00f6ver tankev\u00e4rlden. Men den d\u00e4r goa k\u00e4nslan fr\u00e5n i l\u00f6rdags framf\u00f6r brasan finns kvar d\u00e4r inom mig. Jag kommer att kunna leva l\u00e4nge p\u00e5 den. Precis som jag gjort p\u00e5 tidigare insikter av det d\u00e4r slaget. Stunder av st\u00f6rsta enkelhet n\u00e4r allt bara \u00e4r s\u00e5 bra som det n\u00e5gonsin skulle kunna vara.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tacksam \u00e4r jag s\u00e5klart f\u00f6r att jag f\u00e5tt ett g\u00e4ng s\u00e5dana d\u00e4r \u00f6gonblick i livet. O\u00e4ndligt tacksam. F\u00f6rn\u00f6jsamheten \u00e4r den st\u00f6rsta g\u00e5van. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Det \u00e4r inte ofta, men ibland \u00e4nd\u00e5, som f\u00f6r mig i l\u00f6rdags n\u00e4r jag sitter framf\u00f6r brasan med ett glas med julwhiskyn i handen, den som jag fick av J. i julklapp. K. grejar kv\u00e4llsmat i k\u00f6ket. Jag bara sitter d\u00e4r. Lite halvsjuk, har inte gjort mycket under dagen. F\u00f6rkylning. Gammeln. Den stora tr\u00f6ttheten. 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