{"id":34067,"date":"2020-01-09T08:53:04","date_gmt":"2020-01-09T07:53:04","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=34067"},"modified":"2020-01-09T08:53:04","modified_gmt":"2020-01-09T07:53:04","slug":"morkret","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=34067","title":{"rendered":"M\u00f6rkret"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Januarim\u00f6rkret \u00f6kar p\u00e5 galenskapen. Jan\/feb l\u00e5gvatten ligger som en filt \u00f6ver en. Fast solen jobbar i alla fall \u00e5t r\u00e4tt h\u00e5ll. Upp drygt fem minuter tidigare i dag \u00e4n f\u00f6rra torsdagen. Japp, och nu accelererar det d\u00e4r. Snart handlar det om kvartar. S\u00e5 hopp finnes. Men uppriktigt. Tittar jag ut genom f\u00f6nstret just nu… Becksvart. Man l\u00e4ngtar bort. S\u00f6derut. Man skulle slagit f\u00f6lje med flyttf\u00e5glarna i h\u00f6stas.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men det \u00e4r lika varje \u00e5r s\u00e5klart. De h\u00e4r f\u00f6rsta m\u00e5naderna p\u00e5 \u00e5ret \u00e4r en kamp. En kamp man m\u00e5ste igenom. Om man vill st\u00e5 upp som en levande m\u00e4nniska. Men Vasaloppss\u00f6ndagen \u00e4r n\u00e4rmare \u00e4n vad man tror just nu. R\u00e4tt vad det \u00e4r s\u00e5 drar alla de d\u00e4r l\u00f6parna iv\u00e4g uppf\u00f6r f\u00f6rsta backen. Sen v\u00e4nder det. Ljuset och Talgoxs\u00e5ngen \u00e4r h\u00e4r. L\u00e4ttare tider.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

F\u00f6rra \u00e5ret blev lite “sommaren som f\u00f6rsvann”. Skall f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka njuta lite mer av det d\u00e4r i \u00e5r. Koltrasts\u00e5ng. Som man l\u00e4ngtar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Skriver en notering sista Juli 2021 i almanackan. “S\u00f6ka pension”. K\u00e4nns konstigt. V\u00e4ldigt underligt. Allt har g\u00e5tt s\u00e5 fort. Men nu \u00e4r man allts\u00e5 snart d\u00e4r. Om\u00f6jligt att f\u00f6rst\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men annars \u00e4r s\u00e5klart livet inte s\u00e5 d\u00e5ligt. Det rullar p\u00e5 som det alltid har gjort. Man f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker hinna med s\u00e5 gott man kan. Men lyckas bara marginellt s\u00e5klart. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nu skall jag st\u00e4da. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

ps<\/strong> Livet med s\u00e5ld sj\u00e4l \u00e4r inte helt pj\u00e5kigt \u00e4nd\u00e5. Fast hedern, den att aldrig s\u00e4lja sig, fick sig en t\u00f6rn. Men som det s\u00e4gs. Alla har ett pris. ds<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Januarim\u00f6rkret \u00f6kar p\u00e5 galenskapen. Jan\/feb l\u00e5gvatten ligger som en filt \u00f6ver en. Fast solen jobbar i alla fall \u00e5t r\u00e4tt h\u00e5ll. Upp drygt fem minuter tidigare i dag \u00e4n f\u00f6rra torsdagen. Japp, och nu accelererar det d\u00e4r. Snart handlar det om kvartar. S\u00e5 hopp finnes. Men uppriktigt. Tittar jag ut genom f\u00f6nstret just nu… Becksvart. 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