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Uppriktigt sagt s\u00e5 skulle jag kunna g\u00e5 och l\u00e4gga mig och sova igen denna morgon. Tr\u00f6tter. F\u00f6rs\u00f6ker med te. Som uppiggande. \u00c5terst\u00e5r att se om det fungerar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Livet utan sj\u00e4l fungerar det ocks\u00e5. Att s\u00e4lja sig sj\u00e4lv och sin blogg \u00e4r dock en hemsk upplevelse. Men har man v\u00e4l gjort det s\u00e5 \u00e4r det ingen konst att forts\u00e4tta. Det \u00e4r v\u00e4l ungef\u00e4r som att d\u00f6da n\u00e5gon. Har man bara klarat av den f\u00f6rsta s\u00e5… N\u00e5ja, kanske haltar liknelsen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kommer precis p\u00e5 att den h\u00e4r stora tr\u00f6ttheten jag k\u00e4nner kanske \u00e4r det normala tillst\u00e5ndet numera efter en s\u00e5ld sj\u00e4l. Kan det vara s\u00e5? Varje levnadsdag h\u00e4danefter skall kanske levas utan den d\u00e4r euforiska k\u00e4nslan \u00f6ver att vakna till en ny dag. F\u00e5r jag aldrig igen uppleva den d\u00e4r sv\u00e5righeten att g\u00e5 och l\u00e4gga mig f\u00f6r att allt \u00e4r s\u00e5 f\u00f6rbaskat skojigt. Men s\u00e5klart, en s\u00e5ld sj\u00e4l \u00e4r en s\u00e5ld sj\u00e4l. H\u00e4r finns ingen bytesr\u00e4tt att \u00e5beropa. Mammon \u00e4r en h\u00e5rding. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Livet med tv\u00e5 sm\u00e5 sk\u00e4rmar med d\u00e5lig uppl\u00f6sning suger rent ut sagt. Japp tr\u00f6ttar ocks\u00e5. Som om inte synproblem i sig har varit nog. Men jag antar att han\/hon\/det\/gud har en tanke med det h\u00e4r. Att man skall h\u00e4rdas. Att man haft det f\u00f6r l\u00e4tt. Hur som helst \u00e4r det sk\u00f6nt att det finns en han\/hon\/det\/gud att st\u00e4lla till svars i s\u00e5dana h\u00e4r situationer. Ja och be och \u00f6nska till n\u00e4r det \u00e4r illa. Bara ta \u00e5t sig de positiva grejerna p\u00e5 det egna kontot. Jag kunde ju ha k\u00f6pt en ny monitor ocks\u00e5 ist\u00e4llet f\u00f6r den d\u00e4r begagnade jag investerade i… Men l\u00e4mpligast \u00e4r det att skylla p\u00e5 n\u00e5gon annan. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hmmmm…. borde kanske prova att byta det d\u00e4r styrkortet idag d\u00e5. Det kan fungera. \u00c4ven om chansen \u00e4r liten. Fast s\u00e5dant d\u00e4r tar s\u00e5 mycket tid. B\u00e4ttre att lida d\u00e5. S\u00e5 att man f\u00e5r klaga. Kanske. Eller inte. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Eller kanske man bara helt enkelt skall g\u00e5 och l\u00e4gga sig… <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Uppriktigt sagt s\u00e5 skulle jag kunna g\u00e5 och l\u00e4gga mig och sova igen denna morgon. Tr\u00f6tter. F\u00f6rs\u00f6ker med te. Som uppiggande. \u00c5terst\u00e5r att se om det fungerar. Livet utan sj\u00e4l fungerar det ocks\u00e5. Att s\u00e4lja sig sj\u00e4lv och sin blogg \u00e4r dock en hemsk upplevelse. Men har man v\u00e4l gjort det s\u00e5 \u00e4r det ingen […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-34043","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":18282,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=18282","url_meta":{"origin":34043,"position":0},"title":"Ett l\u00e5gt pris","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2015-07-18","format":false,"excerpt":"En ny dag. 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