{"id":33765,"date":"2019-12-05T17:50:41","date_gmt":"2019-12-05T16:50:41","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=33765"},"modified":"2019-12-05T17:50:41","modified_gmt":"2019-12-05T16:50:41","slug":"undrar-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=33765","title":{"rendered":"Undrar"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Undrar lite ibland vad jag h\u00e5ller p\u00e5 med. Till vilken nytta… F\u00f6r vem… Sen forts\u00e4tter jag igen. Som om jag sj\u00e4lv vore programmerad till att g\u00f6ra just detta. Konstigt \u00e4r det. S\u00e5 j\u00e4vla roligt \u00e4r det egentligen inte. Det \u00e4r i m\u00e5let som lusten finns. Om man n\u00e5gonsin tar sig dit. Ja och v\u00e4l d\u00e4r (n\u00e4r man tar sig dit) brukar det ju b\u00f6rja om fr\u00e5n b\u00f6rjan igen. Alltihop. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Det bl\u00e5ser rej\u00e4lt h\u00e4r p\u00e5 kulle idag. 17 m\/s i vindbyarna enligt Smhi. Sj\u00e4lv har jag inte lyckats f\u00e5tt upp v\u00e4derstationen som skulle upp i \u00e5r. Hmmm… Det g\u00e5r tr\u00f6gt det d\u00e4r. S\u00e5 n\u00e5gra m\u00e4tv\u00e4rden p\u00e5 vind kan jag inte plocka fram. Men en dag s\u00e5…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Imorgon Sjukgymnast, Jo “fysioterapheft” g\u00e5r ju inte att stava till. Buss allts\u00e5. Heldag i Ljusdal allts\u00e5. Men K skall med. F\u00e5r kanske kaffe och bulle p\u00e5 Coop. Men en hel dag \u00e5t helvete. Fast vad \u00e4r en dag i ett liv egentligen? Man f\u00e5r t\u00e4nka s\u00e5. Eller inte t\u00e4nka alls. Tut att det g\u00e5r bussar fortfarande kan man ocks\u00e5 t\u00e4nka. Det \u00e4r inte \u00f6verallt det g\u00f6r det.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

“Fysioterapeut” \u00e4r det om n\u00e5gon funderar. Det g\u00e5r att Googla p\u00e5 s\u00e5dant om inte stavningskontrollen klarar av ens f\u00f6rs\u00f6k.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Pratar med verkstaden. Dom f\u00e5r inte upp motorhuven. “Det \u00e4r v\u00e4l som sj\u00e4lva helvete….” vill jag skrika, men skriker inte. Dom skall f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka igen. Det rasar…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hatar allt som har annat \u00e4n en elmotor. Inget med f\u00f6rbr\u00e4nningsmotor \u00e4r min v\u00e4n. Har aldrig varit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men snart \u00e4r det jul. Det \u00e4r b\u00e4sta att man \u00e4r sn\u00e4ll. S\u00e5 att tomten ger en en pepparkaka och lite julmust. Mer beh\u00f6vs inte. Fast julmust f\u00e5r vi kanske vara utan. Tung att b\u00e4ra hem. Vatten \u00e4r inte s\u00e5 dumt det heller. Minsann.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast nu s\u00e5. Min tur att fixa mat. M\u00e5ste komma p\u00e5 vad bara. Hmmm… Ja s\u00e5 f\u00e5r det bli. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Undrar lite ibland vad jag h\u00e5ller p\u00e5 med. Till vilken nytta… F\u00f6r vem… Sen forts\u00e4tter jag igen. Som om jag sj\u00e4lv vore programmerad till att g\u00f6ra just detta. Konstigt \u00e4r det. S\u00e5 j\u00e4vla roligt \u00e4r det egentligen inte. Det \u00e4r i m\u00e5let som lusten finns. Om man n\u00e5gonsin tar sig dit. Ja och v\u00e4l d\u00e4r […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-33765","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":28827,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=28827","url_meta":{"origin":33765,"position":0},"title":"Krona eller klave","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2018-06-07","format":false,"excerpt":"Tjoffar ned till Edsbyn. 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