{"id":33654,"date":"2019-11-26T14:39:58","date_gmt":"2019-11-26T13:39:58","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=33654"},"modified":"2019-11-26T14:39:58","modified_gmt":"2019-11-26T13:39:58","slug":"t","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=33654","title":{"rendered":"T"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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T h\u00e4lsar p\u00e5. Kamrater f\u00f6rr. Kamrater nu. Han nyopererad f\u00f6r prostatacancer. Har besv\u00e4r. Jag, som jag \u00e4r med mina sm\u00e5kr\u00e4mpor. Vi \u00e4r m\u00e4rkta av levda liv.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag m\u00f6ter en gubbe. Han m\u00f6ter en gubbe. N\u00e4r vi b\u00e5da var f\u00f6r sig tittar oss i spegeln ser ingen av oss en gubbe. Det \u00e4r konstigt det d\u00e4r. Man ser bara sin egen \u00e5lder n\u00e4r man studerar andra. D\u00e4r och hos tr\u00e4d som var sm\u00e5 n\u00e4r man var barn men \u00e4r stora och fullvuxna nu, inser man sin egen \u00e5lder. Inuti \u00e4r man evigt tjugotv\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men det \u00e4r s\u00e5 enkelt med en m\u00e4nniskor man k\u00e4nt ett helt liv, Det bara fortg\u00e5r. Beh\u00f6ver inte prata s\u00e5 mycket gamla minnen. Man har m\u00e5nga av dem gemensamma \u00e4nd\u00e5. De beh\u00f6ver inte \u00e4ltas. Vi h\u00e5ller oss till nuet. Mycket kr\u00e4mpor blir det s\u00e5klart. Aj och oj liksom. Men glada tankar om fortsatt liv dominerar \u00e4nd\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

En dag kommer en av oss st\u00e5 ensam kvar och den andre vara borta. Ingen av oss vet idag vem som blir den som blir kvar. Jag \u00e4r n\u00e5gra \u00e5r \u00e4ldre. Sannolikheten att jag l\u00e4mnar f\u00f6rst \u00e4r d\u00e4rf\u00f6r stor. Men ingen vet. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

T. \u00e4r nog den ende riktige v\u00e4n jag haft i mitt liv. Att st\u00e5 ensam kvar utan honom skulle bli b\u00f6rjan p\u00e5 n\u00e5got s\u00e4mre. Att den sista l\u00e4nken tillbaks klipptes av och f\u00f6rsvann f\u00f6r evigt. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men \u00e4n lever vi. \u00c4n kan vi r\u00f6ra p\u00e5 oss. \u00c4n finns det hopp. Hur l\u00e4nge vet ingen.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

T h\u00e4lsar p\u00e5. Kamrater f\u00f6rr. Kamrater nu. Han nyopererad f\u00f6r prostatacancer. Har besv\u00e4r. Jag, som jag \u00e4r med mina sm\u00e5kr\u00e4mpor. Vi \u00e4r m\u00e4rkta av levda liv. Jag m\u00f6ter en gubbe. Han m\u00f6ter en gubbe. N\u00e4r vi b\u00e5da var f\u00f6r sig tittar oss i spegeln ser ingen av oss en gubbe. Det \u00e4r konstigt det d\u00e4r. 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