{"id":33640,"date":"2019-11-25T16:31:16","date_gmt":"2019-11-25T15:31:16","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=33640"},"modified":"2019-11-25T20:28:06","modified_gmt":"2019-11-25T19:28:06","slug":"guldvittring","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=33640","title":{"rendered":"Guldvittring"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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M\u00f6rker, m\u00f6rker, och \u00e4nnu mer m\u00f6rker. \u00c5ker till h\u00e4lsocentralen f\u00f6r att ta prov som f\u00f6rberedelse inf\u00f6rt n\u00e4sta sjukhusbes\u00f6k. Denna r\u00e4cka av sjukv\u00e5rd som aldrig tycks ta slut. Men alltid trevligt p\u00e5 v\u00e5r lilla h\u00e4lsocentral. V\u00e4nligt och kamratligt. En av m\u00e5nga f\u00f6rdelar med Los.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

F\u00e5r h\u00f6ra att \u00e4nnu en i min \u00e5lder \u00e5kt p\u00e5 prostatacancer i Los. Alla g\u00e5r inte l\u00e4ngre att r\u00e4kna nu. Det m\u00e5ste vara \u00f6ver snittet det h\u00e4r antalet definitivt. Varf\u00f6r, fr\u00e5gar man sig. \u00d6ver huvud taget s\u00e5 k\u00e4nner man allt f\u00f6r m\u00e5nga som \u00e5kt p\u00e5 det d\u00e4r nu. Imorgon kommer t.e.x god kamrat upp som \u00e4r nyopererad i Uppsala. De flesta \u00f6verlever. De kvarst\u00e5ende effekterna av operation och str\u00e5lning blir olika. Men v\u00e4rda det om man f\u00e5r ett l\u00e4ngre liv s\u00e5klart. Men allt f\u00f6r m\u00e5nga har dukat under ocks\u00e5. Uppt\u00e4ckt skiten f\u00f6r sent. Ta PSA prov sa kamrat Staffan f\u00f6r m\u00e5nga, m\u00e5nga \u00e5r sedan. Han som allt hopp var ute f\u00f6r och som dog ett \u00e5r efter\u00e5t. “Ta PSA prov” sagt till varenda man han tr\u00e4ffade som var \u00f6ver fyrtio. D\u00e5 pratades det inte s\u00e5 mycket om prostatacancer. Numera verkar folk kunna prata om det, En bra utveckling. G\u00f6r det l\u00e4ttare att v\u00e4lja behandling. \u00d6ppenhet l\u00e4ttar p\u00e5 hj\u00e4rntryck n\u00e4r d\u00f6ds\u00e5ngest kryper sig p\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

H\u00e4r \u00e4r det en tr\u00f6tt dag. En riktigt tr\u00f6tt dag. Skjutsar iv\u00e4g ett adventspaket s\u00f6derut. Annars blir det inte s\u00e5 mycket mer med dagen. Den d\u00e4r koncentrationen, inspirationen vill helt enkelt inte infinna sig. Jag v\u00e4ntar ot\u00e5ligt ut det tr\u00f6tta s\u00e5klart. Ger mig inte. Trycker in kod med v\u00e5ld ist\u00e4llet. Pressar in den fast den motvilligt spj\u00e4rnar emot. Stor skillnad mot en vanlig dag d\u00e5 koden liksom flyter p\u00e5 plats som l\u00e4tta fj\u00e4drar fr\u00e5n ett sv\u00e4vande t\u00e4cke med h\u00e5l i som landar v\u00e4l ordnade p\u00e5 ett lakan d\u00e4runder.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jo jag pratar ju med gammal musikstj\u00e4rna idag ocks\u00e5. Sjukskriven fram till jul. G\u00e5r p\u00e5 n\u00e4r alla andra blir lediga. En gamling till. Van vid det s\u00e5klart. Att jobba n\u00e4r andra \u00e4r lediga. Artisternas aviga arbetssituation. Men han skriver musik nu. Fler l\u00e5tar ligger kvar d\u00e4r i huvudet p\u00e5 honom. Det tycker jag \u00e4r bra.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Studiodatorn har kraschat h\u00e4r igen. Konstigt. F\u00e5r byta disk. Kanske ocks\u00e5 n\u00e4taggregat. N\u00e5got skumt \u00e4r det i alla fall. Men kanske \u00e4r det h\u00e4r han\/hon\/det\/guds finger som pekar p\u00e5 mig och s\u00e4ger att d\u00e4r, hos ocool gubbe, skall det minsann inte tillverkas mer (skit)musik. “Det finns andra som kan det d\u00e4r s\u00e5 mycket b\u00e4ttre”. Ja ni vet s\u00e5d\u00e4r som herrarna s\u00e4ger till dem d\u00e4r nere. “F\u00f6rs\u00f6k inte”. “Stannar kvar d\u00e4r du \u00e4r”. “Odugllng”.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men jag har aldrig lyssnat p\u00e5 s\u00e5dant d\u00e4r. Inte bugat s\u00e5 mycket f\u00f6r “herrarna” heller. Inte ens om de kallats gudar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

L\u00e5g en natt och t\u00e4nkte p\u00e5 vilka i sitt f\u00f6rflutna och i nutid man skulle ge fem miljoner till om man satt d\u00e4r med femtio. Tv\u00e5 identifierar jag ganska snabbt. Japp dom \u00e4r v\u00e4rde lite guldkant. Men sen d\u00e5? Jo, det finns en i nutid. Definitivt. Men att komma upp med fler \u00e4n tre som gjort sig f\u00f6rtj\u00e4nt av n\u00e5got s\u00e5dant under ens liv blir sv\u00e5rt. Men kanske \u00e4r tre en bra siffra. Det blir hur som helst trettiofem miljoner kvar som man f\u00e5r sk\u00e4nka till n\u00e5got open source grejs. Eller n\u00e5gon cancer fond. Eller n\u00e5got.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

F\u00f6r vad skall man sj\u00e4lv med femtio miljoner till!?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kan man undra…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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