{"id":33553,"date":"2019-11-18T09:18:10","date_gmt":"2019-11-18T08:18:10","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=33553"},"modified":"2019-11-18T09:18:10","modified_gmt":"2019-11-18T08:18:10","slug":"onda-tankar","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=33553","title":{"rendered":"Onda tankar"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"498\" height=\"886\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/11\/IMG_20191118_081550612_HDR.jpg?resize=498%2C886&#038;ssl=1\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-33554\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/11\/IMG_20191118_081550612_HDR.jpg?w=498&amp;ssl=1 498w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/11\/IMG_20191118_081550612_HDR.jpg?resize=169%2C300&amp;ssl=1 169w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 498px) 100vw, 498px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Jag vaknar med ordentlig huvudv\u00e4rk. Antagligen beror den p\u00e5 alla onda tankar som riktas mot mig. En Alvedon ordnar det d\u00e4r. N\u00e5ja, ganska bra. T\u00e4nk att onda tankar riktad mot en kan ta nya v\u00e4gar bara man stoppar i sig ett litet vitt piller? Fantastiskt! Alvedon borde firas med en egen dag varje \u00e5r. En dag stor och viktig som midsommar. Hur m\u00e5nga arbetsdagar har inte en snabbt nedsk\u00f6ljd Alvedon r\u00e4ddat?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Skotta postl\u00e5dor \u00e4r ett m\u00e5ste. Ingen annan g\u00f6r det. S\u00e5 jag g\u00f6r det. H\u00e5ller k\u00e4ften och skottar. Fast det borde vara n\u00e5got goda grannar delar p\u00e5 s\u00e5klart. Men s\u00e5 \u00e4r det inte. Inte h\u00e4r i alla fall. Har aldrig varit. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Men jag \u00e4r glad \u00f6ver att kunna skotta sj\u00e4lv numera. Det g\u00e5ngna \u00e5ret har K och N f\u00e5tt st\u00e5 f\u00f6r det d\u00e4r. Det \u00e4r underligt, men vissa saker \u00e4r jobbigare att f\u00e5 gjorda av andra \u00e4n att g\u00f6ra dem sj\u00e4lv. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Inne p\u00e5 l\u00e5tsaskontoret t\u00e4nder jag ljuset. Livsl\u00e5gan. Jag beh\u00f6ver det d\u00e4r ljuset. Det lugnar mitt sinne. Drar visserligen ner mig en del ocks\u00e5. Men jag gilla ju det d\u00e4r bl\u00e5. Befinner mig g\u00e4rna d\u00e4r. Klagar allts\u00e5 inte p\u00e5 det.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">N\u00e4r jag l\u00e4mnade sjukhuset i somras s\u00e5 fick jag inte g\u00e5 hem innan alla sjuksk\u00f6terskor f\u00e5tt varsin kram. Jag som inte \u00e4r van att f\u00e5 uppm\u00e4rksamhet p\u00e5 det viset blev lite \u00f6verv\u00e4ldigad av det d\u00e4r. Vi fick n\u00e5gon slags kontakt d\u00e4r. Det fanns en v\u00e4rme som alla dessa fantastiska m\u00e4nniskor bj\u00f6d p\u00e5 som jag aldrig kommer att gl\u00f6mma. Ja och egentligen borde en sjukhusvistelse h\u00f6ra till de d\u00e5liga upplevelserna i livet. Men s\u00e5 blev det definitivt inte. Det \u00e4r s\u00e5 s\u00e4llan man m\u00f6ts av v\u00e4rme numera ens i det lilla.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Fast tillfrisknar g\u00f6r jag. H\u00e4lsocentralsprov i fredags var bra. Tre m\u00e5nader till s\u00e5.  Fast ser s\u00e4mre g\u00f6r jag f\u00f6r varje dag s\u00e5klart. Men gr\u00e5ter inte \u00f6ver det. \u00c4nnu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Nu dippar eln\u00e4tet h\u00e4r ordentligt. Sn\u00f6legor gissar man. Mer \u00e4n ett tr\u00e4d som kommer att kn\u00e4ckas av den h\u00e4r tunga bl\u00f6ta sn\u00f6n. Fast oj vad det blivit b\u00e4ttre h\u00e4r sedan ledningar blivit nedgr\u00e4vda och isolerad elledningar ersatt blanktr\u00e5den i stolparna. Str\u00f6mavbrott tillh\u00f6r s\u00e4llsyntheterna nuf\u00f6rtiden. F\u00f6rr var det str\u00f6mavbrott minst m\u00e5nadsvis under vinterhalv\u00e5ret. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Under en av de d\u00e4r kabelnedgr\u00e4vningarna s\u00e5 gr\u00e4vde Fortum av kabeln som g\u00e5r mellan v\u00e5rt hus och garaget. Lagades d\u00e5. Men sen har den gradvis blivit s\u00e4mre sedan dess. Gissningsvis dragskada n\u00e5gon annanstans \u00e4n d\u00e4r brottet var. Dem h\u00e4r veckan skall dom kolla upp den. Vore v\u00e4ldigt trevligt att f\u00e5 el i garaget igen. Har en tanke om att bygga en uppv\u00e4rmd l\u00e5da d\u00e4r ute d\u00e4r jag kan ha en server f\u00f6r databackup. Brinner huset upp s\u00e5 finns det viktiga kvar d\u00e4r ute \u00e4r tanken. Vid brand spelar det ju liksom ingen roll om man har hundra bakuper liggande, om de ocks\u00e5 brinner upp.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">K\u00f6r fortfarande <a href=\"https:\/\/open.spotify.com\/track\/1L3uVLsPEC8Er4uoyixLk5?si=jnBRKwFYRdyGePNaP4UBTg\">den h\u00e4r<\/a>. Gillar \u00e4n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Nu f\u00e5r det vara nog med struntprat.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Jag vaknar med ordentlig huvudv\u00e4rk. Antagligen beror den p\u00e5 alla onda tankar som riktas mot mig. En Alvedon ordnar det d\u00e4r. N\u00e5ja, ganska bra. T\u00e4nk att onda tankar riktad mot en kan ta nya v\u00e4gar bara man stoppar i sig ett litet vitt piller? Fantastiskt! Alvedon borde firas med en egen dag varje \u00e5r. 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